It was SUGGESTED for ME to REMEMBER....how I use to be back in MY using days....how I USED NICOTINE EVERYDAY...the things I did to USE NICOTINE EVERYDAY and the lengths I went to get MY DRUG OF CHOICE NICOTINE EVERYDAY.....what I use to be like EVERYDAY USING NICOTINE..and with this EXPERIENCE by sharing how I use to be living as a USING NICOTINE ADDICT.....please I am talking about ME not anyone else so please take what HELPS and let go of the rest to be HELPFUL is MY only aim
thank you.... I was selfish and self centered on getting MY DRUG OF CHOICE NICOTINE.... EVERY SINGLE DAY I USED......MY Higher Power God saved ME from an early death... I know I should be DEAD from MY FREE WILL CHOICE TO USE THIS DEADLY DRUG NICOTINE EVERY SINGLE DAY! For ME it is only by Gods grace that I am able to share with the next SUFFERING NICOTINE ADDICT how I use to be and what happened to ME and WHY I TRY to give them the HOPE that I was so FREELY GIVEN and LOVE unconditionally to GIVE GENEROUSLY to ALL WHO SUFFER FROM NICOTINE ADDICTION by ALL those here before who gave to ME and MY belief is that God blessed me with this EX RECOVERING SUPPORT GROUP! God blesses ME with this NEW NON SMOKER LIFESTYLE in MY Lord Jesus for ME to REMEMBER and in so doing I will always GIVE away ALL to keep it so please keep coming BACK!
Once upon a time, about 3 decades ago in my previous life, I had a big house in the country. I had everything I thought I wanted - 3 cats in the yard, a really neat house, an apple orchard, a thriving small business of my own.
Every Christmas season, I had a big open house at my home. I had the coolest collection of Christmas music. The most over the top garland up the open stairway, an 18' Christmas tree in the great room. And I baked for weeks in advance.
This particular Christmas was in the middle of a year I now think of as "the year of learning."
Nothing was going right. My house, underneath all its remodeling, was just an old farm house. The Great Room and half the house was heated by a huge wood burning fireplace. My husband, who had left me for "no reason" (whose named turned out to be something like Jane) also left me unprepared for the coming winter. I had to get a cord of firewood dropped in the drive, and then loaded by myself around to the back of the house, up onto a small porch. Every morning I got up to an ice-cold house, alone, in the country, on a dirt road that sometimes didn't get plowed for days if the snow was heavy in the rest of the county.
When the holidays arrived, I wanted my Christmas open house. Did I have to give up everything?
And everything was going wrong. The day before the event, my road had been snowed in for almost a week. I couldn't get to the store. The stairs to the garage attic had broken and I couldn't get it fixed, to get to my many boxes of Christmas decorations, or to the holiday cookie cutters I always used - reindeer, Christmas trees, holly.
After flinging myself and everything I could think of about madly, I thought about just calling it off. But some friends had joked that they'd be there on snow-shoes if they had to. So I put away my recipes for stuffed figs, and hung up the idea of Christmas Open Houses Past.
I had the ingredients for sugar cookies, and I had three dinosaur Play Dough forms still in a drawer from when my nephew had visited over the summer. A new tradition was born - the Christmas dinosaur.
To greet my friends, who followed the snow-plow to my door, I played Eric Clapton and Bonnie Raitt. We all carried in firewood from snowy back porch. And then we munched down Christmas cookies that looked a bit like this:
A stegosaurus with Christmas tree lights down his back,
a brontosaurus in a sweater that had a big "L" in a circle, with a line through it (no-L),
and a ceratops with a giant wreath around her neck.
Wasn't sure in which place to share this - here or in the video section. Decided since it is SO uplifting, here would be better. Thank you Pati c2q for turning us on to this gorgous human being. T-i-double-guh-er
When we first quit nothing feels OK. Especially us. We feel like fish out of water. Everything is uncomfortable. We feel like we've lost our best friend. We seem unable to cope with anything and are irritated by everything. Or we're lost in a fog and all we want to do it sleep it away, but our sleep pattern has been altered too. We tend to cry a lot. We don't know what to do to get through. We're told it will get better, but it seems to take sooooo long. Our entire being seems foreign to us. And it's UNCOMFORTABLE!
Yup - that's what the early stages of the quit journey feel like. It's uncomfortable. We're out of our comfort zone for sure. Because the behavior that we've practiced for so long - many of us for year and YEARS - is being altered. It's different to go through our days without our binky, without our "go to" to relieve stress; our reward for an accomplishment, exclamation point on a success; that moment where we can relax for a few minutes and that five minutes to pause to think through sorrow or anger or escape it; the sharing of times with like-minded smokers, that after meal final fulfillment or the one after sex...
When we quit smoking - everything changes. All our normal routines and behaviors are altered. So of course we're going to feel uncomfortable. But only for a while.
When dragon flies mate, they do so over water and the egg is deposited in the water itself. The life cycle of a dragonfly larva begins as a nymph. It lives in water as it grows and develops. It is essentially a water-breathing creature and it's REALLY scaring looking:
It can take up to four years to complete this cycle of it's development. It doesn't take us that long! Promise!
Eventually it comes out of the water and hangs out on the bank and breaks through it's shell. A very different looking creature. It sits there in the sun as the water oozes from it's new body, from it's tail, drop by drop, wings stuck together.
After about 20 minutes the airfoils suddenly open. There is a pause. Then a fluttering like manic helicopter blades as the wings dry. Another breath and it lifts into the sky. Like it was the most natural thing in the world. I've watched this process. It was truly awesome. Breathtaking that moment of liftoff. To think that this creature had been water breathing 30 minutes prior, crawling around the bottom of the pond, and now it was airborne. A glorious moment indeed. Stunning.
