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Posted by nevergiveup Apr 28, 2020

I'm sure someone else has to have had this heading before but so be it. For all I know I might have already used it...didn't check. Lol 


My middle name seems to be Restart and, that's okay. I've used my phone a friend option today. Her name is Jill aka Angel in case I haven't mentioned her here before. Although I was hoping to talk to her by phone a little later tonight it happened earlier but that too is okay because it helped. Every so often I seem to have a tendency to mentally slip into my old way of thinking. And while yes, I believe nicotine addiction is pretty darn brutal, I'm not convinced it's always the drug talking. Addiction = mental control, or lack thereof in my opinion. Simple theory, not always easy to break as with any cyclic behavior...again only my opinion.


When I crawl in bed tonight the determined me will have been smoke free for a total of three days again. Hesitant and a little embarrassed to blog but much better out than in. I've got a plan and also a little stash bag I now carry with me when I go which, right now is, pretty much to the post office cause you know, we're all living in this organized chaos of this apocalypse. Seriously though, I have at least one list of things to do instead of smoking nearby, am getting outside frequently (no cancer stick in hand) and have started walking my dog once a day. Will keep on keepin' on. Thanks for listening, as always. Yeah, I know my count is off. I'll get around to fixing it.


Quitting smoking isn't fun but it's much, much better than the mirage of lighting up the just one that no longer exists.

Grateful, thankful, blessed.   Martha

Gosh it is so wonderful to not HAVE to use NICOTINE - In MY PAST - I sucked on DEATH sticks because I got up - I had to suck on DEATH STICKS because I had to poop - I sucked on DEATH STICKS because I had to talk - I sucked on DEATH STICKS because I had to go to the store - because I had to drive - I sucked on DEATH STICKS because I will NOT let out MY true feelings about MYSELF or all person's in MY life out - I sucked on DEATH STICKS to keep ALL secrets and feelings and thoughts inside - I sucked on DEATH STICKS because I didn't know how to share MY inner most secrets of MY evil childhood - I sucked on DEATH STICKS because I drank alcohol to cope with childhood rapes at age 4 years old until I was 16 years old - TODAY I am FREE from NICOTINE - TODAY I am free from food - white sugar and greasy fried anything addictions and chocolate and caffine and alcohol and drugs and people pleasing addictions - and MANY more miracles in MY Lord Jesus- also in MY PAST - I was an ADULT - yet inside I was a 4 year old and filled with self hate and SELF twisted perspectives of a God - that other's taught ME and with an obsession to eat and suck on DEATH STICKS - 50 DEATH STICKS A DAY at the end of MY sucking on DEATH   to COPE and survive day by day this rotten life of MINE - the OLD ME is dead - I am reborn with a NEW MINDSET -  NEW THINKING not feeling thinking - NEW ideas from NON SMOKERS living their lives and willing to teach ME - I ACCEPT SUGGESTIONS - I no longer live TODAY in MY past - TODAY - I am grow up on the inside - TODAY - I live in the present MOMENTS of MY DAY - I still am willing to ask for HELP and to learn from other's and to grow and let MY Daddy God heal ME inside and set ME FREE in MY Lord Jesus by HIS love and grace and tender mercies brought to ME by ALL of YOU here - who are now MY beloved family and WHO teach ME - by being examples of living life on life's terms  - TODAY - YES TODAY - I do NOT HATE MYSELF - I am 63 YEARS YOUNG inside and out -  I am no longer a prisoner of SELF victim bondage living in MY past -  I accepted MY Daddy God's free gift of Salvation by taking the SUGGESTION - to read the Bible for MYSELF - to read 1 Corinthians chapter 15 verses 1 - 4 - the Gospel of grace - for MYSELF - make MY own decision to believe or not believe God  - I have FREE will and by just believing - what I read and taking God at HIS word by faith - I BELIEVE God's word just for ME and I accepted God's FREE gift of eternal Salvation - it is that simple - I got PROFESSIONAL therapy for CHILDHOOD issues and TODAY - I am 9 YEARS LIVING as a NON SMOKER - I live ONE day at a time and I made peace with God and MY inner SELF - I no longer suck on DEATH STICKS for any reason - TODAY I ask God for HELP and HE blesses ME - day by day with this support group and many others  - MY recovering loving NON SMOKER family TODAY I dance and praise and thank MY Daddy God for FREEDOM from bondage of SELF and FREEDOM from NICOTINE - please take what HELPS and let go of the rest to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you



Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Apr 27, 2020

TODAY is nice for ME because I woke up in FREEDOM from MY OLD NICOTINE lifestyle - MY FREEDOM TODAY - I thank MY God and I thank ALL of YOU here for teaching ME -  to live in this DAY only and to HELP others above MYSELF - to just BLOG first and SHARE - this I was taught 9 YEARS ago - it is still working - BLOG to share OR help OR just to do it - because it was SUGGESTED to ME to HELP others above MYSELF - so I would be HELPED too - thanks EVERYONE - Y'ALL are the BESTEST NON SMOKERS living FREE examples - YOU like YOUR personal DAY of FREEDOM - TODAY is all I really have to enjoy - be happy - be JOY filled in MY heart - I have a loving recovering family that WALK in God's love - please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is my only aim - thank you that's what keeps ME coming back - YOUR love for one another in UNITY to - NeverTakeAnotherPuffEver -and - to stand together in -  NotOnePuffEver - ONLY by God's grace it is working in ME - TODAY'S  3399 DAYS of FREEDOM -  in MY Lord Jesus name amen - HOORAY FOR JESUS

It's amazing looking back into our smoking years Mark smoked for 43 yrs and for at least the last 2 yrs or so I was very concerned about his coughing especially at night so he finally saw his Dr and had xrays done and another set with the markers and then a ct scan by the time Mark saw his Dr for results he'd already had over a month quit thankfully he only had mild emphysema in the meantime I continued to smoke outside of course believing I was just fine BUT at a Dr's appointment after listening to my lungs he sent me for a breathing test which showed mild copd which shocked me at first BUT after 40 yrs of smoking what did I Expect! I realized most of my coughing and choking were in the mornings where Mark coughed more at night anyway it's a wonder that neither of us didn't hork up a lung or possibly even both BUT thankfully not anymore because WE DON'T DON'T DO THAT ANYMORE!!! Everyone can be Smokefree it's a choice and it's definetly the best choice anyone of us will ever make AND it's definetly the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE.... if you haven't quit YET now is the time to bite the bullet and take back your life and if you're struggling with remaining quit stay close because we're all here to help you in any way we can you can do this quit believe it deep breaths and keep moving forward stacking up those precious Days Of Freedom so each evening you can say YAY for another Day WON it's definetly not easy by any stretch of the imagination BUT thankfully it's DOABLE.....


We will perservere through whatever life throws at us N.M.W - No Matter What because in order to live a Smokefree Life then we must choose to stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance PLUS it's up to us to look after ourselves because if we don't nobody else can do it for us and our lives literally deserves the very best that life has to offer and that is Freedom from the clutches of the dreaded nicotine poison....



How about a blonde joke hee hee LOL! 

Sticking with N.O.P.E and vigilance N.M.W. will give us a LIFE of Freedom....

 I choose an attitude of gratitude to MY Daddy God for HIS love and grace upon grace to breathe HIS BREATHE into ME by FAITH in MY Lord Jesus and I stand in MY personal faith that I am being lead by MY Holy Spirit of MY own free will to BELIEVE MY Daddy Gods Holy Word to share - God's GOOD news - please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you - God's good news is in HIS Bible in 1 Corinthians chapter 15 verses 1- 4 - that is called the Gospel of grace for all who choose to just believe what YOU just read in YOUR OWN HEART - it's ALL on YOU and take God at HIS Word - now TODAY is EARTH day -  so if YOU choose to spend some saved money YOU have - since YOUR not SUCKING on DEATH STICKS TODAY - and plant a tree so OUR next generations will BREATHE cleaner air - or plant a tree - for WHATEVER or whomever YOU CHOOSE to honor in remembrance of the love they passed on to YOU - please it is just a SUGGESTION - in HIS love and service - NeverTakeAnotherPuffEver over ME and let's STAY FOCUSED on this DAY -  in UNITY - loving each other to NotOnePuffEver



