PastTense

Down to the wire 89/90

Blog Post created by PastTense on Mar 11, 2020

I committed to writing 90 posts in 90 days; and I am near the end of that journey. I didn’t manage 90 days; as of today it is 99 days since I started. Let me just say, it’s been a helleva ride.

The purpose of the blogs wasn’t to entertain or teach or gain insight. The purpose was merely to get me on this site every day. And with few exceptions, it has done just that. I have pledged and blogged and read nearly every day for the past 100 days.

I also had to really reflect about not smoking every single day. By day 75, think I could turn anything into an analogy for the quitting process. Somehow looking for a topic for a blog led me to writing about issues that were generally avoided or diminished.  I think we avoid some topics because we don’t want to scare off new quitters. I certainly can appreciate that. At the same time, I think we do a disservice to both new and “experienced” quitters by avoiding painful subjects.

Like weight gain. I take heart hearing real quitters who also gained unspeakable amounts of weight and nearly cry when they look in the mirror. Because that is me, too; and now I am not alone and not a failure. I even found it comforting to know that I am not the only person who thinks Alan Carr is insufferably smug!

I also wanted to get real about serial quitters. Admitting to being a serial quitter (and a closet smoker) was very hard for me. I assume it’s hard for other people, too. It is so much easier to just fade away from this site than it is to say, for the 3rd, 4th, or 20th time “I blew it again and have to start over”. That’s me, too. I hope somebody out there who is struggling is looking at me and thinking “I am not alone and I am not a failure”. Whoever you are that needs to hear this – Keep quitting until you are QUIT. That’s what I’m doing and it’s hard and we are in this together.

Keep quitting til your quit

Keep the quit

PT

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