I wanted to touch on an unfortunate side effect of quitting smoking that sometimes occurs.
I have suffered from a depression disorder my entire life. My family never knew that I was depressed at any time.
Did they know? I can't say.
They just ignored it? Possibly.
I think part of it was from Middle Child Syndrome.
I had one older brother that I knew. Two others died as infants.
I had a younger sister until I was thirteen, then another sister was born.
I was basically part of the wall most of the time.
I dealt with it by immersing myself into books since I couldn't see to play sports.
I tried, but it wasn't to be.
As I lived inside myself I was never really a happy person.
I finally realized the problem when I became an adult and was out on my own.
The disorder would appear at times and then disappear.
I spent several years mired in a depression at one time.
It ended and I was basically OK for quite a few years.
When I had to undergo the bypass surgery, the depression returned.
I was told many heart patients suffered depression.
It seemed to be much deeper this time though.
Through reading, I discovered that some people that quit smoking also have this problem.
I am doing well now and am not having problems at this time.
The following describes it pretty well, though nothing can totally describe it.
/blogs/oldbones-larry/2019/01/26/depression-gorge
I have learned ways to combat this disorder now.
I overcome it now whenever it rears it's head.
It sometimes takes a while, but, I overcome.
I wish everyone well in your journey.
Every step you take brings you closer to being free from the death sticks and nicotine that used to control your life.
One step, and then another, will get you to where you want to be.
Larry the Caravan Master
