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MindaLee

It’s Time

Posted by MindaLee Nov 30, 2019

I knew vaping wasn’t the safest but safer than cigarettes. I knew I couldn’t do it forever but hoped I could. As I type that I lay here tired. Exhausted really. I’m detoxing from nicotine. threw away my vape this morning and everything that went with it. I’m ready. I took a restless two hour nap and am laying back down in bed. I’m mad for not using the full Thanksgiving break to quit and should’ve started on Wednesday but at least I started. I choose to embrace this quit. It’s my final quit. If I don’t quit, it could be my final quit. I cast my care to God and lean on him first and foremost during this time. I know you all will be here with me too and I thank you in advance for that. 

God Bless You All,

 

Minda

Baby-J

Hello Day One

Posted by Baby-J Nov 25, 2019

I have been looking for this for a while now. Going through the cycle all over again really sucks but I'm glad that I'm psyched up to try it out. I am going to be on nicotine replacement (gum) I cannot take chantix because I just found out we are expecting so never a better reason than that. But I think the gun will help me this time because I've got experience with quitting. And practice makes everything easier. So here we go! Keep me occupied tomorrow ladies and gents send funny comments and post encouraging words. Humor works wonders for day one. Thanks for the support!!

razzelbal

Feeling Ready!

Posted by razzelbal Nov 24, 2019

I have moved up my Quit date to Nov. 25 tomorrow I'm excited and some of you have already given me a lot of positive feedback thank you very much. Just learning how to use this site and trying to quit smoking has been a long journey and I feel I'm ready. 

Hi Everyone at Ex’s...

 

I received a beautiful gift in the mail today from Missy, our very own Mandolinrain.  Thank you so much Missy for this reminder of when I joined Ex’s and my approaching 1 year quit.  If there was one thing good about this addiction it was finding Ex’s and all of you...I can’t thank each of you enough for helping me to stay focus on this journey....Blessings and a Happy Saturday...~ Colleen 355 DOF 

 

Roj

Phone calls need to be made

Posted by Roj Nov 22, 2019

Spoke to the man I consider to be my dad last night...he has been in the hospital for weeks and I didn’t even know it. We get so wrapped up in our own crap that we forget how fragile life is and to make those calls more often, especially if you are in a different state. The guilt I felt and sadness for all he went through and I wasn’t even aware made me want to smoke....what a great idea that would be to lose my quit and speed up my COPD...NOT!!!! during this holiday season I hope everyone reaches out to all their loved ones at least by phone...blessings

PastTense

It's the little things

Posted by PastTense Nov 19, 2019

I used to imagine that quitting smoking was like fighting a beast.  It was a tough fight, but once the beast is dead; the beast is dead.

I no longer think that's an apt analogy.  I think smoking is more like getting rid of cockroaches.  You have to really WORK to get rid of cockroaches.  You can't just spray some chemicals and BOOM, they're gone.  You have to make sure your house is spotless so they don't have a food source.  You have to make sure you don't have an plumbing drips, or dampness in the house.  You have to make lifestyle changes so you never leave a dirty plate in the sink.  And STILL, some night you'll creep out to the kitchen for a snack, throw on the lights, and see the scurrying little nasties run for cover.

 

That's my stage of quit.  I have made the lifestyle changes and bombed the house and now I'm slogging through the maintenance.  Not complaining, mind you; I just mulling over my quit on the drive to work (whilst remaining smoke free), and this popped into my head. 

PT

DonnaMarie

Crutches

Posted by DonnaMarie Nov 17, 2019

I recently gave away my jar of cinnamon sticks and then shortly thereafter, bought another jar to keep in the car... just in case.

 

I was driving home from Richmond yesterday, about an hour, and thought it would be a good time to grab a cinnamon stick. But something stopped me and made me think that I'm still addicted to something if I do that. I did not open the jar, but rather thought about how I am almost at a year quit and shouldn't need a crutch any longer. Do we ever not need a crutch? Does it (the addictive desire) ever go completely away?

 

I still have the jar in the car, but didn't "smoke" one on the way home yesterday. I've had a couple days of "I wanna smoke" and know they're transient. 

 

Argh, smoking is hard, even almost a year out.

 

Donna

Day 335

Just joined tonight.  I have been a member of the QUITNET since Oct 2001 and quit smoking on November 18, 2001.  I hope to be able to help as many people quit or stay quit as possible.  Call on me for help at anytime.

redluvr

When grief becomes shame

Posted by redluvr Nov 13, 2019

I am 18d 20h 27m into my quit at the time of this writing. 

 

This being my first quit attempt, I didn't begin knowing what to expect or how I might do. I'd done some digging and wasn't exactly thrilled with what the Internet had to say about the likelihood of a first quit attempt being successful.  I was expecting it to be a challenge, but it's affected me in a few ways I didn't anticipate. As I previously wrote about, I was surprised to be feeling grief. But now that I've moved a bit closer to the acceptance phase in that cycle, I'm feeling another negative emotion: shame. 

 

How could I have been so stupid for so many years‽ I'm now ax ex-smoker at the age of 41, but being a 1+ pack-per-day smoker for more than 20 years has almost certainly done irreparable harm. My body can theoretically continue to repair itself until the day I die, but I can never get back the two decades I spent harming myself. I met with my quit coach yesterday and tried to explain the same thing I'm attempting here right now. She told me that I had to find a way to forgive myself and move forward.

 

I know she's right, but it feels like I'm not ready yet. If I consider a hypothetical scenario wherein someone else was slowly killing me for more than half of my life (but suddenly stops) do they deserve my immediate forgiveness? Am I supposed to give this person a hug and be happy that they're no longer killing me, or is it more realistic that I should want to punch them in the face and feel completely justified for the anger I have?

 

I've been told I should reward myself with something else since I no longer have the expense of cigarettes and that I should feel proud that I've quit. Part of me understands the logic behind that line of thinking, but the truth is... I'm not so proud, and definitely don't think I deserve any kind of reward. I did a very bad thing to myself for a very long time. I can imagine being able to forgive myself, eventually. I just think it's going to take a lot longer than 18 days. 

I have realized this as fact in my life. To deal with my surroundings. And it has really hurt me in the long run. I want to be better. 

DonnaMarie

Day 328...

Posted by DonnaMarie Nov 10, 2019

...and still not letting down my guard. I am a former smoker; I do not smoke. 

 

I mentioned the other day that I gave away the jar of cinnamon sticks I keep in the car. Well, today, I bought another jar for myself. I'm just not comfortable not having them in the car. How weird is that? I may never open them, but it's a comfort to know they're near if I need one. 

 

I'm there, but not there. Anyone else still reluctant to fully accept that they'll never smoke again? I won't smoke, but I like having my cinnamon sticks in case there's a super urge.

Onward to becoming a 6 percenter!

 

Donna

Day 328

Mandolinrain

I'm Back!

Posted by Mandolinrain Nov 4, 2019

I am back!  Vision will probably never be what it was but I moving forward.

I see better with stronger fonts and bold so I will be a bit limited. but Im here and will jump in when I can.

 

Missed all of you, looking forward to meeting Newbies. 

 

My new news:

1. Life is good

2. Snow headed here this Thursday

3. I am planning in skiing this year, so I am excited!

4. I ordered a Cello. I have no clue how to play one, but always wanted to   learn.

5.  I am 5 years a 2 months free of Nicotine

6. Life is good...oh, I said that already, right?

7. I am back to stay

 

 

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