I had a rough morning and really wanted to smoke. I've wanted to smoke more today than any day so far. What is it about day 5?
I'm prepping the house and my life for surgery next Friday. It's real. I finished all the medical pre-op stuff tomorrow. It's not a big deal - just fixing a bone thing in my left shoulder. It will change the way we live around here for a bit, though. I'll have to ask for help and all that good stuff.
So, my brain, just now....this very minute.... answered my own question. Day 5 for me is also the day after the day when I finalized all pre-op plans! I'm going to have to give up control - ask for help pulling up pants and simple things. I've been exerting a lot of control over the desire to remain smoke-free and have been winning. It's all about control! I need to think on this one a bit.
Anyway, I am still here, just wasn't interested in being social most of the day. I've kept busy with cutting fabric, sewing, getting ready to rearrange furniture so I can sleep in the recliner, and painting rocks. Anything. Everything. You know the deal.
I also painted on the back of my no smoking rock. Surprisingly (not), this is what I added to it:
THERE IS NO REASON TO SMOKE; THERE ARE ONLY REASONS TO QUIT.
