I started smoking at twelve years old. I thought it was cool until around 19 -20 years old, and I've been struggling with my addiction ever since, I'm 28 now. I wish I had never started and I feel like I'm under hopless control of cigarette.s. I beat myself up everyday for being to weak to quit, and I feel like I'll never be successful. I understand the power of addiction in the brain and and of thoughts and core beliefs, but I am at a loss and completely dumb founded by the fact that I can't give cigs up despite the fact I despise myself for smoking. Talk about cognitive dissonance, how long must I stay in this state of cognitive dissonance before I finally stop, it's been at least 8 years?