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  I am crying and adapting and praying and dealing with a very sore neck and shoulder pain from new stretching dvd by Donna Flagg - she calls this STRETCHING dvd - Lastics - I been DOING it - 3 times a week - since January 2020 - then YESTERDAY -  I came and seen these WHACKA DO CHANGES here on this site AGAIN - just MY saying - on MY home page here and researched it and figured out a couple things by - GUESSING - making change. -  that I wanted on MY home page -  YET couldn't DO much - so I just logged out - I came back and read a blog by Lady G and left her a NO comment graphic - I was so cry baby ME inside - I am NOT computer savvy - I become over whelmed by NEW changes on this site - I just get ok and a little educated by learning graphic sharing and then BAMM- NEW UPDATE TO SITE - I didn't see or read any email from this site OR messages of any kind - that THEY would be DOING changes to THEIR site - YET THEY don't have to tell or ask ME anything - it is THEIR SITE NOT MINE  - THEY can DO anything THEY choose - so NOW comes - MY prayer - Dear God please HELP ME in Jesus name amen - please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you - I tried to update the part that says I haven't been updated 3 years - I gave up and logged off AGAIN - anyway - I am ACCEPTING better in this moment - I ate lunch and I laid down and rested - NOW I am SHARING MY immaturity at this NEW CHANGE - this site has made -  to which I admiting-  I am POWERLESS to change this site's choices and MY Holy Spirit in ME is HELPING ME to thank ALL of YOU for teaching ME to BREATHE -  3 deep breaths - blog a VENTING BLOG  - then while I am adjusting MY attitude and MY Holy Spirit in ME HELPS ME to grow up on MY insides - I am to be proud of MYSELF - accepting CHANGE as it comes  - I am grateful to MY God for HIS grace and love and tender mercy in ME to admit MY OWN defeat and admit MY immaturity and I am admitting to MY illusion of controlling this site - feeling thinking I can make THEM - do things MY way -   I am ok with their CHOICES -  to update this site anyway THEY choose - THEY OWN it and THEY want updates -  I am joy filled that I have grown up in being RESPONSIBLE for MY emotions to blog this truth about ME and NOT once did I want to suck a 50 DEATH STICKS - I am GRATEFUL - I am flexible - in accepting changes -  as THEY are happening on this site - which I do NOT own - yahooooooo -  I am a young and beautiful and living and loving - MY NON SMOKER lifestyle - I am one who knows - HOW to COPE with this SITE DOING things THEIR way and I still am willing -  to share MY truth and be OK inside of ME- I will continue to CHANGE for the better in MY HEART about ME - good OR bad OR indifferent OR just pitching a fit in one moment of MY day - I am LEARNING in MY CONSTANT of MY NOW  - because this SITE will continue to change and grow as THEY adapt to 2020 technology's FAST growing changes to STAY ON TOP and ONLY by MY God's grace - I too will be ever learning and growing and HEALING inside MY HEART in MY Lord Jesus name amen - thank YOU ALL- for letting ME share just pitching a fit 

Thelastquit2019

On the bright side

Posted by Thelastquit2019 Mar 29, 2020

This has been a rough weekend.A lot has happened in my family .My son was trauma alerted to hospital last night he was in a motorcycle accident ,He is going to be okay .He is very lucky to only suffer a broken leg and major road rash .He was wearing shorts .It was more stressful because when I got the call I was also told I can not go to hospital because of the covid 19 precautions .Which I understand stand and completely agree with ,But it still is hard.On the bright side during this very emotional night I never once thought of a cigarette or smoking.It does get better .Im finally seeing this .Hope everyone is staying safe and healthy.

msmmm215

What A Day

Posted by msmmm215 Mar 29, 2020

Watching tv and very afraid of catching the virus that's out here.  But I know smoking willnot change a thing. Feeling sad, with so much going on in the world which I have no control of. I didn't want to mention my quit to family or friends, since I failed before.  So I'm just going to do it. They will notice because most of my family members donot smoke. I'm def going harder on this quit.

