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I'm Back Baby!

Blog Post created by minihorses on Sep 7, 2018

For those of you who don't know me I'm Julie, the sanctified, classified and certified bi-polar heavy metal rock mom.  I had quit for 7 months until my life fell apart in shards and I went back to my old 'friend' as a result.  I am on the path to quitting again and am SO excited! 

 

This quit is going to be a lot easier than the last since it has only been about 5 to 6 months since I was dumb.  This time I started this quit because I was just absolutely sick of smoking and it was starting to just make me feel like garbage.  I went on Chantix again and am on my 12th day of it.  I don't want to smoke, I don't  enjoy it, and it's starting to make me sick.  In those 12 days I have cut down from a pack a day to about a half a pack and am only smoking enough to keep the withdrawal symptoms down until the end of next week when I'm sure I'll be able to give it the boot. We just got really bad news so I can't be a sick, mean person (IF that all happens again) until after we find out more and if our presence is wanted or needed.  

 

For those of you who know me, I'm hoping to be in a much better mental state for this quit.  I'm angry with myself for going back to the nicodemon but that was then and this is now.  I am excited, have more mental and physical tools than last time and I absolutely abhor smoking.  I may have the withdrawal but I am better equipped to manage it (I hope).  I won't be able to be on the site as much as last time but I will try to be around every day even if it's just for a short time.

 

Looking forward to catching up with everyone and see you on the boards! 

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