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Posted by shashort May 14, 2019

Wow wee a great feeling as I have actually went 1095 days equals 3 years without a single puff whatsoever!!  In the beginning of my quit I struggled.  I think for me and probably many others, it is really hard to see ourselves as nonsmokers, because smoking is all we knew.  For me, I mourned the loss of my Nico dude, I had a sense of  missing something.  I didn't realize it at the time but all these smoking years I have been missing out on real life. I lost out on the feeling of sense of purpose.   Before I quit smoking I would rarely go anywhere because I didn't want the hassle of having to find a place to get my fix, was embarrassed because my smoke smell, and really it was so much easier to stay home and not have a life. I would make excuses why not to go to family things or if I went I would be outside sneaking a fix and missing family conversation. I am sure many of us did the same thing, if we couldn't smoke we wouldn't go. So real life loss is what I was missing and the sense of belonging, because I isolated myself from the real world.  In the beginning we struggle and fight ourselves and the process because of the unknown and fear of life without Nico dude or dude-etts (my made up word lol) in our life.


Let me tell you there is life after smoke and I am loving life and me again. I have discovered there is life and people on the outside of my doors. I am doing things I would never do before. I wake up breathing in the mornings and no more struggles of gasping for air. I actually go to exercise class with a group of people. I would have never done this ,for one I am very shy and uncomfortable exercising in front of people, I couldn't breath while exercising and my self worth was none. I volunteer helping special needs kids, which I wouldn't do before because I was ashamed of the way I smell. So let me tell you there is life without smoking.  I enjoying waking up and knowing there is things to do in life, and there is people out there to me meet and gaining new friends and having a social life again is way better than being a slave to the Nico dude. Another great thing in my  life I have learned so much about me and learned I am as valuable as anyone else, but I am still a work in progress.  So to the newbies, I challenge you to think beyond the life of smoking and really visualize what you think life could be like for you.  What kind of things can you do again that you enjoy doing that smoking kept you from.doing. Get excited about your quits!  Find your determination and go this your final quit. Think positive and KNOW YOU CAN do anything your set your mind to.  Know that all the discomfort you experience in the beginning will not last forever, and it is so worth the effort so get to the other side of life after smoke.


The great thing about this group is you don't have to go alone through this journey. We are your cheerleaders! Use us and come here for help, vent frustrations, read and learn all you can.  I know for me I would have never made it through this journey to new life without the great Elders and support I received here. Again, another great thing of life without smoking is all the great people and friends I have met here.  So to my Elders THANK YOU for putting up with my tantrums and knowing what to say to help me get through this journey and keeping me on the curvy and narrow path to freedom.  So to the newbies, stick to the path of freedom and you will not regret it.  Stick with NOPE! It will take you to freedom.


Oops didn't mean Goodbye

Posted by shashort Feb 7, 2019

Whoops I didn't mean to publish it, I left in a hurry and thought I clicked draft.  Yes it is goodbye triple digits!  Sorry your stuck with me not going anywhere hehe.  This was what I meant to post was:



Wow I can't believe it is already 1000 days  without a single stinking puff off a nasty cigarette whatsoever!   In my smoking days when I kept thinking about quitting I wish I could have foreseen the future and what life without a cigarette in hand has to offer, maybe I would have quit smoking sooner.  I  really love life as an EX!  Yeah it was a struggle in the beginning but the end of 1,000 days life is good. .  The greatest thing about being an EX is I don't have to answer to the beck and call of the Nico Dude.  I can do whatever I like and don't have to worry about a fix or how I smell.  I now can exercise without gasping for air, spend time with family without feeling like I miss out on things, spending weekends in smoke free places, which I would not do as a smoker.  I am a work in progress but even my self esteem and confidence has increased.  So had I could have seen in the future at how much I enjoy life without smoking I would have quit earlier. To all the newbies:  Stick with your commitment, remember SINAO (smoking is not an option) NOPE (not one puff ever) will get you to FREEDOM!  It really does get better, just be patient with yourselves.  YOU CAN do whatever you set your mind to.

Today was a great day not only spending the day with my sister and volunteering to help special needs to make dog biscuits for them to earn money for their outings but I also had a Doctor appointment and was finally discharged from the surgeon.  What great timing to end the crazy hand journey and start new beginnings with the 2,000's chapter.


I can't say thank you enough for all the love and support you all have shown me.  I really know without a doubt I would have not made this final quit journey without all of you showing me the way. Thank you with all my heart.



Posted by shashort Feb 7, 2019

Wow I can't believe it is already 1000 days  without a single stinking puff off a nasty cigarette whatsoever!   In my smoking days when I kept thinking about quitting I wish I could have foreseen the future and what life without a cigarette in hand has to offer, maybe I would have quit smoking sooner.



