tryinmydarndest I had to put my quit before anything else and I made absolutely certain that my smoking friends knew that. I refused to drink any alcohol until I had six months under my belt and I would not hang around smokers...even outside unless I could get far enough away so that I did not feel like I was inhaling their waste products. I put a little dab of Vicks under my nose so that the smell of the cigarette smoke would be somewhat blocked. It is surprisingly effective. I found that my smoking friends were, for the most part, very supportive. I cannot say that I am feeling that coming from your husband...he seems bent on testing you over and over again, is that because he does not think that HE can quit? You need to protect your quit like its life depends upon you because it DOES...without you caring and nurturing it like the newborn that it is...it will not survive. You have come so far and you absolutely deserve support, respect, and the necessary space to care for your "baby." This is a journey and it DOES get easier, it takes time and patience and it is hard to remember that in the beginning. You are doing a GREAT job. I think that if I were you and it was an option, I would not stay inside and pout, I would leave for the weekend and I would make it abundantly clear to others why I made that decision. I think you have earned that.
Wish I could help you more...I will tell you this, the time that you are living now with young children, is absolutely amazing, watch your children and enjoy them, it goes by so quickly and as a smoke free parent, you will be giving them a better example, you will smell better, and you will....seriously be able to enjoy them longer because your risk of developing a smoking related illness will significantly decrease.
You are doing an amazing job.
Ellen
