In the beginning of my quit I really didn't think I would make it the 1st day, week, month and then days started getting easier and by golly now I am at 1 year 365 days without one puff of a nasty yucky cigarette in all those days. I have to say WOW what a journey this has been. This journey has taught me so much about life and myself. One of the biggest life lesson this has taught me is that I am in control of me and no one or Nico Demon dude can control my actions only me! I have learned and still learning how to live on life's terms but I now know I don't need a cigarette in hand to get through life. I have learned that Nico dude has lied to me all these years and he really can't help me in life crisis in fact only makes things worse. I learned when I have life crisis I come here to blog and share and my friends here will not give me permission to smoke when I was looking for excuses. I just knew when my daughter ran away, my grandson passed, and list goes on was ready to go buy a pack of cigarettes and thought it was good reason to smoke, but then I learned they were only excuses. So I learned there are no reason to smoke only excuses. I learned that I love not smelling stinky like an ash tray, I love that I can go anywhere I want because I don't have to worry about my fix, I love that I can spend more time with family and friends, I love that I can breathe better, I love this site because it taught me to be an EX. I love this new found freedom and living life without a cigarette in hand is grand (not sure whose line this is but love it). I also learned how to make and keep my commitment and determination you can too by saying NOPE! (not one puff ever) SINAO! (smoking is not an option) I don't do that anymore equals success and that is what got me to my first year of freedom. Thank you so much to everyone for being on this journey with me and teaching me so much. I am so excited to be in the 6% club and ShawnP and elvan for the golden key Ellen worked so hard to shine and the diamond key from Shawn. I will always cherish this and hold on to this key and NEF day one and keep going for day won. Again thanks so much for being you. I know I couldn't have or would have been able to do this alone. So to you all I am forever grateful and feel blessed to meet so many wonderful people.
