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48 days today

Posted by Melissapowell May 31, 2018

Its still a struggle but I’m doing it anyway! Thanks for all the wonderful support!! This is a great place to be! My family is so incredibly happy I quit. They have also given me motivation to stay quit. I eat a lot of popsicles these days. Much love to you all. ❤️

Gift of Love

This is lengthy because there is so much to say about this Elder  One thing for sure she keeps it REAL.   Open, personal, and compassionate so others feel they are not alone.  Her input causes one to think deeper.  She is very grateful for the freedom of living life without nicotine and is willing to share her gift with love.  She is very proud of her Christian faith and Native American heritage.    Her emphasizes on living life on life terms without nicotine is as real as real can get.  Her motto is Love, Peace, and Joy.  It appears that this phrase was originated by her. 

"take what you can use and leave the rest". indingrl.01.06.2011 


Her profound quote :

“if you always do what you've always done you'll always get what you always got”  


I could write a lot about indingrl.01.06.2011 but I decided to use the words of another Elder, who said it best.

"Take what you need and leave the rest."  These were your words, written on your own blog. I found them exactly when I needed them, at a vulnerable moment early in my quit when someone's comment hurt my feelings. Your words made me stronger. Look around this community and you will see those words everywhere, spoken by all of us. I heard them first from you.  You are a true friend, with a true heart, who has given much to my quit over many years. You are an important member of this community. You have tolerated my noise, and I have tolerated yours. Let's do it some more".c2q 

 Her give and take-on give and take

"Beginning this very NOW moment what have you given to the next suffering nicotine addict.......facts about nicotine.... books to read about nicotine.... expert advice of research tests reports to read... these are ALL good POINTERS .... yet in remembering what YOU use to be like in EARLY withdrawal  from nicotine.... are you giving what was given to you.... HOPE  and LOVE".

Compassion for others

"I am NOT alone.....everyone has troubles.... gas money...NEW thinking ....come here to regroup....get through the rest of the afternoon by reading the blogs someone is always hurting more and SUFFERING more than ME".
"NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF OVER YOU! I think of others and pray for them.... NEW MINDSET.... thinking of others instead of playing the OLD STINKING THINKING reminiscing OLD TAPE OF SELFISHNESS THAT THINKS ME AND MY DRUG NICOTINE".

BottomLine and Really Keeping it Real 



 Please take the time to read a few of her blogs. 

But by all means "take what you can use and leave the rest.


PAUSE, What IF.....  Suggested to ME How do YOU change YOUR suddenly negative attitude? 


Diane Joy, indingrl.01.06.2011


Grateful to God

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 May 29, 2018

Hi my name is indin grl and TODAY by God's grace I have 2700 DAYS FREE from NICOTINE by my personal FREE CHOICE....just for Never Take Another Puff Over people places thing's situations problem's trials tests circumstances...etc... or ME! Thankful for God and for all day at a TIME... Time is precious ....please....remember.... your CHOICE is yours alone! For ME.....I gotta pray for wisdom to choose in MY Lord Jesus name. amen... please take what helps and let go of the rest to be HELPFUL is MY only aim...thank you.


never give up

Posted by newlife5 May 28, 2018

i joined this site 7 years and 5 months ago... so that is how long i have been seriously quitting smoking... i failed .. many times... and i had to deal  with eyes rolling  when i would try again.. jokes from nonbelievers.. shame from another failed i am 4 years and about  8 months quit... there are still people that dont believe i quit.. but you know what.. i dont care... since quitting i am a new person.. i will never go back... i will never take that just one puff... i am so happy to be quit it is one of the hardest and most rewarding things i have ever my entire life... i smoked for 43 years and dont know how much time i have left in this world ... but it will be smoke free...  thats for whatever you do dont give up