Whoops didn't tmean to post yet wasn't done lol


The last time!!!

Posted by shashort Jan 31, 2019

HI all! Guess what!!! I survived THE LAST SURGERY!!  I am 3 week and 3 days post op for the last time SO THEY SAY!  I went for a follow up last week because my incision looked angry, ticked and really red, so I called the Doctor went in and it was on the verge of infection she put me on antibiotics for safety and today it looks really good and healing nicely.  I started another round of OT for the last time. Hand is feeling somewhat better, at least enough to start typing with it. YAY!!  At least one more follow up next week and then it's the last time for this hand journey. Again HORRAY!!  So now I am taking a right turn and a new start of my journey to finding who the new me is and what else this journey has for me.  I know one thing certain in my new start is  watch out QUAD SQUAD in 7 days here I come! Today is 993 days of freedom.  This first chapter of 1000 days had it's challenges and trials and here's to moving forward to chapter 2 and hopefully it is much kinder to me. Thanks to everyone here for supporting me through all this and I know I would have not been a successful quitter without this wonderful EX group.


Although, I haven't been commenting I have been here reading and seeing several newbies struggling with your quits.

Make this the last time you light up a cigarette, make it the last time you relapse, and make it the last time trying to quit.

How to make it the last time is make a COMMITMENT, GET DETERMINED, TELL YOURSELF NO MATTER WHAT!!! NOPE IS THE WAY TO GO!!!  We know it is hard, but it can be done, we did it and so can you.  You will have struggles and challenges to face no doubt as you are learning how to deal with life on life's terms.   Just know those challenges and struggles teach you to become a stronger person. So dig deep, stay strong, do what you have to do to get through those struggle, kick, scream, punch a pillow, cry, be tough just don't smoke.  Know these feeling and struggles get easier with time.  Be patient it is a process.   We are here to help you get through these struggles so use us.  Come here and holler for help and make this your last time and forever quit.



Posted by shashort Jan 7, 2019

Surgery went well.  I love the part when they ask me if I smoke and I can happily say NO!  They gave me a nerve block so at the moment I feel no pain. Limited to what I can do for 3 weeks.till I can see the Doctor. But YAY it is over.  Thank you for all the well wishes. Now onto recovery for the last time. Glad I don't smoke my healing time will be quicker.  Thank you to all of you for your love and support and prayers during this long for ever lasting nightmare for keeping me on the straight and narrow path of freedom. I truely don't think I would have made it now 970 days of freedom without my EX family.  Off to bed to sleep off the sedation.


Merry Christmas

Posted by shashort Dec 24, 2018

I am forever grateful to each and everyone for all your love and support.  I am thankful to be part of this wonderful family. Without this family I would have been puffing my life away the last two and half years.  I am forever grateful to be smokefree and although life has not been exactly easy in the past 2 years ( 955 DOF) I REMAINED AND EXSMOKER and so can you.. Remember newbies you are creating new memories as an EX smoker, stay true to yourself and remember NOPE.  NOPE has set me free and it can you.  Remember NO MATTER WHAT NOPE NOPE NOPE!!!!  Sending love and hugs to all of you.



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Protect your Quits!!

Posted by shashort Nov 22, 2018

Happy Thanksgiving to my wonderful EX family I am forever grateful for each and everyone of you.  I remember early in my quit that holiday gatherings could be a bit of a challenge.  In fact I was 6 months in my quit on thanksgiving and came dang close to losing my quit. I actually had a cigar in one hand and a cigarette in the other hand. I was forever thankful that I learned new skills  and had my tool box to ward off the nicotine dude.  I went for a walk singing Giulia's NOPE song sucking on a lemon and smelling my hands, and singing pew weeeee my hands stink and NOPE NOPE NOPE  I don't do that anymore.  So what is in everyone's tool box to protect their quits today and every holiday?    I am thankful for my 924 days of freedom.


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The Doctor says!

Posted by shashort Nov 7, 2018

I can divorce the boot at bed time. HOORAY!!!!!!!!  He said that he believes he corrected the problem.  The problem was many nerves bundled and growing causing pain, but the bigger problem the nerves were trapped by scar tissue.  He cleaned it out and re-reouted many nerves.  Let the healing begin.  In a week or so or when swelling decreases I can start weaning out of the boot.  I have to start torture therapy to help with the scar and to help me walk normal and not on the side of my foot like I have gotten use to.  We believe we are starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. One minor ulner and carpal nerve repair and this should be the end of the 2 year nightmare.  Thank you to everyone who has been with me through this crazy journey.  I truey don't think I would have conquered without you all believing and supporting me.

