Why all of a sudden?!

[emostruggle]

I really don't get it, I am on day 12 today and it feels like I have been starting at the beginning of my quit since day 10. I am off my rocker today between the fighting in my head and crying uncontrollably. Plus I don't know how to combat my trigger of my house. It's the only place I used to smoke and I can't just avoid it, but everything I do and everywhere I go today makes me remember and miss smoking.  I'm super nastalgic too and it is killing me. So badly just want to say screw it today, I'm sick of crying all the time!!

[crazymama_Lori]

I remember when I was first thinking about quitting almost 3 to 4 years ago, this time really seriously thinking about it.  I never had physical problems, like shortness of breath, COPD, but the thought of quitting terrified me.  I couldn't imagine myself not smoking.  Way back when I was the chain smoker.  I averaged about 2 packs a day, but when drinking it shot up to 3 packs a day easily.  back in the end of 2015, I noticed that my wheezing increased and I started having dizzy spells at times.  It was hard to climb steps.  I thought, yep, my body is telling me it's time.  I wandered around this site for 2 years.  I'd pop in and do some reading, but always went back to smoking.  I at that time only thought of this as a habit.  Quitting can't be that hard.  Everybody that I ever talked to said they just cut down and quit or they just threw them away one day and that was that, they never bothered to tell me all this other stuff that goes on.  Then after trying e-cigs, wellbutrin, inhalers, drops, I can't even tell you how much money I spent on those quick fixes, I started reading, researching, going to different sites, whyquit.com, Will an Online Support Group Help Me Quit Smoking? | Everyday Health , just did an overall google search.  Then I viewed this video about 60 days or so in my quit and it all started coming together for me Quitting Smoking is a Journey - YouTube, that helped put this into place for me.  This wasn't just simply a habit I was kicking.  it was a life I had to relearn to simply not do one thing, smoking.  To see quitting as an all-encompassing thing is very hard to do at first.  To piece it out into sections makes it easier to battle.  The first 2 to 3 weeks are the nicotine withdrawals.  The next 2 to 3 weeks is your body adjusting.  Then your brain likes to mess around with you for a while.  You'll notice that you go through the stages of grief.  These are my bookmarks that I have for myself and also for others when they need them, These were and still are my go-to bookmarks 600 days later.  this is certainly no easy feat, but if you are willing to dig your heels in, commit yourself and simply take one day at a time, you will be successful.  Take some time here and read and understand what's happening and why what you're feeling in NORMAL.  Watch the video, it makes sense, it gives you insight.  Reach out to the members.  Find yourself a quit buddy if you need one,  Go to https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/newbie-quitters?sr=search&searchId=27bf9e34-5b6f-4db5-a5f3...‌ or https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/groups/find-a-quit-buddy?sr=search&searchId=d6e513c6-82bf-4070-97...‌ or just post on here that you're looking for one.  There are over 28,000 people on this site.  We are all doing the same thing and understand what you are going through.  Some have quite a bit of experience and some have a few years under their belt.  We're all here to help each other.  You will be successful....... trust me, you will 

[Giulia]

Why all of a sudden?  Because that's the nature of this addiction.  Any addiction, actually, I would think.  And when you "get" that, you'll probably never have another relapse.  Sometimes the triggers are obvious, sometimes they come out of the blue for no reason whatsoever.  And it can happens years down the line.  With enough experience (i.e. time quit) you'll learn how to deal with them:  /blogs/Giulia-blog/2015/08/21/stay-safe-be-prepared 

Jump right back into the pool with us.  The water is fine and you'll get used to the swimming technique.  If you think of your entire house as a trigger, then you need to change your thinking.  Fight for the best of you.  The best of you knows what's best for you.

[Daniela2016]

Don't be so upset with your temporary weakness, it is not that , it is the addiction which was stronger than you, found you not prepared enough.  You got a lot of advice, there isn't much I can add but please be good to yourself, forgive yourself, cry some more if that is what it takes and get back on your plan.  We'll be here to support if you ask for help and just wait for someone to answer.  Tell yourself "can I wait a little bit more"?  Maybe send a note here then go for a walk instead of staring at the screen for an answer; that in itself can be a trigger.  You can do it!

[Thomas3.20.2010]

You are doing one of the greatest - most challenging things you've ever done! But you can do this! You have to build up your new life in your mind. Don't focus so much on what you're "giving up!" If you try to make willpower work - you will run out of steam! You choose to become whoever you want to be! That's so exciting! It's also a huge task! Imagine that person vividly! Then day after day pretend you are there - that person of the future! Finally one day you wake up and you don't have to fake til you make it - because you have become! WOW! Just WOW!

[emostruggle]

Wow, all I can say is THANK YOU to all the support. I was expecting all the negativity that my mind was pouring into me. But here I am taking all of the wonderful support and advice to heart. So I have had my pity party and am ready to take a deep breath and jump back in knowing I can always come back here in times of need. Here's to a new start and a new me!

[elvan]

I agree with crazymama_Lori‌, rearrange a room, rearrange a PART of a room. make plans to make your home a NEW home, a nonsmoking home.  You can do this...we can ALL do this.  I went through a crying time but it was much later...I did not think it would ever stop, JonesCarpeDiem‌ told me that it was good, that I was watering my cheeks.  I laughed and then agreed with him.  I was letting off steam...so are you.  There is a grieving process that many of us go through, it ends and we realize that what we are doing is HUGE, it is growing and it comes with growing pains.  Here IS to that new start and that new YOU!  We are here...you have seen that, you have experienced it.

Best,

Ellen

[Sandy-9-17-17]

I remember feeling these feelings in my past quits.  Heck, I remember laying on the couch for days, because if 

I even moved around, everything and everywhere I went was a trigger.  So if I thought if I immobilized myself, 

the triggers would go away.  That is the demon of smoking, it controls us in ways we don't even think it can.  

You just have to fight it every step of the way, keep reading Allen Carr's book, it is really helping me, and others.

I have heard some say they are re-reading it over and over!  It is time for you to take control, not vise versa!  

You can do this!  And you are in the right place for support!  

Deep breaths of good clean fresh air.