Okay I am 195 days into my quit I should be strong now in my quit right? I mean after all, I have been through a couple of holidays so I know how this is done. My plans today consisted of going to my brothers for good family time, food and conversation. After dinner, we all played cards and bam it was about to become real here and I had my guard down. Then several family members started smoking cigarettes and cigars, QUESTION: Is Cigar considered smoking?? My brother's brother n law offered me a cigarette, handing the pack to me. Oh my gosh I took that pack of cigarettes, I don't know why I took them because I told him I don't smoke. Then my brother offers me a cigar (I have never had a cigar) he kept telling me to try it, just take one puff. Ummm the Nico dude is in fine form trying to get me back telling me one won't hurt. My addicted brain and family telling me cigar is not like smoking it wouldn’t hurt to just puff on it and oh here one cigarette won't hurt. Then someone else told me just don't inhale then it won't be considered smoking. WHEW WEEEEE!! Did the pressure get to me? Yes it did! Taking deep breaths, I got up and walked away. I took a cold brisk walk outside to get my wits back. I am so so very thankful as I did bring my quit kit which consist of my water bottle with fresh cold ice water, mints, gum and a lemon in case it becomes an emergency. Well guess what after 195 days being free the emergency came real to where I had to bite into my first lemon. And can I say blech blech and blech and pucker, pucker and pucker power, ewe. YEp I can see how that detours the smoking thought as I still am puckering lol. So I went and said my good byes and I am very proud of myself today to say that I am still smoke free and do not have to go back to day one. Going to bed with this day won. YAY!!!!