love izzy



Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 May 26, 2018

Gosh isn't it wonderful to not be using NICOTINE.....for TODAY....all I have to live through is really 12 hours of the 24 hours....I was taught to enjoy MY day...I got up at 6:30 a.m......TODAY......NEXT......I pray asking to live in this day ONLY....fully present in the moments....MY time is precious.....I pray to use MY free will choices wisely..just for letting love lead....I try to remember.....just for TODAY....Never Take Another Puff..over ME...circumstance....troubles...problems....aches...pains....thoughts..peoples...situations....memories....self centeredness. boredom....pride....emotions....mental anguish....spiritual immaturity....ignorance....gosh I am grateful.....just for TODAY....I choose to be a NON SMOKER..... second by second...minute by minute...5 minutes....gosh it is wonderful to make a gratitude list...I am over weight and healthier than I use to be....I am a NON SMOKER....I can exercise by just walking 10 minutes for ME....gosh it is wonderful to be a NON SMOKER with others who have similarities.....and gosh I have the CHOICE to look for similarities.....NOT the differences.....thanks for letting ME share MY.....Gosh..... ain't it grand I ain't dead from MY 38 years of USING NICOTINE to cope with insides of ME....Gosh it is awesome to be loved by MY Daddy God...MY Lord My Holy Comforter..... for ME.... by ALL MY RECOVERING FROM NICOTINE FAMILY here and at it is so good..... NOT to be ALONE for I CHOSE to come here and serve in  love to ALL who still suffer from NICOTINE in MY Lord Jesus name.amen PLEASE take what HELPS and let go of the rest....thank love love...y'all!  

With the right Mindset we can do just about anything We put our minds to and quitting smoking should be at the top of the list of things to do for your health family and friends but especially your life which is literally counting on you to quit and stay quit as difficult as quitting can be it's much better than having a Dr. tell you to go home and get your affairs in order because there's nothing that can be done! Quitting smoking is definetly difficult to say the least but very Doable and totally worth it so hang on tight and don't let go stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance because S.I.N.A.O Smoking Is Not An Option Anymore keep plowing through the rough patches, be willing determined and totally committed to succeed and you will succeed & relearn life without the smokes and you'll be reaping the benefits of being an Ex Smoker.....



Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 May 23, 2018

My GOD is amazing....generous....and so tender hearted towards ME....11-6-1986....recovery started in ALANON....I had to quit living other people's lives...NEXT...Adult Children Of Alcoholics Anonymous,..11-6-1986....I had to get at the ROOT of MY victimhood....NEXT...Alcoholics Anonymous...arrested for drunk driving....court ordered AA mtgs....3 ordered by Judge...August.1985...sobriety date May 22, 1987....NEXT 1988 professional therapy for abuse....the secrets held in since I was 5 years old.......physically mentally emotionally sexually and spiritually abuses of ALL evil.... by many many blood family and religious Catholics priests and nuns on MY rez......recovering catholic and native American.....NO 12 STEPS could solve this ROOT....only God and MY GOD ALONE.....born again believer....November 6, this present moment growing by MY Lord Jesus Holy Spirit in ME....please take what HELPS and let GO of the rest....I am talking about ME only...NEXT....2005...MIRACLE....ended up in ER...for stomach issues.....gallbladder to be removed and the doctor MY have the beginning of cirrhosis of the liver....I said NO I don't I haven't drank in years...18 years SOBER in 2005......I reject that....she said well they are taking you upstairs to remove your gallbladder....long story short....God healed me....the 5 doctors came in MY room said WE can't explain it WE can't find anything wrong WE know what you came in here with WE are sending you home....I said at 1030 at night...I thought check out at 11am...WE all laughed and I was reading MY bible and one doctor said you will need to highlight that whole book...I said not necessarily it depends on what your looking for....since 2005... that time I have had NO chocolate or Pepsi and don't eat fast food.TRY to practice eating healthier....NEXT... January 6, 2011....COLD TURKEY QUIT from MY Lord Jesus..I prayed dear Jesus if you don't take these cigs from ME I will smoke them until I drop dead in Jesus name amen. Woke up January 6, 2011 not one puff over ME ....ONE day at a time...also.....NO caffeine......elders SUGGESTED i educate myself on MY nicotine ADDICTION no one else's they suggested to go to Joel's book...Never Take Another the early death videos....Bryons saved ME...brought ME our of MY denial......NEXT suggestion to read Allen Carr book..come back here and share my experience ONE day at a time to blog BEFORE I take that first PUFF over ME.......I took ALL the elders suggestions and did ALL they SUGGESTED for ME to do and still do...I was told to HELP the next suffering NICOTINE addict and I is an honor and a privilege to be of service....for sacrificial love and service given to ME give ALL away FREELY and in return you may help thanks ALL for giving ME.........H.O.P.E.........Hearing.......Other.....People's.....Experience......H.O.P.E..... .thanks for letting ME celebrating MY Daddy God....MY Lord Jesus and MY Holy Comforter at work in ME to be of maximum use and sacrificial love and service to whosoever....God.... chooses and IF he chooses to use ME for Christ Jesus glory here now on earth to save help save lost souls and ALL any whosoevers  in MY Lord Jesus name amen.

