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just wanted to say a very big THANK YOU to everyone for YOUR love and prayers and your time - living as a NON SMOKER is better EACH day because of MY OWN personal beliefs - I BELIEVE MY God blessed MY husband and ME with all here as LIVING examples to just do life on life's terms ONE day at a time with those who are living examples of COURAGE and love and HOPE - if Y'ALL can STAY non smokers dealing with life on life's terms so will I choose to follow YOUR examples and SUGGESTIONS - thanks for BEING God with skin on for ME and MY husband - cv19 FREE - CLEARED by cv19 TEAM of doctors - WE are GRATEFUL for ALL of YOU in OUR Lord Jesus name amen

indingrl.01.06.2011

May 22 - 2020

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 May 22, 2020

Today - I am still waiting for MY husband to come home from hosptial - they moved him to different room and dr told him on may 19rh that he now has his second bout with cv19 - dr said they seen this happen to patient's - 12 days with cv19 then a second time with the germ cv19 - they put him on oxygen and dr and nurses and MY husband - who is in isolation - since may 17th at their hospital - today's May 22 - 2020 - HELPING MY husband fight cv19 high fever and pneumonia cv19 -  thanking God and all of YOU for YOUR prayers - TODAY is day 3 for ME no temp - MY temp is 97.4 and symptom free of cv19 - 3 DAYS symptom free to leave self quarantine - Saturday is MY freedom day- yet I cannot visit MY husband in hospital and just sharing May 22 1987 ONLY by God's grace I am sober 33 YEARS TODAY in Jesus name amen - TODAY is something - I just want MY husband healed and home in Jesus name amen

One more day of quarantine for ME - I smell smoke 2 times during MY cv19 germ sickness -  MY husband ended up in hospital on May 17th - he has cv19 left lung pneumonia - May 19th -  he is improved and being moved to another room soon to go home on this -  Wednesday - ONLY by God's grace WE made it thru cv19 germ war!!!!!! in OUR Lord Jesus name amen please I am talking about ME - thank you- MY husband's essential job will take care of all medical costs due to the FACT - WE got the germ cv19 from his job  - I thank God for all of YOU here and your prayers - I am so GRATEFUL to be healed in MY Lord Jesus - I am so grateful to be free in ONE more day - quarantine - 14 DAYS over tomorrow - thank you again for those who never gave up praying for us - the INDIVIDUAL cv19 germ varies so severely - this germ is deadly - I thank God and bless God for HIS grace n love in MY Lord Jesus name amen

I have been sick since May 7th with chills upon chills low grade fever - hoping against hope it was just a cold - husband coughing seasonal allergies - so we thought - I was getting worse so I asked him to take ME to testing site YESTERDAY - they said we will know by Friday if we have cv19 - i am so miserably cold hot cold for days been sticking with chicken broth until TODAY - I actually got to eat  a little - thanks for letting ME SHARE - oh MY this is the most horribly sickness never ending i had headache for 4 days stabbing eye pain - finally tynelol rapid relief took my headache away it is a miracle my husband bought ME Tylenol pm for bed at 8pm - thanks for letting me whine i am a big baby when sick crying whinning and we are not alone his sister just got over cv19 with her husband n son they are all back to work - she works as home health aide to elderly - MY other friend n her finance got tested today sinuses carry same symptoms of cv19 so Drs say - I am so grateful WE are not alone - NOT once did i think of sucking on DEATH to COPE with life on life's terms - love Y'ALL

