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In the beginning of your quit, and, for quite awhile,

It feels unnatural to not smoke.

We can get fidgety after we quit.

Which can lead to discombobulation.


I cut a straw into thirds and I would chew on them.

It released the unease and tension created by not smoking.

Some use flavored toothpicks.

A rubber band on the wrist.

Find your distraction.

It's easier to let go of later than letting go of smoking seems now.

      I was a smoker for 40 years. I thought I was a smart smoker.

I bought 100's and only smoked them halfway down thinking the further away from the cherry, the safer the smoke and my lungs. I was aware I was smoking 5 good puffs for the feeling. I like many, didn't think about smoking any more than that, if they even thought about it that much.


      I never considered it controlled me although I did go outside during intermissions to smoke. 


      What I've learned is, it does control you and, I believe other than PREVENTING OBVIOUSLY KNOWN HEALTH RISKS, that removing it's control is the greatest success for your self esteem.


Let's talk about smoking's control.

Cigarettes were on our mind 20 times a day more or less.

>When we thought of smoking, most of us had to stop what we we're doing to go smoke.

>If we couldn't stop the task or end the conversation, we thought about smoking until we could smoke. That wait is what made smoking "the reward."

That is control perceived or not.


Other ways smoking controlled us

>The special trips to the store just for smokes.

>Wondering if you had enough left to get you through the night and the next         morning until you could get to the store.

>The yearly costs which could have gone to other things like a real vacation.




Freedom is your hope and hope is your freedom.

That is what we strive to inspire in you.


Regarding my methods: Some think I can be harsh. That is not my intent.

      I would never hurt anyone's feelings over what they had done or not done regarding their quit but, I'm not a fawner. (I do love those here who can be both the fawner and the helper. Hopefully, I've helped teach them something.)

I will ask questions if I think I can help someone who smoked understand how their thinking made them smoke and how to prevent them from "getting to the point of crossing the line" in the future.


Not Critical, Analytical 

I finally blew it.  On Wednesday night around 8pm, I bought a pack of cigarettes:(  Like a criminal I waited for everyone to go to bed and then snuck outside, wrestling with my conscience the whole way.  I opened the pack, and smoked one of the cigarettes.  It was a strange combination of wonderful and gross.  (That's probably why I only smoked one)

I feel like a hypocrite. The second cigarette I smoked was the next morning when I was out on an errand, feeling sick and dishonest the whole time.  Then again last night I smoked one and this time I paid attention to my mind and my body trying hard figure out what I was doing and why.  One thing I noticed was when I exhaled the smoke kept coming out of my lungs, so exhaled harder and it kept coming......GROSS!!!!  I then remembered what my carbon monoxide levels were before I quit in the first place.  I can't claim a slip because I did it on purpose.  I felt sad and disappointed in myself and still do.  But I brought the pack to my husband  (all of them)  and told him what I had done.  He refused to distroy them,  He said this is entirely my decision.   So

I broke them up into a Walmart bag and went out to my studio to write this confession.  It was very hard to bust those cigarettes and I have yet to add water to the left overs!  I need to reset my quit date,  I haven't smoked any today yet, but I noticed that there were still a couple of good ones left in bag. . I am hearing on the ledge. 

..  I am sorry to let you all down.


Bag of Destroyed Sickorettes

I'm one of those those people that like a Happy Medium when it comes to the weather   I like the low to the mid 70s but that rarely happens but it's my preference, it sure feels like Fall this morning and ugh two weeks from today is the last day of August wow but they'll still be some good weather coming BUT no matter what the weather or anything else that's happening in life I can say beyond a shadow of a doubt that smoking isn't even a blimp on my Radar because I don't do that anymore, my oldest grandson Adam who's 14 called around supper time last night and wanted to come spend the night so he's still sleeping this morning I'll fix him at least a half lb of bacon 3 eggs and a bunch of toast and apple juice for breakfast we haven't seen much of him this Summer so it's great he wanted to spend time with with us old fogies .....

Quit day tomorrow!!

Posted by Dhow Aug 16, 2018

Today is my first time on here. My quit day is tomorrow. I have my patches and will remove all things related. I attempted last week and had 3 days under my belt but became weak and bought a pack... I have to do it! I need to do it! I work in health care and hide the fact that I smoke... I think they know but they don't ask and I don't tell! Fabreeze is what I use to mask the smell. Plus I remove my work top and put on a jacket, pull my hair up... all just to chain smoke at lunch. I'm embarrassed and ashamed to admit this but this soon will end because I'm going to beat this!!!!


Day 10!

Posted by BryceEvans Aug 16, 2018

It’s been 10 days since my last cigarette and I’m loving the life of a non-smoker. I’m starting to get more energy, and I can go out and do things with my family without stopping to smoke before/after. 


Here are a few coping methods I’ve found effective:


1. Deep breathing

when I start craving, I take some deep breaths and try to imagine how much the health of my lungs has improved.


2. Go do something

This isn’t very effective at night, but after work if I start craving it’s usually because I’m not busy enough. I found it helpful to get up and do something. Sometimes I’ll load up the kayak and take it out for an hour or two before sun down, other times it’s just weeding the garden or organize the garage for a little.


3. Food 

i know this isn’t the ideal method, but there is a time and place for this one. I use it very seldom. Just snack! I snack on more healthy choices like peanuts or fruit and it is a good method to fix that late night nicotine craving. 

Life happens whether we smoke or not and choosing NOT to is the gift of LIFE which I consider the one gift that'll keep on giving day after day week after week month after month and Lord willing year after year BUT like most things worth having it's going to take time to relearn life without the smokes BUT once you stop and think about how many decades you smoked then it only stands to reason that you have to go through all of the rough patches to get to that point where you realize how much better life is as an Ex Smoker because life really does get easier and easier with time under your belts,  it's such a great feeling to be able to go anywhere anytime whenever wherever and however without worrying about where to sneak off to suck on a cancer stick.....

