indingrl.01.06.2011

CREATE MY OWN HAPPINESS

Blog Post created by indingrl.01.06.2011 on Aug 29, 2018

Today in MY world.........there is a lot of FAMILY members with different types of cancers....physical health ailments....crippling arthritis.....and as I was sitting at home.......I read a story of a person who LEARNED she had to take ACTION and CREATE MY OWN HAPPINESS.......I got up and came to the library to use their computer for FREE.....and I made a decision to pray and I ask My Holy Comforter to put a song in MY HEART TO SING.....I sing because I'm happy....I sing because I am free...his eye is on the sparrow and he watches over ME.....then I found some movies to rent for FREE..... I have been wanting to watch the Bourne trilogy.....I asked the librarian for helped to locate and WE found two of the three......then I prayed for people throughout MY whole day....since I got up at 5:30am and then God willing  called MY mom and I scheduled a thanksgiving visit with her......I spoke directly to her to make sure she would be home and that she wrote the date down on paper TODAY and that no one was scheduled at this time to visit her.....I tried for September and she was booked up with other family members.....NOW I know I must be responsible and TRY to remain spiritual fit and grown up....I had HURT FEELINGS at the time I called for the time in July and I was able to pray and NOT LET MY FEELINGS RUN ME.......for ME.......please I am talking about ME and no one else..... so please take what HELPS and let go of the rest to be HELPFUL is MY only aim......thank you....I pray a lot its MY LIFESTYLE.....has been for 31 YEARS......so I ask God to help ME learn to keep MY eyes on MY Lord Jesus and to obey the Holy Spirit.....I learned along time ago to throw MYSELF into HELPING others when I am EMOTIONALLY HURTING AND MENTALLY DERANGED WITH ALL OF LIFE ON LIFES TERMS COMING AT ME ALL AT ONCE..... overwhelmed with all ME AND BEING SPIRITUALLY UNFIT with MY husband's mom...she has breast cancer and her birthday is the 13th of September God willing she will be 95 years YOUNG and has decided NOT to do anymore radiation for the breast cancer her choice her decision and her life.......AMEN......end of subject.... NEXT.....his sister age 61 years YOUNG is being sent home to spend her last days in hospice....she has brain cancer.....MY mom with debilitating arthritis that leaves her unable to MOVE AT ALL on some days....other days she is ok....and physically all her health is good at age 86 years YOUNG...no worries......MY sister has been her caregiver forever.....she NEVER left MY mom's house......she recently built her own home and built a room for mom at one end and close to the door in case of emergencies......so MY mom is very blessed by MY Daddy God in MY Lord Jesus name amen and amen...end of subject.......ALL DAY......MY TODAY..... MY EMOTIONS HAVE BEEN TRYING TO TAKE ME TO THE PITY PARTY AND I REJECT THAT AND SAID GOODBYE PITY and hello to CREATE MY OWN HAPPINESS.......then I text MY husband to let him know the dates to visit MY mom in November and he said ok.....he is doing a lot better than yesterday with his families health issues....only SUGGESTION I made to him....... was to let himself cry.....just let it all out..... it is OK......he thanked ME and agreed....so he has picked up on exercising and taking care of himself when he goes on his walks at work during breaks and his lunch time......he walks outside and prays and let his tears be his prayers for his mom and his sister........ I take care of MY OWN health with exercise and eating too..NO ONE CAN DO IT FOR ME...ACTION ON MY PART...AMEN.....WE are staying with fish and veggies and strawberries and blueberries and water daily with some beetroot juice with fresh lemon and 1/4 teaspoon fresh garlic when WE first wake up....for US.....we pray together asking God to teach US to take care of ourselves and each other.....staying in pray for each other throughout this DAY.....truly living ONE DAY AT A TIME AND ACCEPTING LIFE ON LIFES TERMS.....is tough enough with life on life's terms......when I get all SQUIRRELY...AND YES I KNOW..... I AM RESPONSIBLE FOR MY OWN EMOTIONS AND MENTAL HEALTH SINCE GOD GAVE ME A BRAIN....I AM RESPONSIBLE TO USE IT.....AMEN.....I MUST ALSO PUT MY BODY INTO ACTION TO CREATE MY OWN HAPPINESS...I USE TO USE NICOTINE AND SMOKE 50 DEATH STICKS A DAY TO COPE  WITH LIFE AND ME...GOODBYE TO ALL THE OLD USING CRAP.....USING OLD LIFE.... AND HELLO TO HAPPINESS.......so I went to a support group this morning.... 20 other woman showed up and some were JUST LIKE ME..... INSIDE THEMSELVES TODAY TOO.....GODS AMAZING GRACE SO POWERFUL...HIS LOVE SO TENDER BLESSING ME WITH RECOVERING FAMILY....it was like a breath of FRESH AIR INSIDE OF ME then I went home ate lunch....prayed and came here and I am CHOOSING to do things that make ME happy.....now when this is done.....TRYING to be of service in GODS UNCONDITIONAL LOVE to anyone who is HURTING....SAD....BLAH....FEELING JUST LIKE ME TODAY INSIDE OF YOURSELF...... on this support NEW RECOVERING FAMILLY TOO......you can CHOOSE..... .CREATE YOUR OWN HAPPINESS......AND CHOOSE TO SAY GOODBYE TO USING NICOTINE and CHOOSE JUST LIKE ME TO CREATE YOUR OWN HAPPINESS.....This is what I put into ACTION for ME.......it works.....NEW  WAYS ....NEW IDEAS ......NEW LIFE TODAY.....and I sing because Jesus is MY portion....and I sing.......Jesus is MY best friend and with ME always NEVER will he leave ME.......and I sing..... ALL IS WELL with MY mind.....will......and emotions.....because of MY Lord Jesus I can sing because ALL IS WELL WITH MY SOUL.....thanks for letting ME share how I CREATED MY OWN HAPPINESS.....and remained a HAPPY NON SMOKER and grateful for the support I have been given by MY God and by his AMAZING....WONDERFUL....LOVING grace and more  grace....his love....his joy....his peace...MORE AND MORE.....I sing because I'm happy...and I took MY sister her birthday gift to her job and it lifted her spirit because she is also dealing with her job closing after 20 YEARS of her service there and her friend is in hospice with cancer too.....she was SAD and emotional too......just like I was INSIDE of ME.....yet by GODS AMAZING GRACE....I was able to SMILE to the best of MY face and wish her a happy birthday EARLY....her 63rd years YOUNG.....Praising God for his truly AMAZING GRACE UPON GRACE.....two hurting souls...... TODAY......singing because we are HAPPY IN THIS DAY!  in MY Lord Jesus name...amen 

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