My motto  Believe I CAN do anything, I will conquer and I did.  Tell yourself positve thoughts and you will conquer.


900 Days  Ago!! Yesterday

Posted by shashort Oct 31, 2018

Zipty doo dah Zipty day, my oh my what a wonderful day.  Whoop! Whoop looky looky who hasn't taken not even one single stinking puff off a nasty smoke for 901 days.  The ride has been crazy and definitely takes work to keep this freedom, but will say it has been worth every bit of effort.  I am loving my new found self during this journey. You CAN do any think you want to do just make up your mind then do it.  So now I skippety doo day onward to earn my comma and join the quad squad. Woohoo dream big, think you CAN, believe,and say NOPE will take you to the path of freedom.  Thank you to everyone who has been on this journey with me and helping me get to where I am today. Love to you all as I couldn't have done it without you.


Surgery Update

Posted by shashort Oct 7, 2018

Hi everyone!  Well on day 5 of foot surgery and just realized I didnt post a blog.  I atually wrote one but forgot to hit publish.


Surgery went well for the most part of course I had to give them a bit of a challenge and surgery took a bit longer than expected. I am in a boot and have to wear this darn thing 24/7 and using a walker... he said I could bear little weight but use the walker to catch most of the weight.  The real struggle trying to get comfortable sleeping with the boot.  I know this shall pass... I will not smoke over it.


To catch you up.  On Wednesday things seemed okay except pain was starting to get out of control. They sent me home on 5 mg percocet  1 tablet every 6 hours which I was taking regular to keep pain under contol.  I also was sent home with antibiotic clindomyocin to prevent infection.  The antibiotic was causing severe heart burn. It continued to worsen through the day. Thursday I woke up with severe itching and difficulty breathing and pain out of control.  I went to the restroom looked in the mirror and I was broke out with hives every where.  I called Doctor and he sent to me to ER.  They gave me bendryl, monitored my breathing. I Spent all day in ER. but got itch and pain under control. So thankfully the weekend has been uneventful. Don;t see the Doctor until Oct. 24th so hope it heals right. Wish I could do things the easy way.  So again I will not smoke over it.


Hope everyone had a great weekend.


Here I go again!

Posted by shashort Oct 1, 2018

Hey all still here just haven't been on here as much in past couple weeks. Life has been busy! Been spending lots of sister time as we decided to remodel her whole kitchen from ceiling, cabinets, sink, counter tops and new paint scheme for her walls, oh and of course new floor. It truly has been a good time spending it with family even though we are working. We are just enjoying being together.  This is one of the perks of being an ex smoker, is that you don't have to keep leaving to get a fix which leads  you the feeling of missing something like  not missing the paint fight, and or the food fight.  Getting done slowly but surely.  I just love I don't have to go run and hide to smoke anymore. I have noticed more newbies here congrats on making the decision to quit. For the newbies, I always wrote out the positive things I noticed about quitting smoking.  You have more time and money on you hands for sure. By now starting to notice breathing better.  When the crave hits tell your self you don't do that know more. My life saver is NOPE not one puff ever keeps me free and focused on my goal.

For the newbies, Just know with each day it will get better and better. Positive self talks can go a long way.  Tell yourself you CAN do this! Keep it all positive and your quit will go smoother.  yes we all quit smoking and so CAN you.  When struggling come here first to get help before buying cigs, it will save you life. Remember we are here for you.


As far as here I go again: Yes another surgery scheduled this Tuesday on my foot.  I am having problems with a neuroma and is hurting like heck.Will be weight bearing restrictions for at 4 weeks, if I follow the norms on healing.  Asking for prayers that it goes smooth and fixes my pain issues..  But as usual I will not smoke over it.  I haven't had not one single puff or even a cig in my hand for 871 days. And I am loving my freedom.



