The first 24 hours of the rest of my long and healthy life

Blog Post created by MEL00 on Aug 12, 2019

Wow. The first 24 hours absolutely suck. I woke up and just laid there for a few minutes just thinking about smoking. I thought to myself "well what's the worst that could happen if I just took one drag of my E-Cig" or "I will just take one drag and then I will be actually be done for good". But of course that's a lie. Its never just one drag or just a tiny hit. That "one hit" leads right back to smoking every ten minutes, can't be in the car without it, can't leave the house without it, and finding an excuse to go to the bathroom every 20 minutes to smoke. I am 19 years old, since December of 2017 I have not gone more than 8 hours without smoking. For what feels like forever I have let nicotine control my life. I wish I could go back to the day I was first handed a Juul, and walk the hell away. But I can't and that's ok. The one thing I can do is give it my all to quit this nasty habit. I have been preparing to quit for about two weeks and today was the day. Last night 8/11/19 at 8pm I took my last inhale and said goodbye to the thing has been controlling me for what feels like the longest time. I tossed everything I had in a trash bag and tied it in a knot 4 or 5 times. I kept myself busy for the rest of the night until I went to bed. I continued on my normal routine without the most normal part of my routine. I gathered up my quit kit. I picked out my favorite gum. I laid in bed and watched tv until I fell asleep. Jump ahead to the next morning, I'm still thinking about smoking. It really did take everything in me to get myself out of bed and directly in the shower without stopping to smoke. I have bit into several lemons today. Drank so much water I lost count of how many ounces. Done an unbelievable amount of jumping jacks. And gone through 3 packs of gum. The community on this site has been the biggest help. It sucked. It wasn't fun. I pictured myself smoking and how good it might feel. I definitely cried at times. But I didn't smoke, not once. I didn't think I could but I did. As I roll up on 8/12/19 at 8pm I can PROUDLY say that I have started a new chapter. A healthy chapter. 

- Kenzie 1 DOF