Blog Post created by indingrl.01.06.2011 on Sep 28, 2019

In the beginning of learning a NEW mindset -  i was learning to live as a NON SMOKER - and during this past week of going threw MY grief  -  I was over whelmed SUDDENLY  -  by a ball of EMOTIONS -  all at once - because I saw a Kawasaki motorcycle at the stop light - I remembered - MY adopted son Carlton was killed - end of August 2019 at 9pm in Oak Harbor, Washington - BAM!!! MOTORCYCLE ACCIDENT-  DIED  - I went - TODAY - to MY support group for GRIEVING - it was SUGGESTED to ME - keep this in MIND when OVER stressed - physically - emotionally - mentally and spiritually - to BE gentle and kind to MY self -  and REMEMBER to take care of YOU - D. E.E.R. - the D is for Drinking WATER - the E is to EAT - the E is to EXERCISE - the R is to REST - D.E.E.R. - I needed simple solution to HELP ME - I get confused - I want to stay in bed - I want to sleep the GRIEF away - it is SUGGESTED to take care of ME THROUGH MY grieving - I NEVER think of using drug NICOTINE to cope- I BEEN A NON SMOKER TOO LONG TO USE MY EXCUSES OF OLD ADDICT MIND - NOT TODAY - MY NEW MINDSET - thinking is for ME - asking for HELP -  from those who have EMPATHY because THEY too have grieved loss of loved ones and remained NON SMOKERS - walking in their REALITY THROUGH the PAIN to heal and keep moving forward - to HELP others to learn - grow - heal and the pass on the love and solutions to unexpected GRIEVING - in this MOMENT - to let GRIEVING have its way and go THROUGH the pain - Drink water Eat Exercise Rest - D.E.E.R. while GRIEVING - please take what HELPS and let go of the rest - to be HELPFUL is my only aim - thank you - gentle hug