Once you've quit smoking and allow yourself to get through the roller coaster ups and downs to that point where you realize how much better life is without the crutch of cigarettes and you're in that good place in your quit that's when it's important for all of us not to become lazy and complacent in our precious quits because our quits really are precious and I want to always remember and N.E.F. that horrid DAY ONE! Sticking with N.O.P.E and vigilance is Key to a lifetime of Freedom because S.I.N.A.O Smoking Is Not An Option Anymore ,plus each and every Day WON Rocks! 

"We start dying from the day we are born."


      I had a guy on Quora say that in defense of having a couple cigarettes a day.


      Someone asked if a couple cigarettes a day were bad for you and I explained one cigarette can cause a heart attack or stroke and that your risks for both are substantially increased by smoking one or two a day.


      This guy says it isn't so and I tell him to google it and get back to me.

While he was doing this, I found at least 6 links backing up what I said. (these are 2018 articles based upon new studies.)


      He comes back with (only) one of the links and says "It only mentions one cigarette can cause a stroke in the title."  I tell him he needs to go to all the links I found and tell them they are wrong.


Then he comes back with this


"We start dying from the day we are born"


He doesn't understand

Cold turkey is hard

Posted by Melissapowell May 21, 2018

As I have mentioned I quit cold turkey 38 days ago. My brain wants me to go ahead and get some nicotine gum or a patch or something to help my intense cravings. I’ve made it so far though without nicotine. I’m so tempted though. Ugh    

Go suck on a straw

Posted by JAA13 May 19, 2018

so, it sounds like a nice way to “tell someone off” right?  Well, it’s a way to tell to convince yourself this is a silly habit we have gotten ourselves into. I have cut a straw I got from a fast food restaurant into the length of a cigarette and stuffed the very end of it with a tightly rolled cotton ball. 


Now, when I feel the urge for a smoke, I go outside just like I used to and “puff” on my fake cigarette. I suck, inhale deeply, kind of hold my breath a second, then exhale. Just as if I were really smoking. But it’s delicious!!!! It’s pure beautiful clean air!


Then, I take a few more “drags” and think to myself, “well, isn’t this silly?! I am standing in the rain, puffing on a plastic straw!”  So, I put the straw back into my pocket. Then, I go back in the house grossed out for even the thought of sucking on a cigarette that would directly fill my lungs with pollution. 


“Fresh air is much better,” I think to myself. Then, I read my list of reasons I wanted to quit that I have posted everywhere. I am happy I just won another round on day one. I WON! 


But really, deep breathing is relaxing, it’s calming, it’s healthy and not polluting the air and my body. I know this is only day one, but I am doing it! I am an EX!!!! I am going to keep doing this, even in public, after eating out, every day and every time I have an urge. Then eventually, I will think it is just too silly to suck on straws, take a few deep breaths and put down the straw for good. 



Posted by Chuck_Quit_2-20-2011 May 19, 2018

Good day Exer’s,


Sorry I haven’t updated for a while. I’ve been kind of recovering from all of the stress of the past. I never knew that having a person go missing can be so incredibly draining. But now, that’s in the past. And there’s a very important item for me that I thought I’d mention. I’m still smoke free!


Yep, that’s right. I now believe that there’s no way I’m going to smoke again, ever! And to think that all those years ago I was working on an entirely different mindset. One that was destructive, rather than productive. One that was slavery, rather than freedom. One that knew with every waking moment that so long as I continued feeding my addiction, the world would be fine. I would be calm and safe.


