Good Day today, I didn't smoke. was out to my Yoga class. I have been having a tough time again. My head keeps giving me indecision, yet I know this is the best thing for me. One moment I want to smoke, the next I don't. I want this to be easier, but it just isn't. I go out and my head says sure, stop buy a pack, you don't really want to stop smoking even if the Dr. says you must. I MUST do this, and not give in. There are so many better things to do with my time and energy. My neighbour was with me today, and she reaked of smoke. It made me feel revolted to know I stank like that!! She asked me if I wanted a smoke on the way home, I said no thanks.
I smell clean, I have kids to live for. They need me even tho they are grown. I know they love me. So today the thought that keeps me going is I have to live for them, and do my best. Christmas will be weird this year without Brian, I am making it through this one step, one day at a time. For everyone here, thank you.