These are EXtraordinary and EXtremely Exceptionally terrifying times BUT we can and will get through whatever comes our way we'll make it through and we'll keep our precious quits in tact so when this pandemic is over we'll continue to EXperience the Freedom of living a Smokefree Life it's EXtremely difficult right now BUT relapsing isn't the answer NOT when our lives are hanging in the balance we need our lungs because breathing is essential to living....

Here's a question for you ......

I'm just as stressed as pretty much everyone BUT I'm finding a little humor is good.

How about one more!  

I am using these words to pass on MY FAITH - I prayer - THROUGH MY day -  in the CONSTANT of NOW - I ask for ALL of YOU who rest in Christ Jesus to prayer for EVERYONE -  who doesn't have Jesus as their Savior and Lord - please CHOOSE for YOURSELF - to teach the gospel of grace - given to YOU freely - 1 Corinthians chapter 15 verses 1- 4  - read it in the Bible - NOW. - for YOUR self - take God at HIS Word and just BELIEVE  - the FREE gift of eternal salvation - to believe personally in YOUR own heart in Christ death and burial and resurrection - HE did it ALL for YOU - just BELIEVE what YOU read in the Bible for YOURSELF and YOU are saved - it is that SIMPLE - I am asking to - please read for YOURSELF -  I Corinthians chapter 15 verses 1- 4  - I read God's Word and I believe what I read in MY simplicity and cry out in MY Lord Jesus name - now because I don't UNDERSTAND ALL - YET I keep believing reading studying Gods Word for MYSELF -  to keep WALKING by FAITH and not by sight -  that is challenging to ME and ALL the people who have died in ALL the world from CV19 is frightening to ME and YET - I hold on to MY FAITH - which is in MY Lord Jesus faith in ME - it is the FRUIT of MY Holy Spirit in ME working to keep praying for ALL the world's people and thanking God HE is in CONTROL of ALL the world - I take HIS Word and read it out loud - Dear Father God in Jesus name it is written  - Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer - amen - I received a call last night from MY friend of 35 year relationship - her brother and wife and daughter went to ER and she is WAITING to hear back IF they have CV19 - I prayed last night and continue prayers in MY CONSTANT of NOW -  since ALL this test of MY FAITH started- please I am talking about ME not anyone else - so please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you - I received a text asking to be taken off group texting from this women WHO started group texting in support of a on line 12 step group because her husband had a stroke YESTERDAY and she has also been dealing with her daughter having cancer so she wanted  off  the group for NOW while she deals with her current life - EVERYONE is dealing with their OWN sufferings - TODAY WE are in UNITY - n.o.p.e. NotOnePuffEver - N.O.P.E. - CV19 is real - CANCER is real - COPD is real - MY REALITY is too REAL for ME so I run to MY God and pray in MY Lord Jesus name amen THANKS for letting ME share MY FAITH and MY HOPE and most of ALL MY humaness that cries to ALL of YOU here - I need YOU - I am scared for MY friends family and I appreciate ALL of YOU who have EMPATHY for MY fears and anxieties that make ME cry out to fellow sufferers like ME - HUMAN

Chin up deep breaths and know that we're all here for each other through the good and the bad days and we're dealing with some bad days right now BUT as stressful as things are smoking wouldn't make anything better in reality relapsing would only intensify the stress level because NOT a thing would change other than screwing up a perfectly beautiful quit we're all under alot of pressure that's for sure I'm so glad that we're here for each other.....

 

It's my youngest grandson Mason's 11th birthday today we had lots of plans for his day but with the way things are right now pretty much everything is cancelled and we're abiding with the government in staying home unless absolutely necessary I actually haven't been anywhere since the 3rd of March BUT Mark's still working along with so many others Drs nurses retail workers including my son and his fdrivers restaurant workers although it's just for takeouts and they're making sure the truckers are eating I'm sure there's many more people working in different sectors and I thank each and everyone of you, I wish we could hug Mason BUT we've been doing the social distancing and giving each other virtual hugs on a daily basis him in his home and me in mine. I'm praying for everyone to do the same so hopefully we all get back to semblance of normalcy whatever that might be BUT only when know that it's safe, I'm so sorry that I'm rambling let's take as many deep breaths as we need to and have the best day possible Smokefree of course oh yeah I almost forgot George our buddy our pal our friend our Hump Day Camel also says have a great day....