Back then in those days of slavery that I thought I was enjoying, there wouldn’t have been enough cigarettes to get me through the trying times. You see, I really couldn’t smoke any more than I was already smoking because there simply wasn’t a time in my day that I wasn’t smoking, and believing that it would make everything just fine. In short, I was hopelessly addicted.


I mention this because so often when people are considering quitting, they think that they’re more addicted than anybody else. I felt much the same. And when we tell ourselves that, it helps to convince us that there’s no way out, no matter how hard we try.


When I first decided to quit, I was terrified! Both of losing my comfort and of failure. As I smoked and thought about quitting, it seemed like an impossible task to complete. And yet, here I am well over seven years smoke free.


How I got here is what’s important, I think. You see, I didn’t just decide one day to put out my last cigarette and simply walk away from it because having tried that before and failing, I knew it was simply a waste of time. I knew that I had no idea as to how to quit. I’d reached the point where I seriously wanted to quit, and that in itself was no small feat.


Taking the time to learn what addiction is and how to deal with it is key to success! We must completely understand ourselves and how we interact with our addiction. That’s what’s important. With understanding comes confidence and with confidence comes belief. And with belief comes the ability to lose the fear of quitting.


On the day that I actually put out my last cigarette, I felt no fear. Instead I felt a kind of excitement for you see, I believed that I would succeed. I knew that I’d done all that I could to make that success happen and now I can tell you that I am completely free forever! If I was ever going to smoke again, it would have been a couple of weeks ago. But the thought never even entered my mind.


In fact, I was ten times more effective because I had no distractions, nor did I have the desire to take one of those phony breaks that I used to take when I smoked.


Take the time to learn and your chances for success skyrocket! Never give up and never give in to yourself and you too will be sitting on the other side of addiction. You too will be free and at peace. It’s all right there waiting for you. Go for it!!






Day 48

Posted by Eyes65 May 19, 2018

Today made 48 days smoke free... I am so excited.  It has been difficult at times but with God’s help I have made it this far.  I have more energy and I can breathe better.  I can tell the difference.  I can smell everything good and bad.  I have taken a number of test and the results have not been as bad as they could have... to be honest they were truly better than I expected.  I have now realized I am suppose to share this experience and help others. My next major tests are in 6 months.  Being free of cigarettes is a great feeling and I will never ever take another puff!!!!!!  

A Warrior!

It's what he does and what others say about him that speaks volume.   

Here are a few adjectives to describe him:

Courageous, Steadfast, Dependable, Humble, Focused, Unselfish, Dedicated, Unwavering.

Every morning this courageous warrior is the first one front and center to greet us 

He is steadfast in his messages of light, life, peace, hope, and joy.  

We look forward to and depend on his daily brief messages. 

He is humble for his messages aren't all about him.  They are to us, and for us.

He unselfishly pays it forward with a "you can do it too attitude". 

He is focused, on never giving up and dedicated to sharing a new lifestyle with an unwavering spirit that No Matter What, N.O.P.E 

Yes, mikecity is our Warrior of EX. 



p.s.  Stop by morning, noon or evening to say hello.  He is always here.  It can make a difference is your day.


Love Prayer

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 May 16, 2018

Dear Father God I come in MY Lord Jesus name and lift up my beloved sister Christine who is grieving losses.... beyond words...I ask for YOUR love to fill her NOW in her mind that is overcome in grief and in her will that's is struggling TODAY to see through the grief and her losses and tears and her many more emotions that are imprisoned in pain and grief that are so suffocating TODAY,,,, to her personally.... that only YOU...Dear Father GOD YOU ALONE....know Christine personally missing her Brian and desiring a NON SMOKER LIFE too.....Please help her Dear Father God to receive all Christ Jesus died to give just Christine alone on the cross in her Body Soul and Spirit......please Holy Comfortor fill Christine now to be strengthened by faith My Lord Jesus and the fresh filling of the Holy Spirit of Christ Jesus Himself in MY Lord Jesus name with all your Holy Spirit's fruit increasing more love joy peace in Christine now and to continue to be lavished by you Daddy God for she...Christine misses her Brian and she is your beloved Daughter in Christ Jesus amen thank you for always hearing MY prayer and always answrering.amen Hang in there Christine I love you and am so very proud you are not using nicotine.....just for TODAY.....WE is US and ALL here in UNITY....Never Take Another Puff....please keep coming back. Amen

