Please I AM talking about ME-so please take what HELPS and let go of the rest-thank you-Gods word comforts ME-1 Thessalonians chapter 4 verses 13-18 has helped-ME- a believer in Christ Jesus finished work for ME on the CROSS- to keep believing and accept the FACT WE ALL WILL DIE- MY family-some of them went to say their goodbyes to our mom 86 with good health check ups-just dealing with MY mom saying -I am trying to make it to my next bday-so that started the visits-I cried out to God for acceptance with the aging PROCESS-its natural-WE all get older-OUR bodies are decaying-NO ONE ESCAPES DEATH-I trust God and his word-I accept the aging process of MY mom and her choice to try and make it to her next bday-WE-God willing-scheduled our visit for nov. 21-then I thought-I could be called home by God OR MY Lord Jesus could come for ME at any time-either way-MY victory is in MY Lord Jesus who blessed ME with a cold turkey quit and ALL MY TEACHERS HERE-who taught ME-NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF AS AN EXCUSE TO DEAL WITH LIFE ON LIFES TERMS-ALL you experienced who LIVE NON SMOKER LIVES HAVE DEALT WITH DEATH OF LOVED ONES-YOU DIDNT USE NICOTINE AND THEIR DEATH AS AN EXCUSE-GOD WILLING IF YOU STAY A NON SMOKER SO CAN I-UNITY IN TOGETHERNESS-NOT ONE PUFF EVER-USING NICOTINE IS NOT AN OPTION! AMEN!!! I thank God for EVERYONE HERE.
Never take another puff-no matter what life or any person place thing situation circumstance-becausn MY personal belief is in MY Lord Jesus! Just get a bible read it for yourself-1 Corinthians chapter 15 verses 1-4 -its the gospel of grace-believe or dont-your choice! Please take what helps and let go of the rest in MY Lord Jesus name amen-FACT-YOUR FREE WILL CHOICE-thanks for letting ME share!
HAPPY 44TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TO OUR BELOVED ELLEN AND HUBBY TODAY AND MANY MORE IN MY LORD JESUS NAME AMEN! May God continue to bless and keep you BOTH in HIS LOVE PEACE JOY AND HEALING BLOOD OF OUR LORD JESUS I HAVE ASKED AND PRAYED BY FAITH in MY Lord Jesus name amen-love you Ellen and thank you for all you do here for everyone!
So much is happening around the world like the hurricanes especially Hurricane Florence and there's not a blessed thing we can do except pray for everyone to be Safe, there's so many things in our lives that we have no control over my older sister Cheryl is 59 and is on her 3rd yr of being Cancer free from breast Cancer she needs to get to 5 yrs to feel safe, my younger sister Marion she's 54 just found out she's got breast cancer and decided yesterday to have her breast removed which will be done within a month the oncologist said. Life happens whether we smoke or not and I'm sitting here typing this out with tears in my eyes wishing these situations away BUT unfortunately no one can do anything except pray my brother in law also found out his cancer is back after one and a half yrs of remission he just turned 58 ,he has renal cancer which keeps coming back in different parts of the body the first cancer was 15 yrs ago then 7 then the last one was one and a half now it's back anyway I will not smoke over any of it because I want to be able to help if I can! I don't want to be outside somewhere in a cloud of smoke so I choose to stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance we all have a choice to relapse or to keep the most precious gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE!!!!
I'm not going to make any excuses! It all happened so fast...One puff...one smoke and next thing I know I was buying a pack... Sneaking around... I kept telling myself that when this pack is gone, THAT'S IT!! And back to the corner I would go...I said that's it for 3 weeks! Michael and I are early risers...3-4 am. I was waking up at 1 and 2 am. Walking down to the patio where no one could see me and smoke with my coffee. The old behavior was back with a vengence!
This morning I went to the patio and had one cigarette. I said That's It!! No More! I destroyed the rest of my pack....threw my lighter away and headed home. I feel like such a loser! All I can do now is take one minute at a time!!! And I know where one puff will lead me! I don't want to go there again!!!
Had some stressful stuff to deal with this morning, but I made it through without smoking, so I'm feeling good about that! I'm on day 12 and feeling a lot stronger than I did last week! Yesterday was good. I didn't really have any cravings and maybe only one thought about smoking that was pretty short-lived. I went on a long hike and could tell my breathing was better already than it was when I was smoking. I'm happy to be a non-smoker again!
