I had a massive crave this morning, but got through it. I was lying on the couch and watching a movie, and it's all I could do to just stay there and let the feeling pass but it did. I know it will always pass if I just don't feed it.
Saturday is quite often a bad day for me, because everyone is busy for the weekend. However, I'm going to fill my day with some housework, and then after that do some reading or crocheting or doodling as a reward. I'm noticing too that my grief for Brian is stronger during the season changes. Sometimes I just feel so lost without him, and my cigs.