Ok so I have been seeing a few people recently and well forever ago complaining about wanting to smoke. Or thinking about it a lot. Or even taking that one puff because they are stressed out. Really? Your wedding that your in upsets you enough to smoke, that party you had a horrible time at made you do it? here is my story and after I tell you this I hope you will all see that it is NOT worth it, you will stop taking those puffs, and realize that others have it way worse then you and it is NO REASON TO SMOKE!
On August 2nd 2011 I went to my doctor to quit smoking. I quit that day! At about day 5 I was on my basement floor in a ball going threw withdraw. Balling my eyes out, having the shakes, and just hating life. I knew if I stuck with it I would make it threw. I was not expecting so many trials through this year though.
What I wanted to smoke through BUT DID NOT!
I was diagnosed with a thyroid disorder that will pretty much make me eat and exercise a certain way for the rest of my life because if i vary from it i gain LITERALLY 5-10 pounds over night and it stays!
Diagnosed with adreanal gland disorders....my body is rejecting me
Diagnosed with calcuim, vitamin d, and potassium disorders
I understand these are things that I can lead a full (fat) life with as long as I stay on my medications...but it is heart breaking to not even be 29 years old, in the middle of trying your damndest to lose weight, quit smoking, and lead a new healthier lifestyle and then be told you have health problems that are uncommon for your age but very common for women in their 60's. It makes you feel great let me tell you.<sarcasm> Ok back to the list
My husband is laid off from work damn near every other month and unemployment sucks ass when paying a family of 5.
My husband and i where both in a wedding for my cousin and my friend from high school and they pretty much just used us. they just assumed we would pay for everything, waited till the last minute for everything then expected me to do it....you know the movies with the bridezilla chicks....yeah the bride and groom both fit that discription.
My 7 year old son was diagnosed with hearing loss. he has to have surgery in august to see if it can be reversed, but I was given no garauntee. they are not 100% sure what is causeing it so they are just kinda crossing their fingers.
My step sons mother up and moved him about 4 hours away from us....with out even telling us...just up and moved...yayy for stupid selfish mothers!
Your everyday normal being so pissed at your husband that you want to smoke...but didn't
Oh and here is the kicker. I found my step son (12yrs old) touching my 5 year old daughter on her gentials, then after talking to him found out that the guy his mother left my husband for...while with him for like 6 years that guy touched my step son. My daughter is fine...I got them both into a therapist, and I called childrens services to make sure his mother continues to send him to get help and so that bastard of a man that touched him will be delt with.
There have been MANY other things that have made me want to light up...but I haven't. So to all you people that are quitters and saying you are stressed and you want to light up...WHY??? If I can live through all this stupid bull sh*t over the past 336 days then you can deal with planning a wedding smoke free. You can deal with your pet dieing. you can get through it all with out lighting up because in the end what the hell with that smoke fix anyway? It can not take away the awful experiance my daughter just had with her own brother, or the experiance my step son had with a man that was supposed to care for him, so how in the world is it going to help take anything away for you? Just please don't it is so not worth it.
