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just wanted to say a very big THANK YOU to everyone for YOUR love and prayers and your time - living as a NON SMOKER is better EACH day because of MY OWN personal beliefs - I BELIEVE MY God blessed MY husband and ME with all here as LIVING examples to just do life on life's terms ONE day at a time with those who are living examples of COURAGE and love and HOPE - if Y'ALL can STAY non smokers dealing with life on life's terms so will I choose to follow YOUR examples and SUGGESTIONS - thanks for BEING God with skin on for ME and MY husband - cv19 FREE - CLEARED by cv19 TEAM of doctors - WE are GRATEFUL for ALL of YOU in OUR Lord Jesus name amen

I had my last smoking cessation counseling session this evening. She had to tell me that we are never allowed to speak again. I cried my eyes out. She is wonderful, and has been such a huge help and support for 2 weeks leading up to my quit date, my quit date, and the 3 weeks since. 


I know it is going to be different without having someone to help me, to remind me of why I am doing this, to talk to about cravings, and to cheer me on, so I stumbled upon this site.


I truly want this to be the end of cigarettes for me. I am on the patch, and I am so proud of myself. I'm not sure how this site works yet, but if anyone out there is available to check in with me for accountability, I'd appreciate it. 


May 22 - 2020

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 May 22, 2020

Today - I am still waiting for MY husband to come home from hosptial - they moved him to different room and dr told him on may 19rh that he now has his second bout with cv19 - dr said they seen this happen to patient's - 12 days with cv19 then a second time with the germ cv19 - they put him on oxygen and dr and nurses and MY husband - who is in isolation - since may 17th at their hospital - today's May 22 - 2020 - HELPING MY husband fight cv19 high fever and pneumonia cv19 -  thanking God and all of YOU for YOUR prayers - TODAY is day 3 for ME no temp - MY temp is 97.4 and symptom free of cv19 - 3 DAYS symptom free to leave self quarantine - Saturday is MY freedom day- yet I cannot visit MY husband in hospital and just sharing May 22 1987 ONLY by God's grace I am sober 33 YEARS TODAY in Jesus name amen - TODAY is something - I just want MY husband healed and home in Jesus name amen


The Familiar Mile

Posted by Jdeering May 20, 2020

Let me begin by stating I have stayed quit and my disappearance was linked to keeping my quit and getting to a point I forgot I was even quitting. In a sense, I was keeping smoking fresh and alive; I was consumed by quitting! I have traveled to a point where smoking is mostly not a thought. Over this break, I've thought often of the friendships I've forged here and really wanted to check in with you great folks!


My anticipated return was triggered the other day as I completed my first 6 mile run of the year (the weather is finally turning here in the north). I was rounding the turn to my last leg of the run, which was the Familiar Mile.


Of course, I was tired, it was the longest run in nearly 6 months. Yet, when I rounded the turn I felt comforted; I've been here before. This exact point has existed run after run, time after time, and I relished in the idea that this is the familiar mile. 


I've traversed this mile in the cold, I've done it fast and I've done it slow. I've traversed this mile in the heat of the day I've done it when the sun's light went away. I've run this in the darkness of the night, even under the palest of the moonlight. This mile is so familiar to me, I could complete this in my sleep! 


It was in this mile that I remembered you and knew I had to come back. It was this mile that I thought you should know about. After all, you're in the midst of your travels and concerned with journey ahead. Or perhaps you're at the beginning of your journey, uncertain of your mettle or your ability to complete this run. You may even have completed your journey and find that you need a boost. Whatever your crossroad is that you find yourself at, look around, take it in, buckle down...for when you hit the familiar mile, there will be nothing that'll keep you down! 


Love you guys!

One more day of quarantine for ME - I smell smoke 2 times during MY cv19 germ sickness -  MY husband ended up in hospital on May 17th - he has cv19 left lung pneumonia - May 19th -  he is improved and being moved to another room soon to go home on this -  Wednesday - ONLY by God's grace WE made it thru cv19 germ war!!!!!! in OUR Lord Jesus name amen please I am talking about ME - thank you- MY husband's essential job will take care of all medical costs due to the FACT - WE got the germ cv19 from his job  - I thank God for all of YOU here and your prayers - I am so GRATEFUL to be healed in MY Lord Jesus - I am so grateful to be free in ONE more day - quarantine - 14 DAYS over tomorrow - thank you again for those who never gave up praying for us - the INDIVIDUAL cv19 germ varies so severely - this germ is deadly - I thank God and bless God for HIS grace n love in MY Lord Jesus name amen

sometimes we might have to look a little harder for the positives BUT we'll always find something I'm very thankful for the rain today because it's much better than the 13 inches of snow that we got last weekend although I'd much rather it was sunny BUT there's never ever any reason good enough on the face of this earth that's worth screwing up a perfectly beautiful quit NOT when we know that smoking kills and it doesn't matter who you are or where you live it's bound to catch up with you at some point AND that scares the HELL out of ME  I can't even imagine relapsing and having a Dr tell ME to go home and get my affairs in order that there's nothing that can be done for ME just the thought of that gives ME the chills! We CAN and MUST stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance N.M.W because another Day ONE would totally suck big time but another Day WON IS GIFT OF LIFE......