I've watched many people quit here and it's an equally glorious moment to see someone achieve that One Year Milestone. To watch that transformation from frightened nymph to empowered flier. Many say "I never would have believed I could get here...."
You know what? You CAN! It's gonna be OK. You're going to go from a tar breather on the bottom of the pond to an air breather. Just hang in 'til you find your new comfort zone. And soar!
When I decided to bite the bullet and stop playing Russian Roulette with my life I'll tell you that I wasn't really sure if I could quit or even if I wanted to but I was just told I had mild copd and that scared me enough to know that I didn't want to end up on oxygen 7/ 24 or worse die a slow painful death which would most likely be smoking related so I searched for quit smoking programs on line and decided on Ex and to make a long story short I totally got a wealth of information here but I hid in the shadows and once I quit I forgot about the site until my 18th day when I was struggling to the point of jumping in my car and buying a carton of cigarettes instead of just a pack, I really don't know if I would've or not I'd like to think I wouldn't have because the night before quitting I promised myself that I'd never ever pick up another cigarette as long as I live and i dont break promises to anyone including myself but thankfully I remembered this site and got on line and commented on something and then someone noticed me and suggested I tell the community a little about myself and my quit that was 1,186 glorious days ago. Quitting smoking is definitely difficult to say the least but it's absolutely Doable and definitely worth it so chin up, hang tough and plow through the roller coaster ups and downs of withdrawals and mood swings so you can come out the other side smiling because there's absolutely life after cigarettes and it's yours for the taking but you must stick with your quit and keep stacking up those precious DOF because anything in this life worth having takes time and effort and quitting smoking and Remaining Quit should be at the top of the list of things to do and our lives literally depends on us to bite the bullet because in my opinion life is way too short to knowingly continue to slowly kill ourselves so get through the rough patches and start reaping the benefits of an Ex Smoker and as Dale says the only way out is through but boy oh boy it's worth it.
Freedom from the clutches of the dreaded nicotine poison comes from believing in ourselves, being willing, determined and totally committed to succeed and persevering and plowing forward no matter what is happening in life and stacking up those precious smoke free days, quitting smoking is definitely difficult to say the least but it's absolutely Doable and and definitely worth it so hang on tight and don't let go until you come out the other side smiling because there's definitely life after cigarettes and it's yours for the taking but you must stick with your quit.
With the right mindset we can do just about anything we put our minds to including quitting smoking and Remaining Quit I remember how difficult it is in the early days and wks but I got through it and so will anyone and everyone that believes in themselves and are willing, determined and totally committed to succeed then you can and will be successful but you must stick with your quit with No If Ands Or Buts because there's Not One EXcuse that's good enough to throw away a perfectly beautiful quit because life's going to happen whether you smoke or not so chin up and grab on tight and don't let go until you come out the other side smiling because there's definitely life after cigarettes and it's yours for the taking so hang tough and keep plowing forward because each day you get through is another day WON! N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever - works when applied on a daily basis because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option, if you've been quit awhile remember this N. E. F. - Never Ever Forget - the early days and wks of quitting because wouldn't it totally Suck Big Time to have to go back to Day One!!!! So taking EXtra good care of yourself with H. A. L. T. - Hunger, Anger, Lonely, Tired because anyone of these can really throw havoc into your quit but every withdrawal, craving and mood swing is worth it all to be FREE!!!! Quitting smoking is definitely difficult but if absolutely Doable and anything in this life worth having takes time and effort and quitting smoking should be at the top of the list of things to do for your health, your family and even your wallet but mostly because your life is literally depending on it!
I can't think of much to say this morning without sounding like a broken record so I'll wish everyone the best day possible and tonight can and will be another Day WON or maybe it's your first Day WON with many more to come, there really is Life after cigarettes so reach out and grab it and don't let go until you come out the other side smiling!
Life is full of ups and downs and believe it or not once you get through the roller coaster ups and downs of withdrawals and mood swings and give yourself the time needed to relearn different ways of dealing with life's issues without the crutch of smoking then you should realize that it's actually much easier handling situations without the cigarettes, that's what I found for me that I'm not stuck in a haze of smoke anymore and it's great because life is always going to throw us a monkey wrench when we're least expecting it! So my friends and fellow Exers I'm going to to push vigilance again because we need to protect the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE! Let's enjoy our new found Freedom but let's not become complacent, let's treasure our hard earned quits for our health, family and our lives literally depends on us to remain quit. Remember H. A. L. T. - Hunger, Anger, Lonely , Tired , we must take EXtra good care of ourselves so we can be around to enjoy ourselves as Ex Smokers.
I had Mason after school wed until about 7 o'clock and yesterday too, he wanted to spend the night some bad but there's no school today and my daughter has today off and I'll be keeping him overnight Sun and Mon and getting him off to school because my daughter swings from the 1 to 11 pm shift from the wk end to 7 to 5 pm Monday and Tuesday, that's hard especially where she lives and hr from her work so I keep him here and he gets off to school while Mandy sleeps. We'll keep him overnight Thursday too and after school Friday. Anyway my friends and fellow Exers let's continue to be vigilant while enjoying our Freedom stick with N.O.P.E because it works one precious smoke free day at a time, I find even after 1019 smoke free days that the busier I am which of course makes me tired that's when every so often that thought of having just one might pop into my head but thankfully this site has educated me and I know that I would screw up my perfectly beautiful quit and that my friends is why Ipush vigilance. None of us Exers ever want to go back to Day One we only want DAYS WON!