One should Stop...Listen..., Absorb and Act.  Her words come forth as golden knowledge. No, you won't see her in the limelight but her empowering comments and inspiring responses are priceless, deep thoughts for self-evaluation and growth.  No you will not see hundreds of blog post but her words of wisdom are seasoned with truth, depth, humility, experience, knowledge, and are eloquently touched with grace.   I could go on and on about this Elder maryfreecig .    I am often intrigued by her inspiring comments.  Though she may prefer not to hold a title or be in the limelight, in my mind she is a Queen. Hear Ye Hear Ye, So it is spoken, so it is written, let it be done. 

I declare and crown maryfreecig a "Queen of Wisdom @ EX." 

 Here are a few of her comments to savor: 

Facing your quit with support may be just the thing that has been missing. Quitting takes time and having support is one way to face the challenges of quitting --lots of info and consistent support here. 
Relearning life without the smokes is a one day at a time deal. You do not have to know how you will take breaks for the rest of your life, just practice doing something else and take it one day at a time. First few days of quitting can bring on a restlessness and urgency to find complete solutions right now. Breath, accept your quit tasks…
 Yes, you can find your peace with this issue of leaving the smoking life behind. Ur--one smober day at a time. Keep focusing on your strengths.
So much to gain by letting go of the addiction! Once you are over it, clarity sets in about how much of an addiction. Keep searching for your very own reason to quit--it may be a lot closer than you think.
 I have come to believe that smoking is entirely an addiction. Quitting is not about weakness or strength-- it's about accepting a long-term recovery---and I don't mean pain and suffering for a long time and then recovery--I mean, it's about looking at smoking differently.  
Quitting nicotine is about relearning life without the smokes--the cigs (or the nicotine hits by the hour--takes only a few second for the drug to hit the brain and cause a sense of relief--addiction relief is all that it is). Getting off nicotine takes time, not necessarily a long time---but breaking the delusion that the nicotine addiction…
The addiction can make quitting seem like a betrayal of something that seems all important and vital--the cigs are only the delivery system for nicotine which is a powerful drug. It doesn't feel that way because we take it/took it constantly. The reality of not liking smoking, but craving a cigarette can leave one feeling split in two at the start of a quit.  BUT all of this can be turned around with a plan, a support system.   Quitting is a journey of undoing the nicotine dependency--and it, of course, starts with putting the cigs down.

 It was once suggested to me that when I or (addicts for that matter) get down, blue, in the dumps that it might be time to grow. It was also suggested to me that I could improve my spirits by doing something that once worked but that I hadn't tried in a long time, or try something new.  I still have to pull my self out of the dumps at times in various ways. Reasons to feel blue come and go. They don't last forever and they don't stay away forever.

Because smoking cigs is really an addiction to nicotine, the start of quitting is all about finding a way to make it through the ugly and weird cravings --so that your head can clear and keep clearing as you get more confident in your smobriety. As smokers, we really don't think of the cigs as containing an extremely powerful just seems like smoke from dried tobacco. Not good for you, but an addiction? But it is. 
Just keep your desire to quit alive and keep working it. Discouragement is not your friend. Keep looking for inspiration and encouragement...there is plenty of that at Ex for sure. Yes, you can, one day at a time.


Thank you maryfreecig

 Here is her brief story.

maryfreecig Archived Profile 




Today is a .....