These pics below are pretty much from different occasions last year. the one above is from a couple of months ago. the one picture below of Mason holding his cupcake is from his birthday last year.

How about a little chuckle to end this blog so just know my hubby Mark is safe since he's still working plus I can't knit LOL.

Life is ALWAYS going to happen; it's how we respond that tells the tale. Youngatheart.7.4.12   As a former addict, I was accustomed to having a cigarette when something happened.  Another elder told me to tell myself. "I don't do that anymore". jonescarp.aka.dale.Jan_2007 Now life is happening with no smokes, which no food, nor drink can fill.  So what shall I do?  "Keep on keepin" on is the advice from another. mike_in_alanta . When I would be having a rough time.  I was told to get through it and I would be stronger for it. Giulia 

So I give all of this advice to you.  At the beginning of your journey be willing to listen to the elders. (Pull up my content and filter with the "a wise elder once"  )There is a series of blogs I have written about the elders and how they enhance this site with their wisdom.  There is much to learn from them if you would just listen, not get mad and run away to smoke.  Their wisdom has gotten me through many a life crisis.   If you notice some of the old-timers may not be here every day but they often come when they need support and help that only EX can give. 

I share this with you because it works.  972 DOF.  1883. I believe that no matter what NOPE works if you educate yourself about nicotine addiction, be willing to relearn your thinking and behavior because another one told me that it is "doable". Marilyn.H.July.14.14.  I appreciate all that they taught me and more.   Especially that there is no reason to smoke, just EXcuses. Thomas3.20.2010  Thank you.  Everything is going to be alright because the elders told me so. Barbara145  If you can quit smoking you can do anything pir8fan.  Take the time to read their pages and information they have compiled over the years.  One thing to do on the list of 101.  For me, SINAO smoking is not an option. Thank you all for your love and support.  Too many to name. 

Marilyn.H.July.14.14.

Deep breaths!!!

Posted by Marilyn.H.July.14.14. Mar 22, 2020

It doesn't matter where we are in our quits whether it's day ONE or ONE thousand or two thousand or three thousand all that matters is that we must make it through these horrid stressful times with this terrifying Covid 19 AND we can AND we WIll BY sticking with N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever and vigilance N.M.W - No Matter What these are unprecedented Times that's happening BUT relapsing isn't the answer because what's happening is going to continue to happen whether we smoke or not so sticking with our precious quits is the gift of LIFE that we must nurture and protect.....

SisBB

Day 15

Posted by SisBB Mar 21, 2020

It’s Day 15! I feel great about not smoking. It’s one of the kindest things I’ve ever done for myself. 

 

I left my house once today to go to the rink and pick up my roller skates. I’m meeting some friends for an outdoor skate tomorrow and I’m really nervous to be outdoors. I’ve been working from home and barely around anyone except for my girlfriend who I live with. I miss hugs and skating. We’ll be outside and not too close to each other. I don’t know. Being an athlete and not playing my sport right now is tough. 

SisBB

WV

Posted by SisBB Mar 19, 2020

My home state is WV who recently had their first verified cases of COVID-19 because they didn’t have supplies to test everyone who was displaying symptoms. They have a lot of elderly folks and coal miners who already have respiratory illnesses and are extremely vulnerable. 

Swanbird

90 days!!

Posted by Swanbird Mar 18, 2020

Yahoo!  I am so happy I made it three months. It's getting easier but not a day goes by that I don't think about it.  40 days to get out NML.  I'm getting there.  These are trying times for us all in one way or the other.  Praying everyone stays safe.  Haven't been on much lately, I'm overwhelmed with what is going on with our world.  I think I will be back to spending more time on here like I did in the beginning because of what's happening.  We all need to support each other in one way or the other.  Thank you to all of you who have helped me achieve 90 days!  Here's to another 90!

