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Depression Sucks !!

OldBones-Larry
4 11 117

My name is Larry, and I suffer from Depressive/Anxiety Disorder.

To look at me you would never know that anything is wrong.

I have heard many times the phrase, "It's all in your head" said about those that suffer from depression and other mental problems.

They are correct actually!

You are in your own head dealing with this every day.

I use two different medications for my anxiety episodes.

However, I have to be in the anxiety state to take them.

Depression is a different story.

Every medication I have tried turns me into a zombie.

Therefore, I have no medications for that.

I use a lot of meditative type music to fixate on and weather things as best I can.

Drumming and Native Flute seem to work best for me.

They connect me with the Elders and Ancient Ones.

I don't have thoughts of suicide like I did when I was younger though.

I do have to guard against them though.

I leave these thoughts and facts here.

Use them as you will.

I can only hope that some light can be shone on this illness by them.

I wish everyone well this day.

Larry

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I am a male that underwent coronary artery bypass X3 (triple) on 10/22/13 at the age of 55. I was living on about 20-30% of one coronary artery and my left heart output was only 20% to 25%. I spent a week in the hospital after surgery and went home. Then had to go back a day later for another week because I had pneumonia. Finally a few days because of a slight arythmia. All told it has been about 2 1/2 weeks. I am past the cravings by now and only have the urges to contend with. I really don't suggest that anyone quits smoking using this technique though. I'll have to carry the scars from that day for the rest of my life. The large one down the center of my chest, and the ones from several "silent" infarctions. I came that close to the next world. Never again will I subject my body to that (at one point in my life I was smoking 5 packs of cigarillos a day). I now have to say N.O.P.E. (Not One Puff Ever) every day of my life. TheOldGoat-Joan, I miss you terribly my friend. Elder Lists Guilia's: (/blogs/Giulia-blog/2017/06/18/elders-list-ao-december-7-2016 ) or Smorgy's (Chronological Elder List)