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 May 14, 2018

I am Native American.....the government gives us cards with our blood percentage on it and with our picture to prove we belong to our tribe and blah blah blah.....I grew up with this saying.....Today is a good day to die......for ME...I am not talking about anyone please take what HELPS and let go of the rest to be HELPFUL is MY only aim....thank you.....I heard some of MY family members use this saying.....Today is a good day to die.....not really knowing what it meant yet thought it was for Native Americans ONLY...our names have changed....we were skinned skinned animals....Drunken Indians.... red skinned savages....and so for 2018 the government tells people to calls us Native amazes is a good day to die was used by some of MY family members when they were using alcohol or tobacco.....and the suffering consequences of those family members choosing of their OWN free will.....their day came....some died of alcoholism and some died of lung cancer....some died in alcohol car and motor cycle accidents..... some died early ages ......some long suffered died old ages.....these drugs have no preferences as far as people in general.... drugs are offered to ALL peoples..... to will is in ALL peoples one shoved them down is still going on in MY family tribe TODAY....the saying is still used by some of those using drugs they say.... Today is a good day to MY elders generation some said MY generation..... some..... have been blessed by GOD to be awakened to CHOICE and education of these drugs and I was personally awakened in 1985 by getting a Driving Under Influence.....aka a government changed that name from DWI...aka Driving While Intoxicated....this name changing to call ME and MY skin and drug use by a prettier TITLE...its so government.....only by God's grace I chose to be recovering from both addictive drugs.....alcohol and the NEXT generation MORE CHOICES.....for I am well educated with knowledge and Gods wisdom in ME....MY Lord Jesus and his Holy Spirit in ME by MY own belief...reading and studying Gods Holy Bible everyday for ME....I know for ME..... Today is a good day to die for I am kept by MY Holy Spirit in MY free will to choose day by day and to pass on this free gift...please get a bible and read for yourself....1 Corinthians chapter 15 verses 1-4 for salvation and Romans chapter 10 verses is so simple....just believe what your TODAY is a good day to die for I know where I will live for eternity.....the CHOICE is yours.....NOW you know and there is NO excuse when you are you know how to be saved in Jesus.....YES....yes you I am no longer labeled by the government or any human by those names I was called and stated above....MY skin ain't red.....never was....I am no longer a drunken savage.....only by Gods grace I am sober and nicotine MY Lord Jesus name and I am Gods beloved eternal daughter and MY Lord Jesus beloved eternal sister and by the Holy Comforter working deep in ME day by day cuz I freely choose and ask Him to HELP ME....Today is a good day to die for only by Gods grace I live because MY Lord Jesus lives BIG in faith.....thanks for letting ME share MY experience living a NON SMOKER LIFE in MY Lord Jesus name amen and amen.

Let's all continue stacking up those precious DOF no matter what, I love Dale's saying that I don't do that anymore, I tried to help a couple of family members last night that were drunk and chainsmoking ugh I knew better than drive over in the first place when my nephew opened the door I literally lost my breath and stepped outside I'm so glad that I don't smoke anymore and everyone that chooses to quit CAN Quit as Dale says keep them away from your face and the only way out is through! Life happens whether we smoke or not and choosing NOT is key to a Smokefree Life I'm so thankful that I wised up and took back my life from the clutches of the nicotine poison after 40 yrs of slavery, no matter how long you smoked as long as you believe in yourself and are willing determined and totally committed to succeed then you will be successful having the right mindset is key to a lifetime of Freedom and boy oh boy it's so worth it to be reaping the benefits of being an Ex Smoker. My thoughts are with all of the Moms reading this especially all of the Moms like me that have lost our Mothers huge hug coming to each of you and my thoughts and prayers are with our Nancy this morning too xo.


Happy MOM day

Posted by indingrl.01.06.2011 May 13, 2018

Most excellent gift to ALL MOM'S TODAY....Never Take Another Puff.....Not One Puff matter what please remember to blog BEFORE you use US the opportunity to HELP in love.... just the way WE were ALL helped in our moments of trials.....tests....and losses..just in living a NON SMOKER LIFE.....ONE MOMENT AT A TIME...thanks for letting ME serve the next suffering nicotine addict to give the gift of HOPE just like it was given to ME.....freely.....thank you love love to ALL MOM'S today., is written....Her children arise up, her husband also, and he praiseth her, many daughters have done virtuously, but thou excellent them ALL MOM'S in MY Lord Jesus name amen.....please take what HELPS and let go of the love is MY only aim....thanks. 

The Countess of EX

Some of you may not know ShawnP

Shawn directs and works


Did you know?


