Having a hard time

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i just checked my days quit and I'm at 809.  Quite an accomplishment, I think by anyone's standards.  I thought that by the time I got to this point, I would have it "licked" and never think about smoking again.  Not the case right now.  I retired from work about 3 weeks ago and I'm having a hard time adjusting--feeling some sadness and loss and I am talking to a therapist.  I'm having some cravings/thoughts about smoking again, somehow believing that smoking will make things better/make me happier than I am right now if I start smoking again.  I don't want to give up my quit. I'm a member of this community for over 2 years and this is the most frightened I've been of starting again.  I need your help, elders and newbies!