Hey guys - I am worn out. In May my husband had severe bleeding ulcers. ICU and lots of blood transfusions and then
Rehab and home with PT - then he got arthritis in his feet. Lots of topical rubs every four hours. This happened after his 1st cataract surgery. Drops every 4 hours and down to drops for the next 3 weeks. Then he fell - had to go to ER for X rays and thankfully no damage but showed arthritis in the back. Today 2nd. cataract surgery and the drops start again for 3 weeks. I don't mind the work - his feet and back are better but his ATTITUDE toward me is nasty. I realize that he is full of FEAR but won't admit it. At age 88 (he doesn't like that) I am trying to accept that these problems will continue to happen. Heck I am 81 and I know my tolerance isn't as good as it use to be.
I have had cigarette cravings but I don't want to smoke that is effeminately a "NO NO>"
Just venting and realizing that the past 3 months have been tough. I did cancel my exercise classes for the last 2 weeks. No enthusiasm and I know I must start working on contracting concerts (4 more needed) for 2019.
I just don't have the PASSION to talk to musicians and agents.
Oh well - this too shall pass.
Thanks for listening to my rant for today.
Lillian
