My Quit Journey Day 6

Blog Post created by Marigene6266 on Aug 15, 2020

I've been struggling today. I don't understand why, nothing happened to cause any stress or anxiety. For most of the day I was perfectly fine, then out of the blue late this afternoon I really wanted to smoke. I did everything I could think of to fight off the craving including hard candies, brownies, ice cream, etc. I did some organizing of dresser and closet, Cooked my husband's favorite 1 dish supper. (taco's with all the toppings) I ate so many sweets that my blood sugar went to nearly 400 I don't have anything else to snack on right now. I was nauseated and even had to go to the bathroom and  get sick at one point. I could not get outside and walk because it rained all day. I continued to fight and struggle throughout the evening. About an hour ago (9:30 pm) I decided I was gonna have one, I couldn't take it anymore, my skin is crawling, I keep having random itchy spots all over my body, I feel like I'm about to have a panic attack. I went in to get one out of my husbands pack but he only had one so I did NOT take it and now it's worse than ever. I feel like I'm gonna jump outta m skin and I don't know what to do.