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It’s that time of year

Posted by stmand92 Dec 12, 2018

Hi Everyone, 

I'm just coming to check in and let you know I am still committed to my quit. I have had some ups and downs but the urge to smoke doesn't sneak in. This is a tough time of year for me as I’m sure it is with others. I struggle to keep myself from getting depressed but it is really hard. Sometimes I want to come here and just rant because I don’t feel like I can talk to my family but I stop myself because I don’t won’t be negative. I am depended on a lot so I try to stay strong. I’ve never been good at expressing my feelings so I would love to create a personal journal that no one can get to. Anyone know a site I could do it on?

On a good note;

I have gained some weight over the past couple years and struggled to take it off but I finally found something that helps. 

my son invited me to try a high intensity workout at a fit body boot camp. I never would have thought that I could handle this kind of exercise but I am happy to say that’s I have stuck with it since May and have participated in weight loss challenges that allowed me to lose about 20 lbs. It has given me new goals and something to work towards. The support i receive from gym members and coaches is much like I have received from everyone here and just shows just what can be done with the support of others.

 

As always, I’d like to thank you for all your help and support. I wish you all the Happy holidays and a safe,happy new year. I will try to check in more often.

stmand92

Four years and counting!!!

Posted by stmand92 Apr 30, 2018

Going in to year 5 as a nonsmoker and feeling mighty proud...

stmand92

Good Morning!

Posted by stmand92 Apr 25, 2018

Good Morning All, 

I hope you are all well and staying committed. I am checking in to let you know that I am still keeping my pledge to stay quit. It has been a rough year so far with working two jobs and finishing up my Master's Degree. Now that tax season is over I can focus on finishing up the Grad project this week and then it will be onto getting ready for my daughter's wedding which is in 3 weeks. A lot of stress but only few thoughts of having a cigarette that quickly passed. There was one weird dream about it but sometimes I think it could be because i can smell it through my window when mom smokes. Only a dream, thank God. 

 

I am still struggling with taking some weight off and have just about given up the thought that I would lose some before the wedding. I have gone to weight watchers nearly every week since June and barely average a pound a month. I am turning 49 years old so it's harder to get it off. Any suggestions are welcome as long as they don't involve pills or starvation. 

 

I hope to get here more often when things slow down because it gives me a calming affect. When I am stressed it helps me to see where I was nearly 4 years ago and makes me feel better. I like to read the different content and see what everyone is up to. I hope all the newcomers get the needed support and do well. 

 

Have a great day!

stmand92

Dropping in

Posted by stmand92 Nov 1, 2017

Hi Everyone!!!

It's been a while since I've been on the site, it sure has changed a lot. I'm not sure how to navigate the site yet but I will figure it out. I have been busy with school and work so I don't have too much free time and when I do i have to get my exercise in. I am still going strong; it's been like 3 1/2 years. I am now still struggling with the weight but I will try to be positive and get that in line eventually. 

I hope you are all doing well and getting ready to enjoy a great holiday season. I will try to get back soon.

Sophia

stmand92

Stopping in to say Hello

Posted by stmand92 May 22, 2017

Hello All, 

I hope you are all well. 

stmand92

Three years of freedom

Posted by stmand92 Apr 27, 2017

I opened up my Facebook account to find that 2 years ago today I had posted about staying quit for a year. Time passes fast and you don't realize how quickly the days add up. I still have my days where I THINK I want to smoke but I quickly realize that I don't. It usually happens at the time that I am working day and night; when I have no time to do anything and lm very stressed. I have found Irvin has gotten easier over time to just push the thought away. 

 

I will always say that I owe much of my success to this blog and the support I have gotten from it. If I even think about taking a puff I always remind myself that I would then have to tell all of you and it would shame me to do so. I need the accountability to keep me going. 

 

I hope ole everyone is well. Til next time.

stmand92

stmand92 Archived Profile

Posted by stmand92 Jan 23, 2017

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My name is Sophia and I tried my first cigarette when I was around 12 years old. I probably became a daily smoker not long after. I am now about to turn 45 and have spent about 3/4 of my life smoking. Just about my entire family smokes which makes it hard not to be around it. 3 of them live with me. I have attempted to quit 3 times before lasting 4-6 months without lighting up. I'm hoping this is the final time. 


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stmand92

Almost to 1000!!!

Posted by stmand92 Jan 19, 2017

Hi everyone, it has been a long time since I posted, I have been busy with work and school but I never forget about the site or the people. I am happy to see so many people that have been here for years and those that are just beginning. I think the last time I blogged my number was 777 so today when I saw how close to 1000 I was, it was very exciting. It has been nearly 3 years which doesn't seem so long ago but when you break it down in days, boy what a difference.

I can honestly say that it is a very rare occasion that I will have a craving no matter what the situation. 3 years ago I would have not thought that I could possibly succeed for this long. I used to think that I could just be a social smoker but we all know how that goes. I am confident that I will not begin smoking again. I will now focus on my next journey of losing weight which has been a struggle for quite some time now. I found an online support/training group that I will use and hope that it works as well as this website has worked for me.

Thank you all!!

I hope you are all well. The 777 from the last blog did not produce any lottery winnings so I remain poor. I still have my health and am sticking to my quit so that's all that matters. I wasn't able to register in time for the Masters program so I will start in September instead. Other than that, all is the usual, a lot of working.

