It’s been a while

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I am still smoke free. I don’t have many thoughts of smoking. However I don’t want to get complacent. Recently I had some thoughts of smoking because my sleep is messed up and I anticipated having to stay up all night to do homework. I made a commitment not to smoke, and I went to sleep. 

I hate being depressed. I have no control over it, the way it changes my thought process, the sleep changes, the sluggishness, the guilt and self-loathing.

i am almost done with my first semester but it is like walking into gail force wind to get my final assignments done.

 I’m glad I’m not smoking. I am keeping my commitment to myself.