Blog Post created by indingrl.01.06.2011 on Feb 1, 2020

I am a NON SMOKER today- yet some day's - MY life on life's terms takes ME back to old coping thoughts  - MY old thought life - PAST MINDSET -  I used to be constantly obsessing about - smoking - smoking - smoking - MY thoughts racing over and over - when I can smoke - I just NEED to get a couple of puffs - when do I get a break - I need to SMOKE - what time is MY lunch -  I would be so excited for a half hour - just to - SMOKE - smoking one cigarette after another - MY whole DAY surrounded by thoughts of smoking -  then it was SUGGESTED to get a NEW MINDSET -  it was SUGGESTED to throw away ALL MY OLD THINKING because I did NOT know how to - Not Take One Puff Ever - N.O.P.E -  when dealing with MY DAY - so I read blogs and watched the video's at - now I encourage MYSELF - I say out loud - I don't smoke any more - I am a NON SMOKER - when I see other SMOKERS smoking  - I would come here and blog on how I was jealous that they could SMOKE and I was taught that they don't get to smoke -  they HAVE to smoke - it was SUGGESTED - to think - POSITIVE - I say to MYSELF - YOUR doing good - I ask MY God to HELP someone while I am hurting so bad I want to escape MY life on life's terms - then I remember - THINK POSITIVE - think positive - NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF EVER