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Freedomcat
Member

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I've been panicking the past few days. Almost constant in the past 48 hours. Feeling completely overwhelmed. Terrified, a sense of impending doom, clenching burning in my belly, mind racing, overwhelming grief. Dont feel safe anywhere. 

I havent felt this way I about 2.5 years when i had a breakdown and went on stress leave for a year. Its come back with my quit and the only thing I can think of doing that feels safe right now mlm is to smoke. It's my safe place. Its what I turned to whenever I was overwhelmed and consumed with panic in the past. It's what I turned to when my mom on died suddenly 19 years ago. Now I dont know where to turn and the grief and fear feel absolutely overwhelming. 

The idea of smoking seems better than this. I dont feel I can cope with life like this. 

And I dont know if any of you can really help me. But thought I'd try.  

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Pawr
Member

Enjoy the smells and tastes you've been missing.  Admittedly some aren't so great but have you noticed how bad those smokers stink? Day by day, sometimes hour by hour. "F" cigarettes . They aren't what they promised us in the advertisements.

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YoungAtHeart
Member

...ALL of the Marlboro men died of smoking-related diseases....and the "Long Way Baby" from Virginia Slims only led us to a doctor for cancer treatment!

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Barb102
Member

Great job.  You are doing this by more than a string. 

Giulia
Member

Hang in by the rope of NOPE and a https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/thread/19643-the-daily-pledge-january-2019?messageTarget=all&star... 

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Let that best part of you choose.  Not the weakest part.

jconfusion
Member

it the addiction to the nicotine is all this is dear.  I chewed Nicorette gum for 3 months to deal with the with draw pain, have you tried meditating? are you being medicated for your panic attacks?  im on anti anxiety meds and antipsychotic meds.    just watch a funny movie laugh a lot it helps with the depression and the anxiety.  take deep breaths from your diaphragm breath in blue breath out black. breathing in blue to calm and relax you and breathing out black as in the addiction and stress.  you don't know how stong you are until you've tried.  good luck!

iluvekl1
Member

I'm so sorry that you feell this way!!!  I totally understand!!!  My quit day is Feb.4th & it seems like I am wanting to smoke more instead of less.  I am experiencing constant anxiety & overwhelm.  I have a long history of anxiety, depression & ADD;  can't take medication because of stomach issues & side effects.  I quit smoking for 13 years when my daughter was 3 years old with a group of 3 friends.  miraculously did not start again when my husband died 3 years later.  I started smoking again when I found out my daughter was smoking in her junior year of high school (2003).  She quit 3 years ago & I am still smoking ~4 cigs/day.  I know I should quit but I only know 1 other person who smokes & she is not interested in quitting.  I feel ashamed & guilty.  I am a "closet smoker" - I smoke only at home (outdoors) & only 6 people on the planet even know that I smoke, because I am so embarrassed.   If I get sick from this, it would hurt my daughter & I'm afraid that she would hate me for leaving her an orphan, which could have been prevented if I had quit.  I know I am rambling & rationalizing, but I would surely appreciate any thoughts or phone numbers to exchange with others who are just beginning this "adventure".  I do best when I have people who are on the same page whom I can talk to.  Thank you!!

sweetplt
Member

You have had a lot iluvekl1 ... bless your Heart ... give yourself big hug and extra taking care of yourself to prepare for this Quit.  Cyber hugs out to you ~ Colleen

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iluvekl1
Member

Thank you Colleen,

Today is day 1 of my quit. I will need LOTS of support as I am not in the

best of mental health to be doing this. I just want to sleep & let the

days pass by until I am well. I have no energy or enthusiasm to reach out

to connect with people. I pray this journey gets better!

Magnolialane
Member

Day 1 for me, too! Best of luck to you. 

elvan
Member

Welcome to EX, please post a blog introducing yourself...go to the little pencil next to your avatar and select Blog Post, introduce yourself to the community and you will get LOTS of support.  I suggest reading a blog by JonesCarpeDiem‌ https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/thread/6040-my-welcome-to-new-members-12-years-of-watching Read everything you can about nicotine addiction and remember that a quit is not an event, it is the beginning of a journey.  The journey is not easy and can be filled with many challenges but I can tell you that many people here suffered unspeakable losses but kept their quits because they took care of them...they protected their quits, no matter what. Please read blogs, stay close to the site, we all want to support you and make this quit successful for you.

Ellen