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bkaylor
Member

Today is the day (again) My Story

To start off, I will introduce myself as some background info. I am a 29 year old male living in Michigan. I have a wife and a 3 year old little boy. As a young child I was diagnosed with ADD and later in life I was diagnosed with ADHD. I was on medications for this throughout my entire teens and then stopped when I finished high school because it caused a lot of eating issues and turn me into a robot which hurt my social life as an introvert.

I started smoking when I was 12 with some friends thinking it was cool and that is when I developed the addiction. It was easier to quit when I was younger because I couldn't actually buy them and getting into trouble with the law forced me to stay home on probation in my mid teens. As soon as I turned 18 I went to smoking and was a full time smoker for 10+ years.

In stating all of this, it is now apparent that cigs have been apart of my life for quite sometime and I engraved it into my daily routine which has made quitting extremely challenging for me. I can't tell you how many times I have attempted to quit and failed. I've tried cold turkey, patches and Chantix. My longest quit was exactly one year while on Chantix and I replaced cigs with running.

And then ... vaping got big and I decided to go to that as a safer alternative since I missed the novelty of smoking. That has actually made quitting even harder for me. I know that I have the right mindset and continually want to quit for my health, to save money from the $7 per day pack of cigs (which I smoke a pack or more a day).

Last night, I was on my deck at my wife and I's new house we just moved into and my son approached me while smoking. I had to be stern with him to stay away from me while smoking my cigarette and he just looked at me confused. I said "Buddy you cannot be next to daddy when he is smoking. I don't want you to get sick, I said." That was when a red flag was raised for me. I felt horrible that I was exposing him to this crap and that I would be setting a bad example for him on day to struggle with this addiction the same way I did. Just writing this brings tears to my eyes thinking about him and this addiction.

I really want to quit smoking but i struggle so much with the routine and the habit of smoking. I would love to hear some tips from people who have quit and struggled as much as I have. I always think to myself, "I see so many people live their lives normally without cigs ... how do they do it?"

I was supposed to quit last night but this morning I was awoken to an intense craving and bought a pack and smoke 1 cig. When I got to work I put my nicotine patch on and I am calling this my quit day and hopefully this will be the last time. Now I am here typing this message out to random strangers on the internet in hope to build a strong sense of community with people who struggled and/or are struggling with this right now. 

My name is Brandon and today I officially quit smoking. Please HELP! 

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bkaylor
Member

Yeah, the problem was that I got rid of the cigs and lighters in the house but I didn't take the time to get rid of the vaping device and it was all set up for me in my office when I game. That is partially because I've done this dance so many times where I would throw out my vaping device and then later I would relapse and have to buy a new device which costs money overtime. So I didn't want to throw it out ...

I am not confident with my ability to quit so many attempts over the years. Even when I am passed the addiction and made it 6+ months I will remember what I liked most about smoking and that is the novelty, routine and sensation. It's like in my mind I was successful with quitting and all the bad things about it vanish while looking at others smoking who seem healthy. Or even a friend who switched to vaping and I immediately jump on board. I have never been able to truly find a replacement for cigs which is my problem.

I've tried the following:

  1. Gum
  2. David Seeds
  3. Running & Exercise
  4. Drinking lots of water wherever I go (then I have to stop everywhere to take a leak every 15 min lol)

But they all get old after awhile. The salt from the seeds make me realize its not good for my teeth and the gum flavoring gives me headaches if I chew too much. I would trying drinking plenty of water after months of being free from nicotine etc. In terms of hobbies, I love to game and that is it. Nothing really tickles my fancy outside of that.

I smoke marijuana on rare occasions for stress, anxiety and to help with my sleep issues. I've just never been the type of person that is calm and can sit still for long periods of time and that is a big trigger for me. If I am not constantly doing something I end up breaking if I get too bored.

Sometimes I think that this addiction will follow me to my grave with how unsuccessful I have been. My father was an alcoholic and a big smoker. It runs in the family I suppose.

If I had one wish, it would not be for money. It would be to smoke a cig that wouldn't cause me to have health issues, and smell bad from the smoke. That is probably not the right mindset but it gives you an idea on where my head is at when it comes to smoking.

YoungAtHeart
Member

There will ALWAYS be excuses to smoke/vape.  There is never a good reason to do so. 

NEVER keep your vape device or cigarettes around when you quit.  Doing so is just giving yourself permission to fail.  When you quit, you will save SO much money that the $$$ spent to replace a device when you fail will just be a drop in the bucket.

PLEASE don't wait until you have lung troubles before you do this.  So many do - and it is SO not worth it. 