I got so frustrated again today in traffic (it's 1.4 miles and it took me over 90 minutes to get home cause there is a FAIR in town) so I cried again after Yoga...where I live is weird and literally on the wrong side of the train tracks so sometimes it takes 5 or 10 time longer to get where you're going and it drives me insane!


So today I felt good, did yoga then got in the car and couldn't get home, so pulled over and cried and had that feeling of being trapped, having no options, making all the wrong choices in life...OMG. It's too hard to move! I can't afford it! I have no where to go!...jI hate my life! Just a flood of negativity and fear... I didn't want to smoke, but I did recognize a long time ago that cigs are an emotional connection, a comfort for me, not really a craving for nicotine...which would probably be easier. 


BUT tonight when this thought PATTERN arose (and I realized it is a pattern and I am going to figure out how to change it)  I didn't smoke to make myself feel better. I looked for another option, which was keep feeling miserable or thinking through the feelings. So I stopped, calmed myself down and said "What's the big deal, it's just a week and the fair will be gone, there's traffic everywhere, it's okay, you can go to an earlier class and avoid the traffic, etc etc." 


This was a big deal talking myself off the ledge because again, I don't really have anyone to talk to in my current life situation. But I wanted to write about it because this would've been the time to panic and complain and smoke...and I didnt. Made it through Day #3...all your kind responses really make a difference. I hope I can do that for someone else someday!

Well it's my day 3. Late afternoon and evenings are tough for me. I work alone from home most days and the reward cycle begins like many when this time comes. But, I am going to yoga again and it is so sweaty and exhausting that smoking a cigarette would feel gross, so I use it to stop the desire and it works.  Just to get some time under my belt before I go out into the world and face all the traffic where I live, hating where I live, feel trapped, angry etc...anyway, I am blogging since you told me too and now I feel I have someone out there...many...who care and there is some accountability. I used to say to myself  "how can I depend on myself when I am so undependable to myself?" Asking the addict to guide you out of addiction doesn't work.  Getting all your kind responses to my first post really gave me a boost to keep going just for today.....  thanks.

you would not be focused on smoking or not smoking.


Blame your uneasiness and temporary discomfort on smoking, not quitting.

 Over time, you can psychologically disconnect from it,

and, be over it, FOREVER.



The Only Way Out Is Through!

I recently came across this old Native story and thought how well this applies to so many areas of life. I felt you may all enjoy this.




An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life:

“A fight is going on inside me,” he said to the boy.

”It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil–he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.”

He continued, “The other is good – he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you–and inside every other person, too.”

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather:

“Which wolf will win?”

The old Cherokee simply replied,

“The one you feed.”


Have an Excellent day.

Recognize the wolves inside of you and fed the right one.

Be good to yourself and others.

And as always....




Posted by Eyes65 Aug 11, 2018

This has been my worst eeek!!!!  The craving are killing me.  They seem to be coming every hour!!! Please Please pray for me... I have NO intention of ever smoking again.  No I will never smoke again !! I have to sleep for them to subside but that is not an option!!!  Thanks in advance.



Posted by mama3953 Aug 11, 2018

Well on my first smokefree there are so many people who smoke...why is it when you stop smoking you see so many people who do smoke? Anyway doing pretty well....doing deep breathing when I need to but staying the course.  It is so enjoyable not having to think when  and look around as to where I can have a cigarette...... I don’t do that anymore!  Still doing a lot of praying......I will be in touch.  Have a wonderful day everyone!

Whether you're on day one or day one thousand and one or wherever, it really doesn't matter where you are it only matters that you're taking your life back from the clutches of the nicotine poison and that you realize that there's definetly Life after Cigarettes if you're on the fence about quitting smoking then it's time to bite the bullet and quit smoking for your health family and friends but especially your life which is depending on you to look after yourself because if you don't nobody else can do it for you and as difficult as quitting can be it's absolutely Doable and totally worth it to be Free....

It's been a long weekend here yesterday was a Civic holiday it was New Brunswick day Mark headed back to work today poor guy it's been crazy hot and humid again just plain sticky which most of you are Experiencing as well BUT just like quitting smoking Mark and I finally wised up on Saturday and bought a damned air conditioner  and it feels heavenly and I can't for the life of me figure out what took us so long because just like quitting smoking once the house cooled down which took awhile BUT WOW I can breathe so much better we bought a 8000 btu one which is able keep the living room, dining room and kitchen cool we blocked the back end of the house off where the bedrooms are but with Window and ceiling fans it's pretty good for sleeping on Sunday we cooked beets from the garden  a good chunk of the day and pressure cooked a batch of yellow and green beans and YAY the house stayed nice and comfortable   hummmmm just like quitting smoking why did we wait so damned long being so uncomfortable with so many people telling us that we'd love it BUT I guess we had to figure it out for ourselves and wowser I'm so glad that we finally did, we hit 100 °F  with the humidity yesterday we may get a little higher than that today which is abnormal for this region BUT YAY and YAY again for Smokefree living and yay for each and every Day WON AND YAY for wising up and buying an air conditioner.



Posted by Tammi777 Aug 3, 2018

It's great to have found a community like this to help me on my journey. Nicotine replacement products are hard to find where I live, yet cigarettes are everywhere. My smoking has been a shameful secret for a very long time and most of the people currently around me have no idea I do it. I am relieved to find other person's going through similar struggles because no one in my life has them. It feels like such an isolating experience at times. I'm looking forward to getting through it.

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