Lord,
My husband and I have been put thru the ringer with medical tests. His vertigo systems... My scopes, biopsies, xrays, now another low dose scan..
My lungs are a mess. And yes, if I could get it passed my lungs I would sneak a dreaded killing, suffocating, cancerous stick of tobacco in my mouth.
I know better now, it is much to late to keep playing that game. Those days are so over. But for whoever, needs to know just one more. it wont hurt; Think again! It will, It can, and it does!
Sometimes you have to let a learned process, of addictiction and behavior, go every single moment, for the rest of your life.
The Good news is: The unlearning behavior process "Can Not" kill you!!
Writing to myself, and anyone, who wants to know what I'm going thru!! As I schedule more madness in the medical testing world, from toxic waste that I have allowed myself" to put in my body!
NO MORE!
I will commit to parenting my mind!
They say when u first start a new rule, it is always hardest in the beginning", and gets easier as time goes on". So be it!!
Almost 6 DOF YES!
Truth!