Please and thank you to all who freely want to pray for Daniela - There are no words for the soul -  that is in total darkness of pain - that is so grievous with torturous diseases - sicknesses -' illnesses and self loathing and bitterness against one's own self -  that screams so loud in one's own heart - mind - will - and emotions and yet is silent to those so near - Dear Father God - I come in MY Lord Jesus name and I lift up Daniela in faith and in love and I thank YOU and praise YOU Daddy God for hearing MY prayer amen

indingrl.01.06.2011

May 7 2020

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 May 7, 2020

Today I am 9 YEARS living day by day as a NON SMOKER - only by God's grace and tender mercies - TODAY 5- 7- 2020 - MY daughter is 35 years YOUNG TODAY - in the begginning of July 2015 -  she was dying of alcoholism - in January 2018 - she was in a coma from alcoholism because she was bleeding inside from all major blood vessels - long story short - God blessed ME on January 17 2019 - daughter was in an 8 day coma - HE allowed her to WAKE up -  both physically and spiritually - she is - God's grace upon grace miracle that's MY faith - I BELIEVE in MY Lord Jesus death and burial and resurrection for ME personally in MY heart - read in the Bible for YOUR self in - 1 Corinthians chapter 15 verses 1- 4 the gospel of Grace free gift of eternal Salvation - YOUR CHOICE to believe or NOT - just SHARING MY faith so -  please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you - I didn't even think of SUCKING on DEATH STICKS - I came here and blogged for HELP and teachings and then God's grace HEALED ME inside to keep growing more and more in HIS love to HELP other's HOPE in STAYING a NON SMOKER -  no matter what -  life on life's terms will SUDDENLY hit - it did ME -  hit ME gut and punched ME in MY heart and then hit ME in MY face - all at once with full force of doom and gloom - none of MY thoughts were to use NICOTINE to get through - MY thoughts were deep darkness in MY soul and hopelessly falling into poop - SELF pity shouting -  YOUR baby girl is in a alcohol coma -  she is going to die - these were MY thoughts - but I ran to God and said MY prayer - HELP - and HE answered - HAPPY birthday - Jaime 35 years YOUNG -  TODAY and SOBER two years I celebrate ONLY by God's grace 9 YEARS of living moment by moment - due to complications from her meds that she must take to live - December 2019 -  she almost died 3 times - but God in HIS grace and tender mercies - lead the doctor's to adjust her meds and with the liver team leading the way - she is still TRYING to get on the liver transplant list - NOT YET accepted by the liver team  - ONLY by God's grace and tender mercies - her liver numbers are good and NOT once did I desire to COPE with MY life storms with sucking on DEATH STICKS - I will NeverTakeAnotherPuffEver ONLY by God's grace - and I want to say -  thank YOU to  ALL -  who prayed and loved ME and MY family through that storm of life - storm's will happen and I will - N.O.P.E. - NotTakeOnePuffEver with ALL of YOU

indingrl.01.06.2011

233 pounds 

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Apr 30, 2020

Please I am talking about ME not anyone else - so please take what HELPS and let go of the rest to be HELPFUL is MY only aim thank you - 225 pounds in March and April is ending with ME weighing 233 pounds - to COPE with MY life -  I made poor CHOICES personally - to comfort MY FEELINGS of powerlessness - I CHOSE to eat ice cream and cookies and pies and cakes and donuts - YET I did keep exercising day by day - I use to say - I smoked on DEATH STICKS to stay skinny - I stayed skinny because I would not eat for 3 months - I just lived off a ton of white sugar and creme in a little coffee - it was the white sugar that -  I am ADDICTED too - just like I was to NICOTINE - MY.NEW MINDSET just for TODAY -  I sat after weighing MYSELF and reading the scale - I felt the FEELINGS of disappointment of 233 pounds - it was MY TRUTH - which I had already knew in MY heart - since no one forced cakes OR pies OR cookies OR ice cream in MY mouth  - I am the PROBLEM. - so I took inventory and sat while listening to a speaker talking on a spiritual answer for ME and I made wise choices today eating - I didn't go to - OLD idea's -  like another diet OR fasting to lose wt - I prayed for TODAY - I am GRATEFUL to share MY ups and downs of ACCEPTING MYself and MY choices wise or unwise to still love MYSELF just as I am and be ok with EACH day I learn in 1987 that  - GOD DON'T MAKE JUNK and to speak kind and loving to MYSELF while learning -  each time I failed to lose weight - to CHANGE MY FEELING THINKING to just STOP and think what I am thinking about on the inside and with God's love - I choose to eat more veggies instead of white sugars -  when I get emotionally deranged while admitting MY truth of running to FOOD for comfort doesn't work for ME - I have tried to escape from MY emotions all MY life - THROUGH MANY thing's - now I SHARE MY mistakes - MY unwise choices with anyone - to give HOPE  - I am GRATEFUL to set a NEW goal on HEALTHY eating without escaping to sucking on DEATH STICKS - thanks for letting ME release MY TRUE EMOTIONS of MY immaturity to accept - I am a healthy 233 pound NON SMOKER who is willing to admit MY weaknesses and NOTTAKEONEPUFFEVER and keep being much MORE aware when I am about to eat MY FEELINGS to journal on paper until they are ALL released without running to food - hmmmmmmm - let go and let God - love MYSELF through - hmmmmmm- live and let live - ask MYSELF questions - am I hungry - if NOT - what truth about ME am I trying to run from OR am I just missing HEAVEN MY true home - hmmmmmm- I will choose to sit quite and WAIT and watch for God's miracles -  hmmmmmm - like coming here and blogging MY sadness and HOPE that there are other's just like ME - who experienced some days are just that -  a LEARNING day and from MY experince - I know that cancer will happen by choosing to suck on DEATH STICKS over gaining weight - that is NOT the solution for ME - making a NEW wiser plan -  like writing down FEELINGS -  instead of stuffing them down with white sugars is better than SUCKING ON DEATH STICKS -  I am learning and God is healing ME INSIDE and Y'ALL HELP ME to continue to grow and KNOW MY greatest enemy is ME - hmmmmmmmm- this too shall pass       