There's so much happening in this World that we have no control over BUT thankfully when it comes to quitting smoking we do have complete control over whether we smoke or not so vigilance is key to remaining Smokefree....

hattonc

371

Posted by hattonc Mar 15, 2020

Good Afternoon..

been a good while since I’ve been on here.. well I past my 1 year anniversary.. not one cigarette have I smoked since I quit .. I’ve been doing good.. I have put some weight on for sure.. but I have to be honest .. I have been wanting a cigarette for the past few days.. it’s just one in out of the blue.. I still have not but I’m actually nervous .. why is this happening now after a year? There is no nicotine in my system .. my advice is to never stray from this site.. cuz the encouragement is there we just have to be here to get it .. I hope everyone is doing well.. 

Cindy 

PastTense

The 90th blog 90/90

Posted by PastTense Mar 13, 2020

Writing a blog every day for 90 days is a bit of a… chore. Let’s be clear about that up front.

I love reading and I love a well-crafted phrase. I will stop in a book and just re-read a paragraph because it is so elegantly expressed. Because I love words, I have a completely unrealistic expectation for my own writing.  I am not a natural writer. This quote by Gen Fowler sums up writing for me; “Writing is easy: All you do is sit staring at a blank sheet of paper until drops of blood form on your forehead.”

But I wrote anyway. I understand my world through words. I needed to understand my addiction through words. I used my words to figure out that I have a problem. In fact, I figured out that I have many problems. And I figured out that I needed to address or at least acknowledge those problems in order to extract myself from nicotine. I wrote about anger, and lack of self-control, and my wayward (yet, utterly adorable) inner child. I wrote about gaining weight and losing my mind.

Writing 90 blogs in 100 days is intense, public therapy. I am relieved to be finished. I think I have finally figured out most the things that have kept me a serial quitting. Knowledge is power and power keeps a quit.

I would also like to thank the folks who read and commented on nearly every post and lent their support. Barbscloud, Youngatheart, Elvan, sweetplt, 5jacks, and SuzyQ411. I counted on your support. Thank you for your never ending generosity with it.

I will still be writing here, and sharing the support I have received. SuzyQ411 is hoping to start a group for everyone in No Man’s Land, and has invited me to participate.

Signing off on 90 blogs

Keeping the quit

PT

PastTense

Down to the wire 89/90

Posted by PastTense Mar 11, 2020

I committed to writing 90 posts in 90 days; and I am near the end of that journey. I didn’t manage 90 days; as of today it is 99 days since I started. Let me just say, it’s been a helleva ride.

The purpose of the blogs wasn’t to entertain or teach or gain insight. The purpose was merely to get me on this site every day. And with few exceptions, it has done just that. I have pledged and blogged and read nearly every day for the past 100 days.

I also had to really reflect about not smoking every single day. By day 75, think I could turn anything into an analogy for the quitting process. Somehow looking for a topic for a blog led me to writing about issues that were generally avoided or diminished.  I think we avoid some topics because we don’t want to scare off new quitters. I certainly can appreciate that. At the same time, I think we do a disservice to both new and “experienced” quitters by avoiding painful subjects.

Like weight gain. I take heart hearing real quitters who also gained unspeakable amounts of weight and nearly cry when they look in the mirror. Because that is me, too; and now I am not alone and not a failure. I even found it comforting to know that I am not the only person who thinks Alan Carr is insufferably smug!

I also wanted to get real about serial quitters. Admitting to being a serial quitter (and a closet smoker) was very hard for me. I assume it’s hard for other people, too. It is so much easier to just fade away from this site than it is to say, for the 3rd, 4th, or 20th time “I blew it again and have to start over”. That’s me, too. I hope somebody out there who is struggling is looking at me and thinking “I am not alone and I am not a failure”. Whoever you are that needs to hear this – Keep quitting until you are QUIT. That’s what I’m doing and it’s hard and we are in this together.

