Joy Filled Moments

Blog Post created by indingrl.01.06.2011 on Dec 28, 2019

By God's grace -  I was given this NEW day - December 28 , 2019 - I say MY prayers and ask MY God for HIS will in MY life - above ALL I ask - I desire HIS will and plan and purpose this DAY for ME - please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is MY only aim - thank you - in MY most precious memory of MY NICOTINE ADDICTION - was HOW ignorant I was when smoking - I learned from MY blood family to smoke -  MY blood family generations were RAISED in ADDICTIONS of many many varieties for YEARS - for ME - I choose to receive God's free gift of eternal salvation on November 6, 1986 - throughout MY intimate relationship with MY God - HE has been WORKING inside of ME - transforming MY character and MY heart into HIS love - joy - peace -  YET I would NOT stop smoking - at home Bible study -I was sucking down 50 death sticks a DAY while reading and studying the Bible - MY ignorance - I believed I would NOT suffer the consequences of smoking like other humans because I was saved - then I saw a t.v. commerical when a man tried to quit smoking and he was TRYING to drink a cup of coffee but he kept missing his mouth and the voice said it is hard at first to re- learn-  how to do things without smoking  - I laughed and thought to MYSELF poor thing - the ad was from and so I came to research this site on october 2010 and read the blogs and took the SUGGESTIONS all while TRYING to quit smoking on MY OWN and being on this site every DAY and I watched the early death video's at - the elders here SUGGESTED I go watch them - I got down to 2 - 3 smokes a DAY from 50 a DAY on MY OWN - then 2 - 3 lead right back to buying another pack -until I surrendered to MY God - I fell to MY knees on the kitchen floor and cried out - Dear Jesus - if you don't take these cigs from ME I will smoke them until I drop dead in Jesus name amen - then I woke up the next DAY on January 6 , 2011 - COLD TURKEY QUIT - I have been on this site since October 2010 - this is MY RECOVERY from NICOTINE ADDICTION - I am talking about ME - in 9 days only by God's grace I will celebrate MY God's grace love and tender mercies - STOP - the date is December 28 , 2019 - just for TODAY - it is the ONLY MOMENT - I have to continue - LIVING JOY FILLED IN MY NON SMOKER LIFE STYLE - this DAY is FILLED with memories - full of gratitude - no more smoking at PEOPLE -  no more smoking emotionally filled with rage out of OLD habits OLD patterns - no MORE rewarding MYSELF sucking on death because I cleaned the house OR I just finished exercising - NO MORE coping with MY life on life's terms with sucking on 50 cigs in this DAY only - I am truly set FREE from MY NICOTINE ADDICTION this MOMENT - you NEVER know it may be MY last moment and one of MY legacies - she died a  JOY filled non smoker HELPING others by SHARING her experience and strength and hope - just like what was given to her - FREELY GIVEN