Boy I have messed up

[Wanttostopnow]

I wish I never saw an E cig!! 

4 years ago after being off cigarettes for so long I just needed that hit of nicotine while going through a hard time.

I started at the highest level of nicotine they would allow.

and of course I loved it!

i have lied to myself for so long ... that these things are ok ... or this will be the last bottle of E liquid I buy. 

Ha! What a joke. That's been going on in my head for a year. 

I have at least moved down from 24m on the nicotine to 12m on the nicotine.

Now it's starting to bother me. Has been for at least a year . I used to have asthma but I had improved to 100% before the E. it took it 3 years to start me back up with asthma . 

Whats so crazy about the addiction is it makes you think like a fool. I actually breath on a rescue inhaler everyday just so I can smoke. The stupid part is when I'm wheezing and can't breath I say I will never smoke it again. Then I use the medication and get ok and in no time that feeling hits. Then I say " just one more hit" 

i am so mad with myself over this.

Im doing damage ! I know I am because I work in EMS for crying out loud.

i have my E with me all the time. I bet I smoke it more than any cigarette smoker who smokes 2 packs a day , because it's so easy and doesn't smell.

i have really back myself into a corner here. 

[JACKIE1-25-15]

Glad you are here.  Please read the suggested material.  WE are here to support you.  The idea is to move forward and not take another puff.  It is doable. Come here participate.  You have to relearn the hand and mouth behavior along with the physical addiction.  Stay close. 

[YoungAtHeart]

We ALL know how you feel!  Most of us were still smoking cigarettes knowing full well what it was doing to our health.  We are ADDICTS, plain and simple.

I hope you will take the time to read the material I provided for you, and do the preparation and planning we have found works.  Quitting the e-cig might present its own challenges since you could pretty much smoke it anywhere, anytime in the early days.  But  - an addiction is an addiction - and smoking a cigarette or an e-cigarette is not really much different.

Educate yourself, first and foremost.

We can help you if you are willing to help yourself!

Nancy

[Thomas3.20.2010]

Smart Ladies have responded! I hope you listen! Read up just as if you were smoking Sickerettes - Nicotine is Nicotine - both highly addictive and an insecticide. You can have your Freedom but you have to claim it! Set a Quit Date and NO EXCUSES - keep it! It's that simple! I didn't say easy! Cutting back does not work - only stopping! Then not one puff ever! N.O.P.E.! We are here for you!

[JonesCarpeDiem]

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[Jennifer-Quit]

It is not just about quitting smoking - it is really about getting off nicotine.  As long as you are getting nicotine thru a nicotine patch,  nicotine gum, nicotine lozenge, or e-cig - you will remain a nicotine addict.  Educate yourself about this addiction - the more you know the better prepared you will be to beat it.  Set a quit date - get rid of everything smoke or e-cig related - and quit.  Do it one day at a time - the same way that we all did it.  And stay close to this site - the support that you get here makes all the difference in the world!

[elvan]

Wanttostopnow  You sound pretty much like all of us sounded at one time.  Education is a HUGE part of success in recovery.  Addiction is addiction and you need to read about how to start your recovery and remember that this is a journey, it is NOT an event...it is one day at a time, sometimes, it is one emotion at a time.  We stuffed our emotions down with nicotine and now we all have to learn to deal with them.  I can tell you that it is empowering to be free from nicotine.  I agree with everything already advised...stay close, blog, comment, have faith in the fact that you can do this because you can.

Welcome,

Ellen

[Ready2021]

This is a good place to be for support