Keep quitting til your quit

Keep the quit

PT

Anthonytrujillo

New Journey Off Juul

Posted by Anthonytrujillo Mar 11, 2020

Hey, I’m Anthony and I have made the choice to abstain from Juuling after noticing very undesirable physical effects (erectile dysfunction) along with angina (chest pain), lung pain, excessive coughing, etc. I am a 20 year old male, been Juuling since October 2018. I had a successful month of abstaining with only one setback, so this will be my second endeavor. Hope to get to know everyone on here and wish to be a support as well as vice versa. Good luck everyone!! 

PastTense

The Void 88/90

Posted by PastTense Mar 10, 2020

The hardest part about quitting for me, is acknowledging that I really like smoking. If nicotine weren’t addictive and if smoking didn’t cause me to wheeze when I walk and cough when I talk and it didn’t cause me puffy eyes; I would never, ever quit. The reality of smoking is that the associated pleasure is immediate and the ill-effects are cumulative.

My challenge is to remember my long term goals in the midst of a short term craving. I don’t know if craving is even the right word, because I think I am long past the withdrawal from nicotine. And I have the exact same problem with chocolate and other sweet goodies that people bring to the office to share. Girl Scout Cookie month is especially problematic.

The fact is; there is no direct substitute for smoking. Sure, I have done the tricks to get over a craving; breathing techniques, and sucking through a straw, and gum, and mints, and every other type of hard candy on the planet; and they are but a grim reminder that we don’t smoke anymore. I find the suggestion to eat veggies instead of smoking particularly hilarious advice.

There does come the time in a quit (and I am there), where substitution is untenable. Nothing fills the same void as smoking. I accept this as true for me. My challenge is to determine if that void really needs to be filled. I remind myself that I have felt a void every time a really good book comes to an end. I feel that void after the Christmas holiday and every vacation trip. I even felt a void when I finished my master’s degree and realized after twelve years of school I was finally done.

The void is a fact. It is also a fact that the void fades. (If I ever write a book, the title will “The Void Fades” because how awesome is that phrase???). So when I get that itchy “something is missing” feeling I can remind myself that this is just the void. Yeah, it’s itchy. Yeah, I don’t like that feeling. But it will fade.

Until then

Keep the quit

PT

PastTense

The Competition  87/90

Posted by PastTense Mar 6, 2020

I saw a sign posted in a workmates cubicle yesterday.

Your competition isn’t other people.

Your competition is your own ego. Your competition is our own negative behavior.

Compete against that.

I had just stopped in to chat and got hit in the face with a philosophy lesson. Or maybe a tough-love lecture. Of course, everything in my brain right now is focused on becoming a non-smoker, so I’m wondering what part of this lesson I can apply.

I don’t feel that quitting smoking is a competition, especially against other people. I could make a case that I am competing against nicotine to see if I can quit smoking before Ole Nick kills me. Not a great argument, but hey; I’ve got an essay to write.

I think my bigger competition is my own image of myself as an effortless non-smoker. My non-smoking self is so smart that she decided to quit smoking and just stopped smoking. No problem; just an iron will. She looked at the cost and was appalled and quit smoking. She looked at the mess of ashes and butts and quit smoking. My non-smoking-self kinda looks down her nose at me and my struggle and says “just say no!”.

So, that’s my competition. And I have two choices. I can check my ego at the door and get all the help I need to actually, finally, completely quit smoking. Or I can continue to pretend that I am a non-smoker.

I want to be truly smoke-free WAY MORE than I want people to think it was easy for me.

The hard reality is a preference to the image.

I figured all this out on my first cup of coffee. It’s gonna be a great day!

Keep the quit

PT

PastTense

Under pressure 86/90

Posted by PastTense Mar 4, 2020

Sorry, kids; I am not having a creative day today.

I am trying to get a deal closed that will make a rather large impact on me, financially.  It is madness.

From around 10am until now, it has been one unforeseen problem after the other.  The whole deal (several months in the making) keeps unraveling while I scramble to knit it back into place.

