I recently gave away my jar of cinnamon sticks and then shortly thereafter, bought another jar to keep in the car... just in case.
I was driving home from Richmond yesterday, about an hour, and thought it would be a good time to grab a cinnamon stick. But something stopped me and made me think that I'm still addicted to something if I do that. I did not open the jar, but rather thought about how I am almost at a year quit and shouldn't need a crutch any longer. Do we ever not need a crutch? Does it (the addictive desire) ever go completely away?
I still have the jar in the car, but didn't "smoke" one on the way home yesterday. I've had a couple days of "I wanna smoke" and know they're transient.
Argh, smoking is hard, even almost a year out.
Donna
Day 335
When there are moments and activities that we don't have a huge amount of time relearning, it's true that we can start stinkin' thinkin' - and being addicted to cinnamon sticks is not such a bad thing - right? You did good to not use them THIS time, but don't let the fear of that outcome keep you from enjoying one from time to time. Not a thing wrong with that......as long as YOU are in control of their use.
I can become addicted to most anything sweet. I chose to use an small ice cold Pepsi as my chore break "reward," and I could easily start to drink one with a meal - but I have chosen to only have one as that reward. Again, I am in control!
That's the key here, I think.
Nancy