Gosh it is so wonderful to not HAVE to use NICOTINE - In MY PAST - I sucked on DEATH sticks because I got up - I had to suck on DEATH STICKS because I had to poop - I sucked on DEATH STICKS because I had to talk - I sucked on DEATH STICKS because I had to go to the store - because I had to drive - I sucked on DEATH STICKS because I will NOT let out MY true feelings about MYSELF or all person's in MY life out - I sucked on DEATH STICKS to keep ALL secrets and feelings and thoughts inside - I sucked on DEATH STICKS because I didn't know how to share MY inner most secrets of MY evil childhood - I sucked on DEATH STICKS because I drank alcohol to cope with childhood rapes at age 4 years old until I was 16 years old - TODAY I am FREE from NICOTINE - TODAY I am free from food - white sugar and greasy fried anything addictions and chocolate and caffine and alcohol and drugs and people pleasing addictions - and MANY more miracles in MY Lord Jesus- also in MY PAST - I was an ADULT - yet inside I was a 4 year old and filled with self hate and SELF twisted perspectives of a God - that other's taught ME and with an obsession to eat and suck on DEATH STICKS - 50 DEATH STICKS A DAY at the end of MY sucking on DEATH   to COPE and survive day by day this rotten life of MINE - the OLD ME is dead - I am reborn with a NEW MINDSET -  NEW THINKING not feeling thinking - NEW ideas from NON SMOKERS living their lives and willing to teach ME - I ACCEPT SUGGESTIONS - I no longer live TODAY in MY past - TODAY - I am grow up on the inside - TODAY - I live in the present MOMENTS of MY DAY - I still am willing to ask for HELP and to learn from other's and to grow and let MY Daddy God heal ME inside and set ME FREE in MY Lord Jesus by HIS love and grace and tender mercies brought to ME by ALL of YOU here - who are now MY beloved family and WHO teach ME - by being examples of living life on life's terms  - TODAY - YES TODAY - I do NOT HATE MYSELF - I am 63 YEARS YOUNG inside and out -  I am no longer a prisoner of SELF victim bondage living in MY past -  I accepted MY Daddy God's free gift of Salvation by taking the SUGGESTION - to read the Bible for MYSELF - to read 1 Corinthians chapter 15 verses 1 - 4 - the Gospel of grace - for MYSELF - make MY own decision to believe or not believe God  - I have FREE will and by just believing - what I read and taking God at HIS word by faith - I BELIEVE God's word just for ME and I accepted God's FREE gift of eternal Salvation - it is that simple - I got PROFESSIONAL therapy for CHILDHOOD issues and TODAY - I am 9 YEARS LIVING as a NON SMOKER - I live ONE day at a time and I made peace with God and MY inner SELF - I no longer suck on DEATH STICKS for any reason - TODAY I ask God for HELP and HE blesses ME - day by day with this support group and many others  - MY recovering loving NON SMOKER family TODAY I dance and praise and thank MY Daddy God for FREEDOM from bondage of SELF and FREEDOM from NICOTINE - please take what HELPS and let go of the rest to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you

