Day 40

[vanlil]

Can't believe 40 days from my surrender.  Feeling fantastic - now I am trying and trying to relearn my thinking pattern.  No more reward cigarettes for whatever reasons.  ex: housecleaning, concert work etc.

Found that I just enjoy sitting and looking out the window and get a feeling of contentment. Works most of the time -NOT ALL OF THE TIME - Learning that I can feel contented with being comfortable in my own skin.

Lillian