Posted by shashort Jul 28, 2018

Good golly It's hard to believe it's already 800 days really now 802 days um now 804 days okay now 806 days without a single stinking puff off a nasty cigarette whatsoever!  I have been trying to write this blog and life kept taking me away so here is another attempt. lol   In the beginning of my quit I never imagined I would make it this far. Was it easy HECK NO!! but possible and as they say around here DOABLE!  In the beginning of my quit or any quit for that fact you have to work it and do what ever it takes, and no matter what to keep with NOPE (not one puff ever), and keep your commitment. I had good days and bad days, and really ugly days and  truthfully I had to just dig deep within myself, dig both heels in the ground to keep myself from going to buy smokes by hollering NOPE, staying busy, coming here to blog, I also had people to  working with me on the sidelines to keep me on the straight path, what ever it took to keep me free is what I did.  Life is always going to happen but it is our choice on how we are going to respond to it. I chose NOPE and forever grateful to be celebrating all these days.  OH AND THE BENEFITS YOU REAP FROM QUITTING IS ENDLESS!  Read Sootie's blog Sootie  UNCOMFORTABLE.  Did it take you too memory lane?  Well remember those days of being uncomfortable and the feeling of social outcast, and all the effort it took you to find a way to get your fix. Also remember your day one and first few weeks of discomfort and don't want to go through that again.  Now I am living life comfortably and enjoying the things I like to do and you can too.  In the beginning it will take you time to feel comfortable but know with One Day At A Time, NOPE NO MATTER WHAT!! life brings us WE WILL GET THROUGH .  Believe it, know you CAN do it and you will live a comfortable FREE life.  OH yeah and at day 806 I rarely think of smoking, rarely a crave so just know it really gets better with time.  


So make the commitment, do the homework and stay close to this site and one day at a time you will find freedom. It is so worth the effort and hard work.  Write blogs, if need be look in Elders list and private message some of the people you feel comfortable with when the tough gets going because it will and you need to be prepared.  Feel free to message me for help if you need to just don't pick up or go buy nasty smokes.  Life is grand as an EXsmoker. 


Thinger (thumb) update

Posted by shashort Apr 20, 2018

Hi everyone! Just wanted to let you know I went to the hand Doctor for my 6 week postop checkup.  I am happy to report those 3 ugly rods that was sticking up out of my thumb have been removed.   HURRAY!!!  And surprisingly there was no pain involved in the removal  of the rods. Whew (wipes my brow) with relief and glad that part is over YAY!!  He says he is happy with the position of the bone and it is still in the healing stages. So onward I go to OT again to work on mobility (again) for now until I see the doctor in 1 month then hopefully move into the strengthing stage (again) of therapy hopefully for the last time.  He is anticipating at least 3 months of therapy.  As for the nerve pain, looks like rerouting the nerves so far has worked, time will tell once the nerves start regenerating themselves.  So with all that being said as long as there are no complications or problems occur between now and end of OT, then hopefully that will be the end of this chapter of this journey.  Then hopefully move onto bigger, better, healthier happier days.  I can't even begin to express how grateful and thankful  for all of your love, care and support you all have given me.  I really believe that I would have not stayed on ex smoker through all of this without support and I am so thankful to be in this loving community with such wonderful caring people.  I love my 707 days of FREEDOM!  It is so much worth all the effort and discomfort in the beginning.  Some days we have to dig deep within ourselves and do what ever it takes , no matter what, with NOPE to get to there.  BElieve in yourselves and go for your dream of being free. You CAN do it NEWBIES!


Oh yeah ps:  I can now start typing with 2 hands again woohoo!! Watch out I am back! lol love you all


700 Days of Freedom

Posted by shashort Apr 13, 2018

In the beginning of my quit I never really thought  I would  make it through day one and by golly here I am at 700 days without one puff period. I have learned a lot in these past days. I learned to start telling myself I don't do that anymore, Smoking is not an option (SINAO) NO MATTER WHAT happenes in life there are NO EXCUSES to smoke and NOPE (not one puff ever) is the way it has to be stay free.  So if you follow this and DO WHATEVER IT TAKES NOT TO SMOKE like jumping jack, run, take a walk, wiggle, jiggle, giggle, laugh and stay busy doing something comstructive is the way to freedom. I am loving my freedom of being able to anything I  want to do without worries of having to have Sicko Nico bugging me.. Stay strong Newbies you CAN do this one day at a time. Stick with NOPE! Thanks to all my fellow EXers having my back and teaching and showing me how to live this new life of freedom.


2nd events

Posted by shashort Apr 6, 2018

Hi to all.  Still working on the second season and events as a non smoker. My heart is full of sadness and my eyes fulll of tears to have to say goodbyes but I am dealing with it.  Today is the showing and tomorrow is the funeral, which is the 2nd funeral since I quit smoking.  Although I don't anticipate any problems as I really don't have cravings, but I am aware of Nico Demon sneaky ways and will be on gaurd.  My plan is to stay inside and hang with non smokers and enjoy loving on my family today.


To the Newbies always keep your guard up and always saye NOPE!  Always carry your tool box and be prepared to use it.


 I am still peeking in, although not responding to much.  Had Dr. appt and I am not to use my left hand at all.  So far the bone seems to be healing.  I still have the rods in and will for at least 2 more weeks, when I have another Doc appt and xray.  Today is the Showing and tomorrow is the funeral to say goodbye to the best Brother N Law ever. Lots of tears but hanging in there. I am always forever gratefule for my EX family. Love to all and thanks for always with me.