I hope you are all enjoying the summer and keeping cool. I am looking forward to my week down the beach, it will be the first full vacation without a cigarette. I don't have any doubts that i will be able to make it though. While many of my family members smoke, there are still enough who don't to be around. I think we are starting to turn the corner and the nonsmokers are outweighing the smokers in the family. This is not something i ever thought I'd see so I am happy its happening.

Talk to you later!!

stmand92

Good morning!!

Posted by stmand92 Jun 13, 2016

Hello everyone,

I hope that all of you are well. I opened up my page today and saw 777, I will be playing that number for the next couple of days. I have checked the site a couple times but haven't posted. I was going to post on my 2 year mark but didn't get to it.

I hope all newcomers are able to get the help and information that they need to be successful with the quit. You can reach out to anyone on the site for help and support. There are a lot of great people here that can give you support and guidance. Reach out! Stay Strong.

I am still going strong and have overcome all the excuses that I had previously found to pick up a cigarette. Whenever I even think about it, i think about how I would have to come hear and tell everyone I failed. That is not an option for me. This group has helped hold me accountable which contributed to my staying quit so long. I am now trying to help my niece's husband with his quit. I keep telling him about the site but I don't know that he will come here.

I wasn't able to get to start school in January, they didn't receive the information on time so September it is!. I am nervous and excited at the same time. I guess it is best to start in the fall when not working both jobs, this way I will have a good handle on it when I do work both jobs.

I wish you all a great, fun, smoke-free summer season!!!

stmand92

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Posted by stmand92 Dec 24, 2015

I just wanted to drop in and say Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all of you! I only get to dropping in every once in a while to tell you i am still hanging in there.

This will be my 2nd Christmas Season smoke free and it feels wonderful. I rarely miss it at all and the cravings are seldom. I believe I have this beat but I never take it for granted because I never want to go back to the old way. I will keep it in the front of my mind as a constant reminder that I don't do it anymore. I thank God every day for giving me the strength to do it. 

With the end of the year comes my very busy time of work. I will be working two jobs over the winter AND hopefully, starting on my Master's Degree next month. With all that going on at the same time, I may need to check in here more often.

As always, THANK YOU ALL, for your support and encouragement. 

For those just beginning their journey; take it day by day and learn all you can about how to quit and stay that way. 

stmand92

Woohoo!

Posted by stmand92 Sep 22, 2015

Hi, 

I just wanted to check in and say hello. I hope all the newcomers are doing their homework on the site; there is so much help on here. 

I am so excited to see that we finally got the like button! There are so many post that I like but can't reply to them all. And the high five button...awesome!!!

I hope you all have a great day, stay strong and true to yourselves. Fall is a beautiful time of year, go out and get some fresh air, enjoy it! 

Sophia

stmand92

Happy Hump Day

Posted by stmand92 Aug 5, 2015

Hi All, 

Just checking in to let you know that i am still an EX. Don't get here often but it is in the back of my mind. I have had a tough couple of weeks battling some stress but i didn't faulter. There were days when I was depressed that I thought about sabotaging my quit but I thought of the hard work i put in and how I would have to tell everyone; it's not worth it. I even went and spoke with my doctor.  I didn't really want it anyway; i was just battling myself. 

I am almost 16 months in and I don't really think about smoking that much. I take pride in saying that I quit and people around me think it's great. 

I wish everyone on here, new & old, much success. Once you quit make it your priority, things do get better and when in doubt, visit this site.

Enjoy the rest of your summer!

stmand92

Happy Beautiful Friday!!

Posted by stmand92 Jun 12, 2015

Hello, 

i just wanted to stop to check in. I dont get here often but i remain free of nicotine. I am looking forward to the do things this summer without worrying about smoking. i do crave on occasion but have kept it at bay. The summers were hardest for me but if i made it through last summer at the beginning of my quit, i'm darn sure I can do it for the rest of my summers!

Newcomers, stay strong, break habits and create new ones. Keep putting off that crave and you will be able to do quit!! 

I hope you all have a fun filled summer!!!!!!

stmand92

I MADE IT!!

Posted by stmand92 Apr 28, 2015

THANK YOU ALL for your continued support. I have completed 1 year of being smoke free and will do my best to have many more anniversaries!!! This is going to be my 4th and final attempt at quitting; there's no turning back now.

I realized that there are many factors that played a role in my staying quit that I am grateful for. I had more support and knowledge this time around and I always had somewhere to turn. I did it for the best reason this time. I quit for ME and that made all the difference in the world.

In the past I did it for other reasons, ie kids or hubby wanted me to or expense of it; but not this time. I also hadn't told anyone right away; i didn't need to be reminded of my past failures. I didnt' need anyone making me feel bad about myself; i beat myself up every day about it. This played a major role in my success this time.

I remember the months before I actually quit, I would sit outside smoking my cigarette and just get so disgusted at myself every time I looked at it. I called myself names because I was angry that I had failed so many times. I always felt like others were looking at me in disgust.  These are the things that I will hold onto and remember when I crave a cigarette. I DID NOT LIKE MY SMOKING SELF!. 

I don't have to feel that way anymore; I can do anything and not have to smoke. I can be proud that I accomplished another very difficult goal. It makes me feel like I can do anything. Now I will move onto tackling the weight that came with the quit.

Again, THANK YOU ALL!!! It is great to have people like you in my life.