Posted by Thelastquit2019 Apr 21, 2020

I have been doing some reflecting and I think I have come to the conclusion that Although I’ve already done a lot of first things smoke free .There are still a lot left to experience .I couldn’t figure out why I had some strong smoking thoughts recently.But now I realize that this is my first spring/summer ,I had my first birthday this week smoke free as well .Now I know what’s going on I can recognize it and instead  be extremely happy I have more smoke free experiences under my belt  with many more to come .Please remember to always stay connected to your quit and you will never loose it .Thats what I’ve learned this week .Thank you to everyone ,you have all played a part in my continued quit .


6 months and counting

Posted by Augustus44 Apr 21, 2020

I hadn't realized it until a few moments ago. I've made it for 6 months today. Thank you to all who have encouraged my quit. I know that there may be trials ahead, but I really feel confident that I can continue. I hope that everyone is well during this pandemic. I'm at risk being 75, but without the cigs clogging my lungs and messing up every other organ, I'm just cocky enough to think that I have what it takes to beat this thing. I've never been so healthy in my whole like. I'll continue to take precautions, and follow guidelines, but dammit, I'm tough now--I no longer worry whether or not, those damned cigarettes are going to get me. If you are like I am, congratulations--we done good!!!!!!!



Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Apr 20, 2020

I started yesterday walking -re-training MY body to walk again from being a couch potatoe - please talking about ME -please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you  -I want to enjoy walking in MY NEW orthotics gym shoe - breaking them in is tough for ME - aches and pains - some even NEW pains - muscles ain't been used in a while - except to lay on one side and then flip to other side - laughing - I am proud to be 63 years YOUNG in good shape too - I have been exercising with Leslie Sansone on dvd at home since August 2010 - yet lately I been lazy - just doing strecthing with Donna Flagg Lastics 3x a week on dvd at home - Leslie dvd once in a while - caught an ATTITUDE of who cares and emotionally ate instead NOW I suffer the consequences of MY personal CHOICES  - TODAY I saw a total of 8 other humans - two SUCKING on DEATH STICKS - I thanked God I don't SUCK on DEATH any longer - I prayed for all 8 human's and I am here to check on Babette - a newcomer and to BLOG on overcoming MYSELF  - here in MY neck of the woods the sun is out - trees in bloom - MY new orthotic gym shoes are ok - still breaking them in - walked 20 minutes - pacing MYSELF to take it easy - it is only MY second time out walking - thank you ALL for teaching ME - remember to NeverTakeAnotherPuffEver - over MY 20lbs gained or MY new shoe pains or MY muscles waking up from a deep sleep  - to put other's above MYSELF and to HELP some ONE to HOPE - if WE stay NON SMOKERS enjoying the day - so maybe they will WANT what I have - FREEDOM from NICOTINE beautiful tree I seen and SHARING is caring - 



Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Apr 18, 2020

MY family has made ANOTHER week and gathered supplies for ANOTHER MONTH - staying in house - per government in MY state it's been snowing for the last 2 DAYS - TODAY - NO snow - in MY area it will be - 60 degrees - grateful to God for HIS love - for good health - nice weather TODAY and STAYING in HIS love and grace as a JOY filled NON SMOKER - AHHHHHH -  resting in Saturday's blessing and thanking and PRAISING MY Daddy God for EVERYONE here in MY Lord Jesus name - I thank all of YOU for teaching ME - smoking is NOT an option and to STOP and THINK what I am thinking about and to REMEMBER to - NeverTakeAnotherPuffEver - and TOGETHER - WE - will stand in the TRUTH of N.O.P.E- in love for one another in UNITY - to STAY NICOTINE FREE - TODAY 4- 18- 20



Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Apr 17, 2020

I am so grateful TODAY is FRIDAY and ONLY by God's grace I am 3389 NICOTINE FREE DAYS We go out for supplies TODAY - I am relaxed inside and out and MY HEART is soaring in HIS love NOW at this very moment - I am at home - by MYSELF - laughing out loud - praying I remain PEACE filled - when I actually GO out and run into those other humans out there that is MY test -  the PEOPLEplease I am talking about ME not anyone else - please take what HELPS and let go ot the rest- to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you - remember - NeverTakeAnotherPuffEver - over MEN.O.P.E- NotOnePuffEver