indingrl.01.06.2011

4-27-20 

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Apr 27, 2020

TODAY is nice for ME because I woke up in FREEDOM from MY OLD NICOTINE lifestyle - MY FREEDOM TODAY - I thank MY God and I thank ALL of YOU here for teaching ME -  to live in this DAY only and to HELP others above MYSELF - to just BLOG first and SHARE - this I was taught 9 YEARS ago - it is still working - BLOG to share OR help OR just to do it - because it was SUGGESTED to ME to HELP others above MYSELF - so I would be HELPED too - thanks EVERYONE - Y'ALL are the BESTEST NON SMOKERS living FREE examples - YOU like YOUR personal DAY of FREEDOM - TODAY is all I really have to enjoy - be happy - be JOY filled in MY heart - I have a loving recovering family that WALK in God's love - please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is my only aim - thank you that's what keeps ME coming back - YOUR love for one another in UNITY to - NeverTakeAnotherPuffEver -and - to stand together in -  NotOnePuffEver - ONLY by God's grace it is working in ME - TODAY'S  3399 DAYS of FREEDOM -  in MY Lord Jesus name amen - HOORAY FOR JESUS

 I choose an attitude of gratitude to MY Daddy God for HIS love and grace upon grace to breathe HIS BREATHE into ME by FAITH in MY Lord Jesus and I stand in MY personal faith that I am being lead by MY Holy Spirit of MY own free will to BELIEVE MY Daddy Gods Holy Word to share - God's GOOD news - please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you - God's good news is in HIS Bible in 1 Corinthians chapter 15 verses 1- 4 - that is called the Gospel of grace for all who choose to just believe what YOU just read in YOUR OWN HEART - it's ALL on YOU and take God at HIS Word - now TODAY is EARTH day -  so if YOU choose to spend some saved money YOU have - since YOUR not SUCKING on DEATH STICKS TODAY - and plant a tree so OUR next generations will BREATHE cleaner air - or plant a tree - for WHATEVER or whomever YOU CHOOSE to honor in remembrance of the love they passed on to YOU - please it is just a SUGGESTION - in HIS love and service - NeverTakeAnotherPuffEver over ME and let's STAY FOCUSED on this DAY -  in UNITY - loving each other to NotOnePuffEver

indingrl.01.06.2011

WALKING 

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Apr 20, 2020

I started yesterday walking -re-training MY body to walk again from being a couch potatoe - please talking about ME -please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you  -I want to enjoy walking in MY NEW orthotics gym shoe - breaking them in is tough for ME - aches and pains - some even NEW pains - muscles ain't been used in a while - except to lay on one side and then flip to other side - laughing - I am proud to be 63 years YOUNG in good shape too - I have been exercising with Leslie Sansone on dvd at home since August 2010 - yet lately I been lazy - just doing strecthing with Donna Flagg Lastics 3x a week on dvd at home - Leslie dvd once in a while - caught an ATTITUDE of who cares and emotionally ate instead NOW I suffer the consequences of MY personal CHOICES  - TODAY I saw a total of 8 other humans - two SUCKING on DEATH STICKS - I thanked God I don't SUCK on DEATH any longer - I prayed for all 8 human's and I am here to check on Babette - a newcomer and to BLOG on overcoming MYSELF  - here in MY neck of the woods the sun is out - trees in bloom - MY new orthotic gym shoes are ok - still breaking them in - walked 20 minutes - pacing MYSELF to take it easy - it is only MY second time out walking - thank you ALL for teaching ME - remember to NeverTakeAnotherPuffEver - over MY 20lbs gained or MY new shoe pains or MY muscles waking up from a deep sleep  - to put other's above MYSELF and to HELP some ONE to HOPE - if WE stay NON SMOKERS enjoying the day - so maybe they will WANT what I have - FREEDOM from NICOTINE beautiful tree I seen and SHARING is caring - 