I shouldn't even say the problems weren't seen.  I did see them, even brought them up to people who should have fixed them.  Now I am LITERALLY standing over people while they type out the letters of approval that should have been done a week ago.

I have 4 minutes to make this work.  Tapping my foot and watching my email.

Clock is ticking and I am on tenterhooks.

Keep the quit - right now it is SO STINKING HARD

PT

PastTense

Late to the Party  85/90

Posted by PastTense Mar 3, 2020

Today is the deadline for completing my 90 blogs in 90 days.

I can tell you right now that it ain’t gonna happen! This was a far more arduous task than I had envisioned when I first set myself on this mission, but I have gotten some insight into what it takes to maintain a quit. Of course, it has taken me a long time to get to that insight. My last 10 blogs had more solid value to me than the first 70 combined. That’s a depressing ratio!

It’s better to be late to the party than not to go at all, I suppose. I saw a meme to that effect the other night while scrolling through Facebook. My bedtime routine is to page through Facebook every night until I have lost all faith in humanity (and spelling and grammar), and then try to sleep. Every now and again you do strike gold. The meme I saw was one such nugget. It said whenever you feel you haven’t measured up to what others are doing to think about a bag of popcorn. When you throw a bag of popcorn into the microwave, some kernels pop immediately. Some take a lot longer. Same brand of popcorn, same bag, same heat; and yet they all pop in their own time.

Of course, there are those reluctant kernels that never do pop and usually wind up in the trash (and the couch cushions at my house). That’s where the analogy falls apart. However, we don’t have to limit ourselves to one trip through the microwave. In real life, we never have to be the un-popped kernels in the trash. We can keep trying until we explode into crunchy deliciousness.

Keep the quit

PT

PastTense

Ground clutter 84/90

Posted by PastTense Mar 2, 2020

As expected, I am drowning and work and have been in head-down-full-speed mode for 5 hours. I’m coming up for some air and maybe a brisk walk around the shop to catch a second wind so I can go another couple of hours.

Back in the day, I would probably have used this kind of pressure to justify smoking. Because that makes so much sense. “I’m so busy I can’t even stop to pee, but I’ll take a 10 minute smoke break to help me cope with the pressure”. I know I am not the only one who has had these conversations with themselves. I shake my head at some of the truly stupid things I have said to myself to rationalize smoking.

Way back in the day when my daughter was young; I was her Girl Scout leader. Let me tell you; for all of my flaws (and they are legion), I was an amazing Girl Scout leader. We took a field trip to our local airport and got a tour of the Air Traffic Control Tower. The controllers were fantastic; they explained how airports work and what their job was. They explained about radar and told us about “ground clutter”. Ground clutter are radar returns from a bounce off a building or the ground. They produced images but not useful data and they can sometimes make it very difficult to see the actual target. ATC must learn how to tell a real aircraft from “clutter”.

When I think about quitting smoking; I know a lot of my issues stumbling blocks were just ground clutter. They were a radar bounce off of old habits that made it harder for me to see the target. For me, weight gain has been ground clutter. Stress and pressure are nothing but ground clutter.

The real target for me is addiction. I don’t want to focus on the real target because I don’t want to be an addict. I don’t want to admit that there is a substance that I am slave to. If I can worry about the ground clutter, I don’t have to worry about dealing with the real issue.

I don’t know what brought that particular field trip into my head. The mind works in mysterious ways.

Keep the quit

PT

While driving back from a vendor last Wednesday, I had a long talk with my inner child.

For the record, she's a bit of a brat.  That child wants what she wants.   Don't talk to her about nutrition; she is not interested in hearing about vitamins or calories.  That girl wants cookies.  The gooey chocolate chip kind.   She is also not interested in hearing about exercise when the pillow is soft, or finishing chores when there is something worth watching on Netflix.   

Of course, she is a child, and that's what children do.  That's why we adults have to raise our inner children to be grown ups.  To eat veggies, and get 10,000 steps, and for the love of all that is good in the world, to stop smoking.

I realized in my long chat with her, that I have not been very kind.  I'm really good at barking orders and not so patient with listening.  