News LarryG 

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Apr 15, 2020

Glorious news from MY-  friend -  Evie from the NOPE365 support group - said LarryG in hospital with knee trouble and stated that - LarryG said - he is hopeful he will be out in a few days

keeping our minds occupied during these EXtra stressful times is vital to our health and well-being which in turn will keep our quits in tact which is a must in order to continue living a Smokefree Life Dale says keep them away from your face and the only way out is through which is 100% truth .....

Whew I cut my bangs over the weekend and I have to say they look A OK!  I'll manage without the dog groomer LOL...


Not One Puff 

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Apr 13, 2020

NOT one puff - those word's seems silly to say out LOUD - I SPEAK them anyway -  yet for ME -  those word's are life saving in this TIME of cv19 germ warfare - MY REALITY with tons of FEELING thinking and tons of wild FEELINGS that come and go - ebb and flow as I direct MY FEELINGS they do NOT rule over ME or lead ME into silly decisions in MY LIFE TODAY - please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you - please I am talking about ME not anyone else - thank you  -  each of MY friend's tested for cv19 recently - the test results - came back NEGATIVE and one of MY friends the doctor tested twice - result NEGATIVE again - he was sent home to his assisted living - locked down in his room - the REALITY in the whole world is cv19 germ warfare is taking lives in ALL the known world - NOW for ME -  it is up close and personal - FACT not a FEELING THINKING -  it is a REALITY of the UNKNOWN who will survive for ME - the extremes in MY thought processing becomes wildly insane FEELINGS of death and doom and gloom YET I say out LOUD NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF EVER OVER MY FEELINGS - I go to MY God first and MY prayer is - HELP and the answer is simple - speak LIFE word's  - MY CHOICE to speak LIFE word's - I speak to take fears out of MY heart and say - NOT ONE PUFF - over cv19 OR  any person OR place OR  thing OR situation OR circumstance OR FEELINGS - CHOICES - CHOICES - CHOICES - it is TOUGH deciding what word's to speak - so I personally pray and ask MY God for HELP -  to speak LIFE words in MY Lord Jesus name amen thanks for letting ME share MY word's of HOPE - NotOnePuffEver over ME I then choose to encourage MYSELF with LIFE word's and humor to bless ME through MY REALITY and REMEMBER I trust MY God and all is well with MY SOUL in Jesus name amen



Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Apr 12, 2020

Perspective -   please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you - MY OLD perspective -  I REMEMBER in MY past - active smoking DAYS -  to COPE with everything in ME - I smoked - 50 DEATH STICKS A DAY - perspective - TODAY I COPE with blogging and sharing - MY insides of fears and insecurities - in MY life with prayer and BREATHING in and out admitting MY fears and insecurities - just like - ALL of YOU SHARE - it is HARD for ME to adjust in MY personal life in America TODAY -  FACT - to go out ONLY if I need food or gas - I am cooperating YET I go to get food at where MY daughter works and I THINK why is it ok for MY daughter to be out in the deathly germ vc19 EVERYDAY - perspective - it is her JOB - she has a food job -  an essential JOB - MY husband is out in the deathly germ vc19 EVERYDAY - perspective -  it is his JOB - he HELPS -  the farmer in the agricultural area of growing food - perspective - I will keep MY faith and BELIEVE as I adjust and STAY home and do MY part - perspective - this too shall pass- I will NeverTakeAnotherPuffEver over MY perspective or their job's and I will NotTakeOnePuffEver over ME to cope with ME -  perspective - I will continue MY GRATITUDE list day by day - perspective - HELP other NICOTINE ADDICTS to HOPE - perspective - I will pass on breathing exercising at home - walking dvd at home - stretching exercising at home - eating at home - at home - at home - perspective GRATEFUL to MY God for ALL of YOU teaching ME everyday to STAY a NON SMOKER at home - no matter what and keep praying in MY Lord Jesus name amen

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