indingrl.01.06.2011

WEEK ENDS 

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Apr 18, 2020

MY family has made ANOTHER week and gathered supplies for ANOTHER MONTH - staying in house - per government in MY state it's been snowing for the last 2 DAYS - TODAY - NO snow - in MY area it will be - 60 degrees - grateful to God for HIS love - for good health - nice weather TODAY and STAYING in HIS love and grace as a JOY filled NON SMOKER - AHHHHHH -  resting in Saturday's blessing and thanking and PRAISING MY Daddy God for EVERYONE here in MY Lord Jesus name - I thank all of YOU for teaching ME - smoking is NOT an option and to STOP and THINK what I am thinking about and to REMEMBER to - NeverTakeAnotherPuffEver - and TOGETHER - WE - will stand in the TRUTH of N.O.P.E- in love for one another in UNITY - to STAY NICOTINE FREE - TODAY 4- 18- 20

indingrl.01.06.2011

HAPPY FRIDAY 

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Apr 17, 2020

I am so grateful TODAY is FRIDAY and ONLY by God's grace I am 3389 NICOTINE FREE DAYS We go out for supplies TODAY - I am relaxed inside and out and MY HEART is soaring in HIS love NOW at this very moment - I am at home - by MYSELF - laughing out loud - praying I remain PEACE filled - when I actually GO out and run into those other humans out there that is MY test -  the PEOPLEplease I am talking about ME not anyone else - please take what HELPS and let go ot the rest- to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you - remember - NeverTakeAnotherPuffEver - over MEN.O.P.E- NotOnePuffEver

indingrl.01.06.2011

News LarryG 

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Apr 15, 2020

Glorious news from MY-  friend -  Evie from the NOPE365 support group - said LarryG in hospital with knee trouble and stated that - LarryG said - he is hopeful he will be out in a few days

indingrl.01.06.2011

Not One Puff 

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 Apr 13, 2020

NOT one puff - those word's seems silly to say out LOUD - I SPEAK them anyway -  yet for ME -  those word's are life saving in this TIME of cv19 germ warfare - MY REALITY with tons of FEELING thinking and tons of wild FEELINGS that come and go - ebb and flow as I direct MY FEELINGS they do NOT rule over ME or lead ME into silly decisions in MY LIFE TODAY - please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you - please I am talking about ME not anyone else - thank you  -  each of MY friend's tested for cv19 recently - the test results - came back NEGATIVE and one of MY friends the doctor tested twice - result NEGATIVE again - he was sent home to his assisted living - locked down in his room - the REALITY in the whole world is cv19 germ warfare is taking lives in ALL the known world - NOW for ME -  it is up close and personal - FACT not a FEELING THINKING -  it is a REALITY of the UNKNOWN who will survive for ME - the extremes in MY thought processing becomes wildly insane FEELINGS of death and doom and gloom YET I say out LOUD NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF EVER OVER MY FEELINGS - I go to MY God first and MY prayer is - HELP and the answer is simple - speak LIFE word's  - MY CHOICE to speak LIFE word's - I speak to take fears out of MY heart and say - NOT ONE PUFF - over cv19 OR  any person OR place OR  thing OR situation OR circumstance OR FEELINGS - CHOICES - CHOICES - CHOICES - it is TOUGH deciding what word's to speak - so I personally pray and ask MY God for HELP -  to speak LIFE words in MY Lord Jesus name amen thanks for letting ME share MY word's of HOPE - NotOnePuffEver over ME I then choose to encourage MYSELF with LIFE word's and humor to bless ME through MY REALITY and REMEMBER I trust MY God and all is well with MY SOUL in Jesus name amen

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