I remember when my daughter was little, I would never speak to her that harshly.  If she wanted something we couldn't afford, I would write it down.  Anything at all.  We sometimes made lists of stuff we wanted.  Just acknowledging her and what she wanted was enough to satisfy her.  

I'm going to try that with my own inner child and see if she won't respond better.

Doing what it takes to keep the quit

PT

PastTense

So far behind  82/90

Posted by PastTense Mar 1, 2020

I was away for one day last week.  ONE day.  Not even 24 hours and yet, I am so far behind in everything.  There is a pile of mail on the desk beside me that needs to be reviewed.  I'll be working late all next week to take care orders that stacked up while I was away.  And I am, like, five blogs behind.  I am committed to getting out 90 in 90.  

As I contemplated (read that as stressed) all the work I have to do I started thinking about all the time I have lost in smoking.  

I don't just mean the accumulated hours I spent crouched in a corner of the garage puffing quickly so I didn't get caught.  I'm talking about the days of life I have lost.  I can't go back and get them.  Each cigarette cost me 7 to 11 minutes.  It adds up to around 7 to eight years.  Eight years.  

I lost my mother to the affects of smoking (and other poor lifestyle choices) 7 years ago.  Had she not smoked, she would be here now, maybe.  

It will take another 15 years to reduce the chance of heart attack or stroke back to non-smoking levels.  My sinuses may never recover.  All that precious time.

I can't quit any sooner and it's damn time to make it stick.

Keep the quit

PT

Just for TODAY - I will live this DAY only by praying to MY Lord Jesus - asking to be fully present -  in this DAY only -  with EVERYONE I meet - TODAY - I will ask in MY prayer moments of this DAY-  to pay ATTENTION to EACH person speaking and pray to REALLY listen - to EACH person and to remain in thankfulness to MY Lord Jesus -  TODAY -  by breathing in and out in GRATITUDE - that HE has given ME this NEW DAY - to be in HIS love and service - by sharing MY NON SMOKER life style -  to ANYONE -  who is ADDICTED to NICOTINE - I will share MY experience strength and HOPE by listening in MY heart as MY Holy Spirit prompts MY spirit to HELP - those that - I can smell - the drug NICOTINE - on their clothes OR in their hair - when I am hugging them - I offer this support group - I share -  how I have been on this site since October 2010 by reading the BLOGS and then BECOMING an EX FAMILY member - ONE day at a time - SELF- EDUCATION - is one of the SUGGESTED - keys along with learning - HOW to COPE - with life on life's terms -  which takes TIME - it is a ONE DAY AT A TIME -  process for ME - please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you - MY transformed life by MY Holy Spirit in ME - ONE day at a time - I am opened minded to keep LEARNING - from other's here - who walk THEIR talk and I continue to grow by trying and making mistakes - I learn about MYSELF in MY heart - where I need to LEARN from other's how to grow up on the INSIDE of ME and to be honest with MYSELF and admit I don't know somethings and I NEED people's HELP -  to keep learning and then I continue to keep BLOGGING so everyone will know ME and how MY life HITS hard and JUST FOR TODAY - MY solution is to blog - BEFORE -  I take that first PUFF over ME - JUST FOR TODAY - I will HELP some ONE - to BELIEVE they are NOT alone and TOGETHER - WE  will say - out LOUD to ourselves - Not One Puff Ever - JUST FOR TODAY. - with MY Lord Jesus HELP and with - EVERYONE'S - HELP here and their support - by the BLOGS- they share DAY by DAY  -  TOGETHER - WE love and support EACH other and keep learning and growing and HEALING from EACH other and - for ME -  inside of ME and outside of ME - change HAPPENS - I learn that I am handling - MY NON SMOKER LIFE -  JUST FOR TODAY - by living in this moment by moment DAY- choosing to be fully present and spiritually mature as an ADULT - inside and out -  HOORAY FOR MY LORD JESUS - living BIG in ME - Thank YOU ALL for being GOOD teaches at this daily living NICOTINE FREE - JUST FOR TODAY - thanks letting ME be ME

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