I also am a person who doesn't sit still well - and took many a walk - sometimes just down and back the driveway, or did some sit/stands or jumping jacks, or marched in place to get past a crave.  The early days take EFFORT, but as you get further along in your quit, it becomes easier and easier to simply live your life.

Just give it the time it takes - it WILL get easier and it WILL be worth it - I promise!

maryfreecig
Member

Hi Brandon, welcome to Ex. I've always believed in smobriety, not just quitting. Some smokers can let go and not look back, but I knew that my mind would have to change--first came behavior change.

Not picking up a cigarette is a big deal. This kind of behavior change is a must. But in time, a lot of us quitters have to change the way we think about smoking. Support can go a long way in helping with this--Ex is definitely here to offer you encouragement every day (and that includes planning your quit). Please don't be fooled by urges and cravings--eventually they go away. Recovery is sweet revenge on addiction. 

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SuzyQ411
Member

Welcome to the EX, Brandon bkaylor‌...I am hoping that Day #1 of your quit went well...As many have noted, there is a wealth of inforrmation above that has been offered as help for you. One additional thing that is helping me is deep breathing. It works to not only relax you but to also open up your lungs so they can begin to function much better. I use this image as a  guide:

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Best wishes from this 77 year old lady who smoked heavily for over 60 years and has now been totally quit for almost 7 months~ Suzy 

I got dizzy Suzy. 

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SuzyQ411
Member

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deep breathing circle.gif Is this one better Mike Mike.n.Atlanta‌ ?

I've suddessfully used both~ Suzy

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I struggle with the regret every day that my 39 year old son is a vaper & my 36 year old daughter is a smoker. I know that I was the influence of these results. All I can do now is be the example & maintain my quit in the hopes that someday they will see the light earlier than I did. Right now your job is to break this habit in the hopes that he won't remember.

We also have a 21 & 17 year old that never knew me as a smoker. One day when the 17 Y.O. was about 5-6 I had to do some plumbing on the kitchen pipes. She's watching while I pull everything from the cabinet & there's an old ashtray I didn't throw away. I just laid it aside to trashcan later & she asked, "What's that?". I told her it was a candy dish & left it at that. There was just a little joy in my soul to know that she had no idea what an ashtray was. Hopefully, one day your son won't be able to recall that day on the deck.

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It was nice reading this Mike.  I never tell you, but I am so proud that you quit smoking so long ago!  You are the best husband a gal could have!  

elvan
Member

Welcome to EX. I am ALWAYS so impressed with the advice & support that cone from this community & you have gotten some of the best l have ever read. I quit so many times that l seriously don’t think l can count that high. I started smoking when l was 17 & l did not get to this, my “forever” quit until l was 64. That was over 6 1/2 years ago. I won’t tell you that it was easy because that was not my experience. I have chronic pain & l used that as one of my countless excuses.  It wasn’t until l thought it was too late for me that l came to this site & embraced all of the suggestions & advice that l got here that my eyes were opened. I MADE myself identify my triggers & PLAN for them, what would l do INSTEAD of smoking. It could not be a “punishment” thing, l tried that in the past with seriously bad results. I had to be HONEST with myself & look at the damage l had done to my body. Did smoking REALLY help with pain? With stress? With anger? With sadness? The absolute, unvarnished truth was no. All those years that l smoked, l allowed the addiction to steal not just irreplaceable moments with my family but to steal my very ability to BREATHE. I have COPD with emphysema & asthma along with many other health issues directly related to smoking. Every day with every difficult breath, l am reminded that it really did not have to be this way. If l had quit when l was YOUR age, my two youngest kids would not ever have had to deal with the stolen minutes smoking took from them. They would not have to deal with the YEARS l have lost because of this hateful addiction. I wish l had never started but l cannot make that happen. Living with guilt & regret are NEARLY as damaging as smoking. Don’t allow your addiction to steal another moment of your life, don’t allow yourself to deny what smoking is already stealing from you. Stay close to this site, accept the advice you can use & be grateful for every moment of freedom.
Ellen

Cousin-Itt
Member

bkaylor‌   This is a great group of people and received some great tips So I figure to add 1 more

    What I found worked well for me was music If I was driving I always carried a couple of my favorite CDs and started singing. When I was a teenager I always listened to music when things seemed to go wrong or had things on my mind or I'd put a LP on the turntable to fall asleep.  I still listen and enjoy music and I still use it to relax and YES I still put a LP on the turntable and fall asleep.

  Make a commitment pledge everyday let's do this thing

Carl