You have received lot of responses. There are several things that could be causing the problem as previously stated above. Here is something that I want to share with you from one of the elders. It comes from a post similiar to yours. You are, not the only one who has felt what you are feeling. The issue is getting past those feelings. For some it takes harder work not to go back to smoking especially if you are romancing the cigarette. Bottom line Close the door.
Now hear From Giulia
When you're supposed to start feeling better is really all about an attitude adjustment. To my mind anyway. For me, until I was willing to go through whatever it took for however long it took, I suffered. Until I closed that door on the possibility of smoking, I left the choice open. And it's allowing the choice that makes the journey all that more difficult. I can't really explain that attitude adjustment, but for those who have made it, they have achieved the long-term freedom they so desired.
You're clinging to your old smoking self. We all did. As long as you cling to it, you won't experience the benefits of the changes that have taken place. I didn't notice many changes myself. (And I did gain weight too, that's normal.) But one I DID notice was that I could smell things I hadn't smelled in years. Rather than dwelling on the lack of improvement, spend time dwelling on the opposite. Whatever little bit it may be.
"I used to be a happy, fun type of person." What you're saying is in essence because you've stopped smoking you are no longer that person. Which means the only reason you WERE that happy fun person is because you had a cigarette with you all the time. Think about that. Did puffing on a chemically addictive cigarette make you a happy, fun person? No. You're just passing those attributes onto a cigarette. You can be a happy, fun person without a stupid cigarette. You've simply made a false connection in your brain. That's what we addicts do.
How do you solve the problem? Focus on something other than the negative aspects you are going through. Dig for the positives if need be. Discover what you're supposed to learn from this experience. Take it as a growth experiment. And really examine why you chose to stop smoking in the first place. We can forget that along the way. Revisit it. And if the impetus has lost some of its excitement, find a way to revive it. That's part of our on-going homework. I've always found that supporting others is a great incentive. When we offer advice to others, it echoes back in our own brains and reinforces our own commitment. Expectations, Timelines and the Reality YOU Create
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