Happy to report

Posted by Jemoda May 16, 2020

So as you may know, I tried r.i.p mode my quit date up a week because I ws feeling confident.  That was a total failure.  I resolved myself to stick with my original quit date which was Friday the 15th. I smoked right up the bedtime on Thursday.  In fact I chain smoked lol as much add possible so that I would really hate my cigs.  I put the patch on,  and strangely enough o am having a really easy time so far.  *knock on wood* I haven't had any real cravings, thanks to the patch- more like associations.  Oh,  I just ate,  time to smoke- oops no it's not let's do something else.  The patch is making all the difference in the we world for me, and I have different doses to wean off of that when I feel ready!@!



Posted by Tacobella13 May 15, 2020

Hi everyone,

My name is sam. I'm new to all of this and I'm very nervous and scared to be written on here. I dont know what to expect from here and talking to people is scary for me. I decided to quite smoking because last month I got hospitalized with rsv and every winter I get a lung infection. I just so done with getting sick every year and everything that smoking does. I'm nervous about this all but I'm ready.


I lost my umph!

Posted by Marilyn.H.July.14.14. May 15, 2020

I need to get moving and see if I can muster up a little umph to get a load of laundry on and just the basic stuff done ugh I'm dragging my butt BUT that's A OK when it comes to things like laundry and sweeping the floor it'll get done when it gets done PLUS it's still going to be there when I get around to it LOL! Now when it comes to quitting smoking that little bit of UMPH is vitally important and is EXtremely LIFE Changing and definitely for the better ONCE you hit that AHA Moment if you haven't hit it YET STICK with your QUIT because you'll know what I mean when you do because it's definetly an eye opening moment .

I have been sick since May 7th with chills upon chills low grade fever - hoping against hope it was just a cold - husband coughing seasonal allergies - so we thought - I was getting worse so I asked him to take ME to testing site YESTERDAY - they said we will know by Friday if we have cv19 - i am so miserably cold hot cold for days been sticking with chicken broth until TODAY - I actually got to eat  a little - thanks for letting ME SHARE - oh MY this is the most horribly sickness never ending i had headache for 4 days stabbing eye pain - finally tynelol rapid relief took my headache away it is a miracle my husband bought ME Tylenol pm for bed at 8pm - thanks for letting me whine i am a big baby when sick crying whinning and we are not alone his sister just got over cv19 with her husband n son they are all back to work - she works as home health aide to elderly - MY other friend n her finance got tested today sinuses carry same symptoms of cv19 so Drs say - I am so grateful WE are not alone - NOT once did i think of sucking on DEATH to COPE with life on life's terms - love Y'ALL

I'm doing it this time to age gracefully. Get back into bodybuilding and be a boxer for Halloween, ripped and all. I've done some reading and I think I'm ready this time. I know urges will come and to those I will say I want to be fit more than a 3 minute ciG!


Day 64

Posted by SisBB May 11, 2020

I was pretty tempted yesterday and even had to tell someone no when they asked if they could smoke in the car. I knew that would make it so much harder for me to resist...or be totally disgusting, but I couldn’t take the chance. 


I can’t tell you how much this group has helped me. Thanks for all of your support!


My lungs don’t hurt anymore. I smell good and have good breath. My teeth look whiter. I’m avoiding more wrinkles. I’ve reduced my risks of disease and sickness. I don’t have to make all the nons wait for me to finish my cigarette. Quitting smoking is really one of the most self-loving thing you can do. 

Please and thank you to all who freely want to pray for Daniela - There are no words for the soul -  that is in total darkness of pain - that is so grievous with torturous diseases - sicknesses -' illnesses and self loathing and bitterness against one's own self -  that screams so loud in one's own heart - mind - will - and emotions and yet is silent to those so near - Dear Father God - I come in MY Lord Jesus name and I lift up Daniela in faith and in love and I thank YOU and praise YOU Daddy God for hearing MY prayer amen


