I need something....

[Lemw705]

I'm new, don't know where to start, what to say, or how to feel today. I have been successfully smoke free for 3 weeks today using chantix. I WANT to smoke today. I can't seem to shake the feeling or busy myself. I am a wife and mother of three, quitting smoking had has one of the best decisions I have made for myself and I'm excited my hubby is joining in the fight with me. However, today I feel like I just can't. I am so overwhelmed with emotion, anger, hurt, the unknown on dealing with my 15 year old daughter. I feel like a failure. I have no one to talk to, yes my husband is here but his solution is take everything, we are the parents, we make the rules. However that does not work. I can't talk to my mother well because she is full of I knew it, if you would of listened to me, you need to do this or that. I don't need that right now. What I need is to smoke a damn cigarette and gather my thoughts. How do I pass this urge that I WANT so badly?? I don't want to smoke.