I am right back where I started...Full Blown Relapse...Today New Day 1

Blog Post created by princessdeborahd on Sep 11, 2018

I'm not going to make any excuses!  It all happened so fast...One smoke and next thing I know I was buying a pack... Sneaking around... I kept telling myself that when this pack is gone, THAT'S IT!!  And back to the corner I would go...I said that's it for 3 weeks! Michael and I are early risers...3-4 am.  I was waking up at 1 and 2 am.  Walking down to the patio where no one could see me and smoke with my coffee.  The old behavior was back with a vengence!

This morning I went to the patio and had one cigarette.  I said That's It!!  No More!  I destroyed the rest of my pack....threw my lighter away and headed home. I feel like such a loser! All I can do now is take one minute at a time!!! And I know where one puff will lead me! I don't want to go there again!!!