I'm not going to make any excuses! It all happened so fast...One puff...one smoke and next thing I know I was buying a pack... Sneaking around... I kept telling myself that when this pack is gone, THAT'S IT!! And back to the corner I would go...I said that's it for 3 weeks! Michael and I are early risers...3-4 am. I was waking up at 1 and 2 am. Walking down to the patio where no one could see me and smoke with my coffee. The old behavior was back with a vengence!
This morning I went to the patio and had one cigarette. I said That's It!! No More! I destroyed the rest of my pack....threw my lighter away and headed home. I feel like such a loser! All I can do now is take one minute at a time!!! And I know where one puff will lead me! I don't want to go there again!!!
Deborah
I am so sorry to hear you made that initial decision to take a puff. You need to accept that there will never, ever be just one puff to an addict. The Law of Addiction states, "Administration of a drug to an addict will cause re-establishment of chemical dependence upon the addictive substance." - from whyquit.com.
I am glad you have decided to start in again so quickly. Good decision!
You might spend a minute thinking about your decision to smoke and make a plan what you will do differently THIS time.
I'm glad you are back!