PastTense

First time for everything

Blog Post created by PastTense on Sep 25, 2019

I went out for a beer with a co-worker after work yesterday.  Driving home later that night I had an absolutely INTENSE craving.  This startled me; I'm at day 55 and clearly no longer in withdrawal. I couldn't understand where it came from.

Then it hit me: this was the first time I had gone out since I quit smoking.  So this was the first time I got hit with the after-drinking trigger.

 

My number one trigger is driving.  I have resisted that one at least 100 times, so that particular habit is broken (or at least fading).  I haven't had to resist the after-drinking trigger before, so it was full-color.  It will probably take me a few more times of pushing through that trigger before it fades to nothing.

 

I was pondering other situations where I got hit with a trigger "out of the blue"; like going to a certain store.  I used to smoke in that parking lot (trees for shade).  The first time I went back there after I had been quit maybe a week, was really tough.  I was practically hyperventilating.

 

The lesson for me is to be aware.  I don't know how many triggers I have out there, laying in wait, ready to pounce.

The price of liberty is eternal vigilance.

 

PT

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