May 7 2020

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 May 7, 2020

Today I am 9 YEARS living day by day as a NON SMOKER - only by God's grace and tender mercies - TODAY 5- 7- 2020 - MY daughter is 35 years YOUNG TODAY - in the begginning of July 2015 -  she was dying of alcoholism - in January 2018 - she was in a coma from alcoholism because she was bleeding inside from all major blood vessels - long story short - God blessed ME on January 17 2019 - daughter was in an 8 day coma - HE allowed her to WAKE up -  both physically and spiritually - she is - God's grace upon grace miracle that's MY faith - I BELIEVE in MY Lord Jesus death and burial and resurrection for ME personally in MY heart - read in the Bible for YOUR self in - 1 Corinthians chapter 15 verses 1- 4 the gospel of Grace free gift of eternal Salvation - YOUR CHOICE to believe or NOT - just SHARING MY faith so -  please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you - I didn't even think of SUCKING on DEATH STICKS - I came here and blogged for HELP and teachings and then God's grace HEALED ME inside to keep growing more and more in HIS love to HELP other's HOPE in STAYING a NON SMOKER -  no matter what -  life on life's terms will SUDDENLY hit - it did ME -  hit ME gut and punched ME in MY heart and then hit ME in MY face - all at once with full force of doom and gloom - none of MY thoughts were to use NICOTINE to get through - MY thoughts were deep darkness in MY soul and hopelessly falling into poop - SELF pity shouting -  YOUR baby girl is in a alcohol coma -  she is going to die - these were MY thoughts - but I ran to God and said MY prayer - HELP - and HE answered - HAPPY birthday - Jaime 35 years YOUNG -  TODAY and SOBER two years I celebrate ONLY by God's grace 9 YEARS of living moment by moment - due to complications from her meds that she must take to live - December 2019 -  she almost died 3 times - but God in HIS grace and tender mercies - lead the doctor's to adjust her meds and with the liver team leading the way - she is still TRYING to get on the liver transplant list - NOT YET accepted by the liver team  - ONLY by God's grace and tender mercies - her liver numbers are good and NOT once did I desire to COPE with MY life storms with sucking on DEATH STICKS - I will NeverTakeAnotherPuffEver ONLY by God's grace - and I want to say -  thank YOU to  ALL -  who prayed and loved ME and MY family through that storm of life - storm's will happen and I will - N.O.P.E. - NotTakeOnePuffEver with ALL of YOU


233 pounds 

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Apr 30, 2020

Please I am talking about ME not anyone else - so please take what HELPS and let go of the rest to be HELPFUL is MY only aim thank you - 225 pounds in March and April is ending with ME weighing 233 pounds - to COPE with MY life -  I made poor CHOICES personally - to comfort MY FEELINGS of powerlessness - I CHOSE to eat ice cream and cookies and pies and cakes and donuts - YET I did keep exercising day by day - I use to say - I smoked on DEATH STICKS to stay skinny - I stayed skinny because I would not eat for 3 months - I just lived off a ton of white sugar and creme in a little coffee - it was the white sugar that -  I am ADDICTED too - just like I was to NICOTINE - MY.NEW MINDSET just for TODAY -  I sat after weighing MYSELF and reading the scale - I felt the FEELINGS of disappointment of 233 pounds - it was MY TRUTH - which I had already knew in MY heart - since no one forced cakes OR pies OR cookies OR ice cream in MY mouth  - I am the PROBLEM. - so I took inventory and sat while listening to a speaker talking on a spiritual answer for ME and I made wise choices today eating - I didn't go to - OLD idea's -  like another diet OR fasting to lose wt - I prayed for TODAY - I am GRATEFUL to share MY ups and downs of ACCEPTING MYself and MY choices wise or unwise to still love MYSELF just as I am and be ok with EACH day I learn in 1987 that  - GOD DON'T MAKE JUNK and to speak kind and loving to MYSELF while learning -  each time I failed to lose weight - to CHANGE MY FEELING THINKING to just STOP and think what I am thinking about on the inside and with God's love - I choose to eat more veggies instead of white sugars -  when I get emotionally deranged while admitting MY truth of running to FOOD for comfort doesn't work for ME - I have tried to escape from MY emotions all MY life - THROUGH MANY thing's - now I SHARE MY mistakes - MY unwise choices with anyone - to give HOPE  - I am GRATEFUL to set a NEW goal on HEALTHY eating without escaping to sucking on DEATH STICKS - thanks for letting ME release MY TRUE EMOTIONS of MY immaturity to accept - I am a healthy 233 pound NON SMOKER who is willing to admit MY weaknesses and NOTTAKEONEPUFFEVER and keep being much MORE aware when I am about to eat MY FEELINGS to journal on paper until they are ALL released without running to food - hmmmmmmm - let go and let God - love MYSELF through - hmmmmmm- live and let live - ask MYSELF questions - am I hungry - if NOT - what truth about ME am I trying to run from OR am I just missing HEAVEN MY true home - hmmmmmm- I will choose to sit quite and WAIT and watch for God's miracles -  hmmmmmm - like coming here and blogging MY sadness and HOPE that there are other's just like ME - who experienced some days are just that -  a LEARNING day and from MY experince - I know that cancer will happen by choosing to suck on DEATH STICKS over gaining weight - that is NOT the solution for ME - making a NEW wiser plan -  like writing down FEELINGS -  instead of stuffing them down with white sugars is better than SUCKING ON DEATH STICKS -  I am learning and God is healing ME INSIDE and Y'ALL HELP ME to continue to grow and KNOW MY greatest enemy is ME - hmmmmmmmm- this too shall pass       

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