I have 33 days quit and am officially in No Man's Land. Now, the positives of this are amazing (and these a only a few):
- I am physically free from nicotine
- I am physically free from many effects of smoking
- I smell good
- My house smells good
- I'm saving money
- I'm saving my future health
But today, there are some negatives I'm dealing with that are making this One Tough Day:
- Saturdays are hard because I have no routines for them like I do for weekdays
- I've been reminded by some other blogs how lonely I am sometimes as a widow
- I'm not poor, but I'm not rich either and I can't always just go out shopping or to a movie
- It's really tough to go to local events alone - I can do it, but it gets old
So, despite the FACTS that my quit has provided so many really, positive things for me, and everyone in my family is so proud of me, and I'm so proud of me, too...even so...today is One Tough Day. But none of those tough things have anything to do with smoking at all. The only reason I think I want to smoke is that I feel lonely and bored and I want an old friend to help me get through the day. And I know that thinking of cigarettes as an old friend is a LIE. They won't help me at all. In fact, I know I'd feel worse if I gave in to that feeling. What I need to do is find some tasks around the house or something entertaining on Netflix.