Month 4

[Athena8]

What is it with month 4 that has me beating my head against the wall wanting a cigarette?  Month 1 was hard... don't get me wrong.  Months 2 and 3 go by and I find myself getting stronger...finding faith that I can actually do this.  Month 4.....Wham!  Feel like I'm right back at square one.  Not sure what it is with this month but it keeps me hanging on day by day.  Sigh.