THANK YOU ALL for your continued support. I have completed 1 year of being smoke free and will do my best to have many more anniversaries!!! This is going to be my 4th and final attempt at quitting; there's no turning back now.
I realized that there are many factors that played a role in my staying quit that I am grateful for. I had more support and knowledge this time around and I always had somewhere to turn. I did it for the best reason this time. I quit for ME and that made all the difference in the world.
In the past I did it for other reasons, ie kids or hubby wanted me to or expense of it; but not this time. I also hadn't told anyone right away; i didn't need to be reminded of my past failures. I didnt' need anyone making me feel bad about myself; i beat myself up every day about it. This played a major role in my success this time.
I remember the months before I actually quit, I would sit outside smoking my cigarette and just get so disgusted at myself every time I looked at it. I called myself names because I was angry that I had failed so many times. I always felt like others were looking at me in disgust. These are the things that I will hold onto and remember when I crave a cigarette. I DID NOT LIKE MY SMOKING SELF!.
I don't have to feel that way anymore; I can do anything and not have to smoke. I can be proud that I accomplished another very difficult goal. It makes me feel like I can do anything. Now I will move onto tackling the weight that came with the quit.
Again, THANK YOU ALL!!! It is great to have people like you in my life.