JUST CELEBRATING ALL OF US TODAY FOR LOVING OURSELVES AND COMING HERE TO PASS ON THE LOVE THAT WAS SO FREELY GIVEN TO US BY ALL THOSE HERE BEFORE US LIVING A NON SMOKER LIFE ONE DAY AT A TIME AND PASSING IT ON TO ALL WHO WANT IT......GOOD JOB EVERYONE!
For those of you who don't know me I'm Julie, the sanctified, classified and certified bi-polar heavy metal rock mom. I had quit for 7 months until my life fell apart in shards and I went back to my old 'friend' as a result. I am on the path to quitting again and am SO excited!
This quit is going to be a lot easier than the last since it has only been about 5 to 6 months since I was dumb. This time I started this quit because I was just absolutely sick of smoking and it was starting to just make me feel like garbage. I went on Chantix again and am on my 12th day of it. I don't want to smoke, I don't enjoy it, and it's starting to make me sick. In those 12 days I have cut down from a pack a day to about a half a pack and am only smoking enough to keep the withdrawal symptoms down until the end of next week when I'm sure I'll be able to give it the boot. We just got really bad news so I can't be a sick, mean person (IF that all happens again) until after we find out more and if our presence is wanted or needed.
For those of you who know me, I'm hoping to be in a much better mental state for this quit. I'm angry with myself for going back to the nicodemon but that was then and this is now. I am excited, have more mental and physical tools than last time and I absolutely abhor smoking. I may have the withdrawal but I am better equipped to manage it (I hope). I won't be able to be on the site as much as last time but I will try to be around every day even if it's just for a short time.
Looking forward to catching up with everyone and see you on the boards!
Just saying today has been a strange day yet I am so grateful to God and to all who have taught ME to live as a NON SMOKER for MYSELF.....it is MY opportunity to give ALL away what was given to ME....so here it is....blog BEFORE you take that FIRST PUFF OVER YOURSELF......give the people here a chance to HELP YOU CHOOSE DIFFERENT ways to COPE with ALL you are facing....ONE DAY AT A TIME....thanks for letting ME share....JUST SAYING....give YOURSELF a chance to CHOOSE DIFFERENTLY.....just for TODAY.
I've been focusing on what makes me light up and what I'd do if I weren't smoking. I wanted to pay close attention to everyday stressors that could threaten my soon to be quit. I had a good start to the day, minus a horrible morning smoke...I could taste the poison, almost was my last one, but I didn't want to jump the gun. I received a call and was offered a job that I knew would cause stress and be a deterrent from my quit plan. I said to myself, do Not let this be an excuse, (thinking of the torment made my rethink everything). New job with extra stress means it's Time to prepare, plan, and learn! I get excited and call the hubby to discuss. He immediately starts saying how it's a further drive from my current job, traffic, all the cons... another stress factor I know will come during early stages of my quit, (marriage, disagreements, etc.,). So I took a mental note. I went to work, complete chaos the moment I walked in. I immediately craved a cigarette even though I just extinguished one 30 minutes ago. The craves were aggressive but I managed. I looked at my phone to check the time and discovered missed calls, texts, and weather alerts. Well, the power went out, (wasn't expected to be back on until late the next day, the kids were at home, and husband and I were at work...I wanted to run and smoke, fast! I didn't and couldn't. I took a breathe and said that they are old enough to handle it, (almost out of the house old enough), but as a mom I naturally thought of everything that could go wrong. I thought to myself what would I do if I no longer smoked and it wasn't an option? I changed my thoughts and handled the stress. I started my preparations and got on with it. Five minutes before I got off, I was told power was restored, hubby was home, and all was fine. I was on my way home and thought, I can do this! The thought came with a genuine smile and hope. Not the second guessing, full of excuses drive that I was expecting. The sky didn't fall and through the very stress factors I was sure that would change my mind about even attempting...I found enlightenment.
Sorry for the long post, but It's a note to self and anyone else that can relate. One moment at a time. Pay attention, learn from the moment.
I had the strangest day yesterday. I felt like I had my jaw clenched and a knot in my stomach. It lasted all day. Everything else was quite normal, and I was busy so the day went by quickly. So, is this a crave I was feeling? Has anyone else felt this? The end result is I worked through it and kept on going, so that's great and today that feeling is gone. Thanks for listening!