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Blog Post created by shill57957 on Mar 16, 2012

227 days ago, I quit smoking.  I had smoked about 1 1/2 packs a day for about 27 years.  This was my third attempt at quitting.  My first attempt was in 2003, I made it 6 months and when my dad got cancer I started back again.  My next attempt was in 2009, I made it 4 months, the whole 4 months was rough.  I was miserable and craved all the time. 

For my first quit I got hypnotized, I went to a seminar.  It worked really well for me.  The second and third time I quit using Chantix.  A miracle drug in my book. 

My first day back in August 2011, was rough, I had my last cigarette before bed on 8/1/2011,  I wasn't 100% committed to this quit, although I really wanted to quit, I just didn't want to go through it.  I made it 19 hours and then I ended up smoking 2 1/2 cigarettes at 4:30pm that first day.  Ready to give up, I posted on this site and was scolded.  It was like the slap into reality that I needed. 

Day 8 & 9 were strange days for me I didn't know what to do with myself, its strange when you go smoke every 30 minutes or so and now you don't.  It's like something is missing, you have to relearn how to get through your day.

I made it through No Man's Land, during that time I had strange events.  One time I was leaving a store and looked in my purse for my cigarette and my lighter to get it ready for when I walked outside and I suddenly remembered Oh my gosh, I don't smoke!  Smoking memories are strange.  Even now over 200 days later, this trigger was my biggest.  A smoke after a long shopping day.  When I leave the mall, I still have a slight thought about how nice it would be to have one.  At 200 days, smoking thoughts are fleeting and don't affect you, they leave as fast as they come. 

I have not had a craving since Day 1. 

Early in my quit and I know everyone's quit, we ask the question, When will I stop thinking about them?  Although we are addicts and probably will always have a thought here or there.  They will become less and less in your mind as time goes on.  Time does heal all wounds.  And smoking was a wound.  It was a big part of our lives.  A very big part.  When I see someone smoking, the only thing that goes through my mind, is Thank you Jesus, that I don't do that anymore.  Sometimes I even say it out loud. 

I haven't been around as much as I used to.  I used to live on this site, everyday.  For many reasons I had to leave and not come around as much.  I was just spending too much time here and needed to go learn how to live without thinking about cigarettes and smokers and my addiction every day.  So I have focused my attention on other things and now I rarely think about it.  I do however still really want to help people achieve the same wonderful freedom that I have, because I walked away victorious this time.

Last fall, when I was on the site there was much talk about Mt. Freedom and what it means.  I don't see that on here much now. 

If you have been a smoker, then you must accept and understand that you are a nicotene addict and what that means.  That means you must feed your body nicotene every 30 minutes to 2 hours or so.  Nicotene demands that it be kept at a certain level in your body or it will make you miserable.  We all know about that.

It takes about 72 hours for Nicotene to be completely out of your system.  Once the nicotene is gone you are FREE.  It is up to you after that point to stay free.  If you think you are having cravings, you are wrong,   Once you are free from Nicotene the cravings stop.  At this point, you must learn to live without them and ACCEPT that you will NOT under any circumstance have one again.  NOPE.  The nicdemon will try to make you think you are craving and must have one, it is a LIE.  Tell him to get lost.  Come to that place where you understand that you cannot have one and will not under any condition have one and then you can move on to the wonderful place, the place called freedom. 

Once you achieve freedom, it is better than any high in the world.  It is a place of self love and place of self respect, self honor, self pride.  You will be so happy. 

Please join me here on Mt. Freedom. 

Sheri

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