Stopped, then started. Stopped, then started. Now have been smoking for months. Stopped again 4 days ago. Felt a little loopy but was on a trip with 7 other people which made it easier to never be alone. Having alone time means smoking time. Am now on flight home. Facing inevitable alone time. Want to feel that alone time means - FUN time, CREATIVE time, EXERCISE time, EXPLORING time. When will this happen? Right now am still craving.
