i just checked my days quit and I'm at 809. Quite an accomplishment, I think by anyone's standards. I thought that by the time I got to this point, I would have it "licked" and never think about smoking again. Not the case right now. I retired from work about 3 weeks ago and I'm having a hard time adjusting--feeling some sadness and loss and I am talking to a therapist. I'm having some cravings/thoughts about smoking again, somehow believing that smoking will make things better/make me happier than I am right now if I start smoking again. I don't want to give up my quit. I'm a member of this community for over 2 years and this is the most frightened I've been of starting again. I need your help, elders and newbies!