Almost through 3 days

[Alisyn]

Cried a lot the first day. Felt waves of irritability and anger both today and yesterday. I don't want to be short tempered with the people I love, but it feels like they are driving me crazy sometimes! I am trying to learn mindfulness now as part of a new morning ritual. Instead of cigarettes and coffee I'm learning to meditate for 5 minutes a day to start. It's something I've wanted to do for a long time, so now is the time. It was already helpful today. When I felt stressed I took deep breaths. I am looking forward to enjoying smoke free clothes, and fresh breath etc. but I'm too pre-occupied thinking about other things right now, like how to keep my sanity. Interesting how I feel both like it's only been 3 days and like wow, its already been three days! I do feel a free in that everything I do isn't started or ended with a cigarette.