Shawn maintains and updates the files that count the days for the Freedom Train milestone celebrations?

 “That’s a LOT of WORK”!

The Countess also helps to keep count of the number of cigarettes thrown in the Annual Bonfire.

“That's a LOT of COUNTING”.

You can Count on the Countess to get the count correct.

You Can Count on The Countess to be one of the first to request prayer for the members.

You Can Count on The Countess to look for volunteers to assist on projects.

 You Can Count on The Countess to send out a help wanted ad.

(If you are looking for a job, let her know)

You can Count on the Countess to find one for you. 

You Can Count on The Countess to point you in the right direction.

You can Count on the Countess to give you the right instructions.

You Can Count on The Countess to send beautiful graphics greetings.

You can Count on the Countess to let you know if the Freedom Train isn’t running properly.

You can Count on the Countess as the backup Conductress for the Freedom Train.

You Can Count on The Countess to get it right.

You can Count on the Countess to give you good honest advice, here is some: Achieving the Goal 


Good day EXers!!


There was once a time when I believed that I couldn’t face life’s problems without a cigarette. Somehow I believed that the cigarette had some magical power, capable of transforming me to a place where everything is so much easier. I mean if something bothered me, all I had to do was light a cigarette.


I never really thought about the problem actually going away. I simply smoked to make it easier, or so I could concentrate on the problem more effectively because somehow, that magical cigarette seemed to make it so much easier to cope with problems. And after I was finished smoking I knew I felt better for at least ten minutes. That’s when the problem suddenly seemed to magnify again to the point that I of course needed more of that magic.


And on and on the illusion remained, keeping my mind from thinking of any kind of reality as I steadily increased my addiction, as if I could smoke myself out of any problem or enhance any activity simply by indulging in an addiction.


And the addiction just grew and grew. That’s the lies of addiction. Of the brain trying to make sense of its own destructive actions by creating the thought that the cigarette is somehow helping us!


With every cigarette that we smoke, we feed the lies of our addictions. Every time we use a cigarette to help us through a problem, we feed the lies of our addictions. When we smoke to become calmer, we feed the lies of addiction.


This is why one by one, we have to see through the lies that we created for ourselves. One by one we have to understand why we created those lies in the first place for that is the foundation of our quits.


I believe we have another word for those lies. We call them triggers. You see, when we feel the need to smoke it’s simply a response to the lies we’ve told ourselves for so long. We have to understand that there is no magic cigarette that can magically transform a problem into something more tolerable.


It’s simply an addiction that’s killing us, so long as we let it.


So the next time you feel a crave, try to see the lie that’s associated with that crave. If you can find the foundation, or lie of each of your craves then you’ll have the knowledge to sweep the rug out from under that crave.


Quitting is a process. One that we have to understand completely in order to succeed. Take the time to learn and you’ll find success. Find what makes your addiction tick, and it loses its power to sway you. For every thing you learn to do to combat your addiction, you’ll find the journey that much easier. It’s no cakewalk but it can be done and the rewards at the end of this fight for your life is amazing!








I have quite a story to tell you about the disappearance of my daughter Falon. Most of you know how it was for me on my end, but I wanted to tell you what happened to her because I think with all of the support, thoughts and prayers you’ve given both me and my family. I felt your strength through the entire ordeal and my heart was touched by the caring and compassion of all of those who didn’t even know her.


Now that the search is over, and I’ve had a chance to deflate a little I wanted to share this.


Falon was lost on the high mesa’s in one of Colorado’s wilderness areas. She first got turned around up there during the day, and then it began snowing and got dark. She took a wrong turn and ended up high centering her vehicle on a jeep trail.


She stayed in the car for the first night using the heater in her car to stay warm. The next day, she honked her horn and hit the panic button for the alarm on her car every half hour, thinking someone would hear it. She had no idea how deep she’d gone into the wilderness.


On the third day, she realized that no one was going to happen by so she decided to try to walk out. The snow on the ground caused her to lose the jeep trail she’d been travelling on and she became even more lost. She had no hiking gear or anything to help her with this. She did end up with a bit of frostbite during this time.


