No matter what stage we’re in during our quits, we always seem to miss the wonderful parts of it. That’s easy to do because we’re so busy arguing with ourselves and that argument starts the moment we put out that last cigarette.
Almost instantly, we want another one! What the heck is going on? Well, the most obvious answer is that we’re addicts. Plain and simple, we’re seriously addicted to something that is so much against us. At times, it’s hard to accept that we really are addicts. We look to the stigma that comes with that word, and I think for a lot of us, it takes a little time to admit the reality that we’re living.
But in the end, it’s one of the most important admissions we can make to ourselves. Until we understand the reality of our addiction, we can’t see it in its true light and as such we can’t fight it effectively. We can’t forgive ourselves before we first understand what we’re forgiving!
And forgiving our past mistakes in my opinion is a key to moving on to a bright future that awaits us. Once we understand that we are addicts, we can move on to figuring out how to fix it.
I always named my addiction the “addict within”. This was just my way to understand the constant argument that was going on in my mind. The endless voices, telling me that I want a cigarette while at the same time another part is telling me that I don’t.
And once I had a name for my addiction, I could converse with myself more easily. I could laugh at the antics of my addiction every time I felt a crave. I could yell at my addiction every time I got tired of the whole quit. But most importantly, I could look inside of myself to the reality of my addiction.
I could learn from my enemy and understand that the voices are simply my divided brain, learning how to find freedom. We all have a kind of addict within. That voice that argues every time we turn down the signal to smoke.
Of course it’s a normal part of beating an addiction. An impulse that somehow translates into a voice. We’re not going crazy. We’re just improving our lives is all.
So the next time you hear that voice, recognize it. See it for what it really is. The voice that we built over a long period of time. And then one by one, the tentacles of addiction that we have built into ourselves over the many long years can be ripped out of our being.
Every time we beat another crave, we rip out another one of those tentacles. Every time we smile during our quits, we rip out another tentacle. Every thing we learn what we need to propel us onward rips out another tentacle.
And eventually, there are no more to rip out. All we have left are hollow memories of a past addiction. And the need to be careful for just a little longer.
People have fought wars for freedom. And when we quit we fight a war for life! For our futures!
We taught ourselves our addiction and it’s within every one of us to rid ourselves of it. All we have to do is forgive ourselves for our past and look to the future! There’s so much out there waiting for you if you can just take that first step and then stay on the path. It’s really up to you. No one can do it for you.
Take that first faltering step and soon you’ll be on the other side of this and in most cases, you’ll wonder just what all the fuss was about . . . .
ONWARD TO FREEDOM!!!