She told me she heard a bird and for some reason felt compelled to follow it. The bird would fly ahead and then come back to her. She followed this bird until she found a gate. She climbed the gate and followed a road that was more like a trail to three converted buses.


She realized that It was starting to get dark so she broke into one of the busses. Inside she found a jar of peanut butter and a couple of bottles of water. She spent the night in that bus and the next day she had to break into another one in search of water. Over the next days, she broke into all three busses, and took the supplies.


On the last days, she found a hunting cabin on the same property. She broke into that one and found more supplies and some stuff for survival. She had hurt her knee when she high centered the jeep and she wanted to let it heal a little. There was no cell phone service in this area.


She stayed in the cabin for the remainder of the two weeks. During that time, she said a kind of voice spoke to her and told her things like when to drink water, when to get some exercise and she says the voice even told her every time there was a tick on her. The voice even told her when to walk out of the wilderness.


She told me that she believed it was God that saved her. That cared for her and comforted her. She found a bible on the way out of the cabin. She’d never read the bible before. She left a detailed note to the owners of the cabin including how to get ahold of her, and she started walking. She ended up going in a circle. She sat and read part of the bible and then started walking again.


She eventually found the original road that had brought her there and started walking toward the town she thought was closest. It was six hours before anyone would stop. In fact, the one that did stop hadn’t even seen her. She scared the heck out of him when she walked up and asked for help.


He took her to police station and we picked her up!


So that’s what happened to her. Me? I’m slowly getting over the emotional and adrenaline hangover. Feeling pretty good today in fact!


Oh, and by the way, two days before all of this started, we had welcomed a new dog to the family. The poor guy felt all of the stress that we were feeling, right after coming out of the shelter. He’s a great dog. Very well behaved and actually kind of a lifesaver. Whenever my wife saw me getting too obsessed with the search, she’d tell me to take the dog for a walk. Found out that walking a happy loving dog really can be a stress reliever!


Now, off to build a little fence for him.


Doesn't matter

Posted by anaussiemom May 4, 2018

I just don't care anymore.

Who says there's no power in prayer? FALON HAS BEEN FOUND!! I'm going to get her now with her brother. More details to follow!



So often, people ask if your ever really free of smoking, or the craves that are associated with it. I wondered this myself as the years passed after my quit. After five years, every now and then I would get a crave or as Dale would say, a memory of smoking.


To me it felt like a hollow crave. Something to notice and then dismiss. But those thoughts never really bothered me for you see, I was comfortable with the fact that I don’t smoke. I was happy that I’d turned my life around and you know what? Nine times out of ten, I actually laughed a little to myself when this would happen.


The main thing is I was just so happy that I’d made it to the other side of addiction. I was happy that I could plan my day around my activities instead of  around my addiction. Cigarettes were part of every single thing I did every day. And now, there’s not even a scrap of my old addiction left.


How do I know that? Because right now I’m dealing with something in my life more stressful than I’ve ever had to deal with before. And you know what? Right now as I write this is the first time I’ve even THOUGHT of a cigarette and that was simply so I could write this.


Sure, I’m still an addict. You never really lose that trait or gene that makes us capable of becoming addicted, but I’m no longer a cigarette addict. To me, it’s like I never smoked in the first place. It’s a thing of the past that means nothing now.


So never believe you’ll never find peace. Never believe that you can’t enjoy life without a cigarette because I and so many others like me are living proof that this simply is not true.There is peace on your horizon. There is light at the end of the tunnel. There is freedom there for anyone who seeks it. Make that freedom a shining beacon within your mind and before long you too won’t even WANT to think about a cigarette anymore. In fact, you’ll wonder why you ever did!






Now on to the update. The facebook page is beginning to spread more and more rapidly, and we’re learning some things. Also, we’re beginning phase two of the investigation. This is where it starts to get interesting.


I wish I could tell all of you more but right now, it’s best to keep what we’ve found under wraps as we continue. The information we found may not actually find Falon, but it will get us a step closer. Just like quitting smoking, one step at a time.


As always, if you haven’t shared and liked the facebook page, please do so. And if you could also share our gofundme page it would be appreciated as well. Will be in touch and thank you for all of your support!




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